When I returned to my hometown during the winter vacation, under a broken wall in the west of the village, I saw Kuni's father and daughter again. Father and daughter sat side by side on a sun-dried, rotten poplar tree, and at a distance, Kuni's father smoked a cigarette with blank eyes, and Kuni looked at me in disbelief—she obviously didn't recognize me.
But I knew her.
There is no one in the village who does not recognize Kuni. The reason is very simple, because of her life and her suffering, if she is made into a movie or written into a book, I believe that the audience will all burst into tears.
However, he was clumsy, so he had to remember two or three things about Kuni, which could be regarded as a low cry for Kunni's tragic life experience.
Kuni's original name was Li Yan, and when she was a child, the neighbors affectionately called her Yanzi. She was indeed like the swallows returning from the spring, chattering happily all day long, talking to everyone, in the countryside, adults like children who do not recognize birth, big falling, not twisting and pinching swallows, naturally quite popular with adults.
Adults like the most direct manifestation of a child, that is, they love to joke about the child's "lifelong events". The women often pinched the swallow's fleshy face and asked her, "Swallow, do you want to find you a mother-in-law?" ”
At that time, Yanzi was only seven or eight years old, but she spoke very eloquently: "Why not? It's better to find a few more, I'll take my time and pick the best one! ”
The words made everyone laugh. When Yanzi's father heard this, tears were about to burst into laughter, and he scolded her for being a little girl** shameless.
Later, the cheerful swallow inexplicably became uncheerful. When you see someone, you no longer take the initiative to say hello; When others joked with her, she didn't respond in a blank manner, and seemed to be indifferent to everything around her.
Another time, everyone was chatting in front of Yanzi's house, and an uncle of Yanzi's own family (a bachelor) also came over with a rice bowl to join in the fun.
Everyone joked about the uncle: "Why did Yanzi run away when she saw you, and you didn't give her New Year's money?" ”
The uncle blushed, scratched his head with chopsticks, and bared his yellow teeth: "Give, this girl ......."In the coming year, give her another big one, and see if she can run! ”
If you have that money, you might as well keep it and buy a daughter-in-law......Someone ridiculed.
The uncle buried his unshaven face in the sea bowl and didn't answer.
Later, people finally understood
The reason why Yanzi ran away when he saw him was because he often did something to Yanzi, especially when there were no adults in Yanzi's family, he was even more daring and did a lot of shameless and obscene things.
Yanzi cried and resisted, and he directly stared at the beads of warning with wide eyes: "If you dare to cry again, Lao Tzu will strangle you!" ”
Poor teenage swallow, how can he withstand such intimidation, in shock and fear, at his mercy. Moreover, every time he finished "playing" the swallow, he would pull the swallow's braid and threaten her ear: "If the adults in the family know, I will skin you alive, you know, I will kill the pig the most." ”
This uncle violated the swallow for several years. It wasn't until one year that the swallow and her father inadvertently broke it, and this incident saw the light of day. On that day, Yanzi's father waved a shovel, blushing and cursing in his mouth, he wanted to fight with this uncle, but fortunately, the old man in the clan came forward, so that this matter would not cause death.
This uncle may be ashamed and embarrassed, or he may be afraid that the Yanzi family will be arrested, so he fled that night and has not come back so far.
He's gone, and it's a pain for the swallows here. A delicate yellow flower, with several nail marks pinched, even after a long time, the scars on it are clearly visible. The reputation of the swallow stinks.
When it comes to the age of talking about marriage, no one cares about swallows. Later, with the help of a relative, Yanzi married a cripple from a neighboring village.
Not only is the man lame, but he is also much older than the swallow. He should have known about the swallow, so in the matter of marrying the swallow, it was like buying an obviously flawed item at the set, the bride price was extremely low, and the marriage was also extremely perfunctory.
When the two drank a glass of wine, everyone coaxed "kiss one", he was unmoved, put down the wine glass, turned around and went to the toilet, the swallow stood there alone, crying or laughing, like a monkey in a circus being watched.
After marriage, men have always been cold and indifferent to Yanzi, although they live under one roof, they have very few words every day. Men have the skills to repair TV sets, often go to the countryside, only the swallow is left at home, the swallow is not easy to go out, when he is at home alone, Gu Ying feels sorry for himself, and the loneliness in his heart, not to mention how uncomfortable it is.
Later, Swallow became pregnant and gave birth to a daughter. The man still has the same cold attitude as before, but fortunately, with the children by his side, the swallow is busy with things, so he is not so lonely.
When the daughter grew to the age of three, the swallow became pregnant again, this time as a son. At this time, the man's attitude improved, and there was a hint of warm joy on his cold face, although this joy belonged to his son alone, and had nothing to do with Yanzi and his daughter, but after all, there was a change. The swallow's long-frozen heart is also like ushering in a trace of warm sun, which begins to melt and begins to have a warm feeling.
But this warmth disappeared when his son was three years old. That day, the man took his son out to play, and there were people playing cards in the field, and the man stood and watched for a while, and when he found that his son was missing, he hurriedly went to look for it. By the time he found him, his son had fallen into a puddle not far away and was out of breath.
The son was fished up wet, and the swallow rushed to hear the news, first hugged the child and cried a few times, but then did not come up in one breath and fainted. When I woke up, there was something wrong with my eyes.
After her son was buried, Yanzi often ran out alone, and she was seen for a long time, and she was often sitting alone in front of her son's grave and talking to herself, whimpering and crying. Later, the man locked her in the house and did not let her go out. After a while, the door of the house was unlocked, and she did not go out because her mind was no longer clear.
The man was drunk, and he drank dizzy every day, and when he saw the swallow, he either beat or scolded, and the swallow didn't know how to hide, so he shrank on the ground and let the man vent. Once, when Yanzi's father came to see her, he happened to bump into a man beating and scolding Yanzi again, and he was so distressed that he took Yanzi home.
After getting married, the daughter has no place in her mother's family. After the swallow came back, the two brothers didn't say anything, and the sisters-in-law were not happy. In order to drive the swallows away, they tried their best to squeeze the swallows, and also asked people to help the swallows pull the strings, and all kinds of people were introduced, silly, stupid, old, and ...... with big problemsThese were all blocked by Swallow's father.
The old man was also very tough, and in front of his two sons, he let out the words: "Yanzi eats my food, as long as I have a breath, you don't want to get rid of her." ”
The words are said to the son on the surface, but in fact they are said to the daughter-in-law. The daughter-in-law felt uncomfortable when she saw that the old man was biased towards the swallow, but she had no choice but to cover her husband's money bag tightly, for fear that her husband would be "ignorant" and "spend money indiscriminately" for this stupid sister.
Swallows have lived here for ten years. During this period, her sanity was sometimes good and bad, and when she was good, she followed her father to work in the field, the two talked and laughed, and the scene looked very warm; When it's not good, she talks nonsense and runs around, her father follows her, she goes, her father goes with her, never stops, just protects ......Seeing her father's sweaty and tired appearance, the people in the village felt sour and uncomfortable.
The people in the village sighed at the bitterness of Yanzi's life, saying that this Nizi came to the world to suffer a crime, and she was a complete "bitter girl".
Kuni was still looking at me in disbelief. Seeing that I was walking away, she turned her head and asked her father, "Who is that?" ”
Her father exhaled a puff of smoke and put his left hand on his purple ear: "Ah, what are you talking about? "He's already behind his ears.
Kuni didn't ask again. The two fell into a long silence again. The sunset stretched the shadows of the two people bitterly and long.
end– vernacular proseAbout the Author
The untouched cat (pen name), born in the 00s, likes to dance and ink, a very flowery English boy.
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