January 31.
I left w for 5 days, and I went back today to take a look, and I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable in my heart, and I can't stand it and leave. Maybe those three days of shopping were a little too crazy, so there were already sequelae. It was only after reflection that I realized that I was wrong, and my madness came from pride and ignorance in my heart.
So sorry, I also want to be happy and smile like I used to and share my hobbies. But for the time being, it seems to be so difficult to do in W. After a while, when I am stronger inside, I may be able to do it.
People will always grow up in bumps, but in the long run, patience is still the wisest choice for the time being.
February 1. Share a little story of yourself: My friends will know that my husband and I met online, and after almost 1 year of communication, both of us feel good but still politely maintain a friend relationship. Until one day, I felt cheated and felt very sad. It stands to reason that if it's just a friend, then you shouldn't ask anything of each other. But it's not easy if you're emotionally invested. When your mind is confused and your heart is sad, you can't think at all. But suddenly one day a picture came to my mind, and I saw myself going to tell a big sister who went on a trip with me two years ago to tell me about it. I decided to go to her, and whatever advice she gave me, I would accept it as a divinely directed. In fact, I'm still quite worried that after hearing such an unreliable thing, she will ask me to cut off the relationship, after all, I am emotionally invested. As a result, she just advised me to cut off contact for 1 month, and she said that when you don't know what to do, the best way is to wait. After 1 month a lot of things will be clear.
In this case, then cut off contact for a month, I am very responsible to tell my husband, he also knows the helplessness and accepts. I can't know what the outcome will be, and I can't know what their choices will be in a month, but since they have already decided, they will accept the final outcome calmly. It's not the most important thing to get or not to get, it's important not to make the wrong choice. I don't know how to choose the right time, so I can only wait and leave it to God to decide.
Looking back on this experience today, I find myself in a fog again, unable to distinguish between southeast and northwest, and I don't know whether I should go forward or backward, left or right. Is it a dream that you weave yourself? Or fall into someone else's game? Or is it a sincere intention? Or is it a temptation that you can't bear? Or are you clinging to your mission?
So in the fog, I didn't dare to move, I didn't know that there were pits, cliffs, and safety? You can only wait for the sun to appear, dispel the fog, and see the road ahead. Only when the sunshine appears, I believe that the helplessness in everyone's heart can be finally released.
When I can't choose, I'll leave it to heaven to decide. There is no calculation in it, today is just February 1st, so press the pause button for 1 month. 1 month can happen, change, see clearly, sort out a lot of things. But I send blessings every day, and I always believe that when the sun appears, the helplessness in everyone's heart will disappear.
Two worlds, two earths.