When the black letters on the white paper ruthlessly declared that I was free, I lost my former joy. Before my eyes were no longer a besieged city, but an empty, cold city.
The moment I walked out of the Civil Affairs Bureau after my husband and I had just gone through the divorce procedures, I suddenly realized that the home I had been working so hard to maintain was finally dissolved. I think back to the scene when I met my ex-husband, as if it was yesterday. At that time, how much we loved each other and how happy. But as time passed, our feelings faded until there was nothing left to say.
And at this point, I realized that I had fallen in love with someone. He was gentle and considerate to me and made me rediscover my feelings of love. I've even discussed with him and I'm ready to marry him. But when I was basking in the joy of entering a new life, a bolt from the blue broke my dream - he betrayed me!
I couldn't believe my eyes. When I saw him with my own eyes with another woman, my heart was like a knife. I don't understand why he betrayed me when we were about to get married. I used to think that our relationship was indestructible, but now it seems that everything is so fragile.
Anger, sadness, helplessness, ......All kinds of emotions intertwined and made me almost collapse. I even began to wonder if I was worthy of love. But in the end, I decided to be strong in the face of it all.
I tried to adjust my mindset and re-examine my life. I began to reimagine my future and stop pinning my happiness on others. Although this experience was painful for me, it also made me grow a lot.
Now, I've come out of that trauma and started my life anew. I still remember that experience, but I've learned to let go. I know that only by facing the past bravely can we better meet the future.