Back 23 years ago, I was 8 years old and in the second grade of elementary school.
At that time, my family was also happy, and my parents were loving and kind, and they were very fond of me.
Our family also adheres to the traditional concept of Chinese family in which the male is the male and the female is the female.
Dad works in a factory near his home, while Mom takes care of the family's daily life.
But Dad doesn't have the machismo of traditional men, if he gets off work early, he will consciously take the spatula from his mother's hand and say, "Xinmei, hard work, let me come."
My mother, on the other hand, sat on the couch and watched me do my homework.
In my eyes, my dad doted on my mom very much, almost the kind that responded.
Mom likes to go shopping and buy beautiful clothes, likes to play mahjong, likes to go out with some sisters, and Dad never says anything.
Every time my father paid his salary, he would immediately hand it over to my mother, and as for how she spent it, he never asked.
I also thought that my parents were loving, until after that day, I started to hear some gossip.
That day, after school, I had just walked to the door, and the next door neighbor looked at me strangely, but didn't say anything.
As soon as I stepped into the room, I heard my parents arguing, and the word "divorce" was in the word.
I panicked in my heart, since I was sensible, my parents rarely quarreled, and occasionally quarreled, and my father could quickly coax my mother to be good, not as hysterical as now.
Seeing me come in, Dad immediately extinguished the cigarette in his hand, immediately pretended to be fine, touched his head and said, "Fei'er, you're hungry, Dad will cook immediately".
I don't know why, looking at my father's back, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.
I glanced at my mother, her eyes were red, the tears in the corners of her eyes had not dried, and she had completely lost her former elegance.
Without saying a word, I went back to my bedroom.
In the days that followed, peace returned to the house.
It's just that every time I come back, the neighbors next door always whisper in groups of three or five, and when they see me, they look like they want to talk and stop.
My suspicions intensified, so I hid out of their sight to hear what they were saying.
This kid is so pitiful, with such a mother? When you get married, you're still messing around outside."
Who's to say it isn't? You haven't seen it, but I've met it several times, and the two of them are like one person."
Yes, one day I went to the street to buy clothes for my children, and the two of them held hands as if there was no one around, I was really afraid of the eye of a needle, so I quickly slipped away."
Is this talking about my mom? I don't believe it.
Maybe I was so angry that I didn't allow them to say that about my mom.
I rushed out and threw my bag into the ground in front of them, "If you talk nonsense, be careful that I tear your mouths."
My posture startled them.
Aunt Wang, a neighbor, was not far behind, "What's the matter, your mother did something like that, and she didn't let people say it."
One of them tugged at the corner of her clothes, and she didn't care, and continued, "Fei'er, it's not me who said your dad, he is just too honest, that's why he was bullied by your mother on his head."
The matter was pulled on my dad's head again, and I finally couldn't help it.
As soon as I stepped forward, I was about to tear Aunt Wang's mouth, but she dodged it lightly.
The others felt bored and dispersed.
Only Aunt Wang and I were left staring at each other, and in the end, she was frightened by my momentum and hid in the room.
After dinner in the evening, Dad went to the factory to work overtime.
At nine o'clock, my mother was ready to go out.
I saw that she was well-dressed, so I asked her what she was doing out.
She replied with a gloomy face, "Children's family, why are you worried about these things, you go to sleep quickly."
After saying that, she was about to leave, I grabbed the corner of her clothes, and finally asked my doubts these days, "Neighbor Aunt Wang, what they said is true?" ”
She had an inexplicable expression on her face, "What's really fake?" ”
I continued, "They say you have someone outside, is that true? ”
She didn't admit it or deny it, she just said, "When you grow up, you'll understand," and she left after speaking.
Because of this sentence, I tossed and turned all night, and the next day I woke up with swollen eyes like two walnuts.
For the next five days, my mother stayed at home every day and didn't quarrel with my father again, and I thought we would go back to a peaceful life.
It wasn't until the sixth day that I came home from school and saw the note left by my mother, and my heart instantly stirred up.
My mother said on the note, "I'm going to pursue my happiness, don't come to me, let's get together and disperse, and cherish each other."
Dad read the note, and without saying a word, he sat on the couch and lit cigarette after cigarette.
I remember that my dad never smoked, and it seemed that since the last time he had a fight with my mother, he had smoked more and more frequently.
The smoke in the living room was so uncomfortable in my throat that I coughed and hurriedly pushed the windows open.
When I returned, my father had already snuffed out the cigarette in his hand and collapsed on the couch and fell asleep.
Daddy's eyebrows were tight, and he didn't seem to be sleeping well, so I gently stroked his eyebrows, and he fell asleep again.
Mom, just left quietly.
And my dad was pointed at by the people around him because of my mom's elopement, and in the end, my dad simply sold the house and moved to another town.
After changing places, the previous rumors and rumors are gone, which is a new life for me and my father.
It's just that after Mom left, Dad was a lot more decadent.
For the matter of going to work, he began to fish for three days and dry nets for two days.
If you don't go to the factory, you get drunk at home.
Every day I came home, he was drunk.
Once, he was crying while drinking, and his mother's name was still in his mouth.
I snatched the bottle from his hand, and he finally sobered up and said, "Fei'er, it's you."
I answered and told him to drink less.
He shook his head and began to drink again, still reading in his mouth, "Fei'er, you don't know, this wine is a good thing, and getting drunk can relieve a thousand sorrows."
I began to realize how much my mother's departure hurt my father.
If I was still crazy about myself before, my mother also had a hard time, but at this moment, I hated my mother.
The consequences of Dad fishing for three days and drying nets for two days lasted for half a month, and the boss finally couldn't bear him anymore and fired Dad.
Dad lost his job, and he was unhappy for a day, and then he began to let himself go.
Every day when I came home, he was either sleeping in bed or drunken on the couch with beer bottles and cigarette butts scattered all over the floor.
I sighed helplessly and began to sweep up the garbage.
After that, I started cooking again.
When my mother was still there, I had never cooked, and my father would always say, "Fei'er is our little princess, so let my father do all the work."
But after my mom left, I slowly learned to cook.
I remember the first time I started cooking, I broke 5 bowls and wasted a dozen eggs to make an egg fried rice, and finally made a bowl.
Although I washed the pot for most of the day because of this bowl of egg fried rice, I felt that all the efforts were worth it when I saw my father's comforting expression after enjoying the fruits of my labor.
Later, I started to try some of my father's favorite dishes, and although I failed countless times, I never gave up.
I thought to myself, now is the most difficult time for my father, I have to take care of him, let him feel the love of his daughter for him, so that maybe he will slowly cheer up.
The turning point came three months later, when I was in the hospital for an accident, and my dad finally came to his senses.
That day, I ran to the vegetable market after school as usual, and I bought pork belly, thinking that I would go back and make my dad a braised pork that he liked.
Who knew that I was carrying vegetables around the bend and was hit by a tricycle, and I was pushed far away in a parabola.
How did you feel at the time?
I felt that my whole body was fluttering, as if my soul was about to go out of my body, and I wondered if I was going to take a break.
But I was very conscious, and I thought about what I would do if my father was gone, and whether I would be heartbroken and unable to live.
So, I've been telling myself not to fall asleep, but to stay awake.
It's just that my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier, and by the time I wake up, I'm already in the hospital.
When I opened my eyes, I felt as if my whole body had been run over by a car.
It is surrounded by a wall of white flowers, and there are machines next to it. And my dad was asleep next to me.
I thought I would die in Huangquan, but I never thought that I would still pick up a life, which feels so good.
My feet suddenly went numb, and I struggled to move, but I woke up my sleeping father.
When Dad saw me wake up, he immediately said nervously, "Child, you finally woke up, Dad thought he was going to lose you."
His eyes were bloodshot, and he shed tears as he spoke, and I was so distressed that I couldn't do it.
I wanted to wipe his tears, but my father stopped me, "Silly boy, your hands are still dripping, don't move, if you want to do anything, tell Dad, Dad will do it for you".
I shook my head and tried to speak, but found that my voice was a little hoarse, and it hurt a little when I spoke.
Dad looked very uncomfortable and nervous, "Is it ** painful, tell Dad, Dad go to the doctor".
I shook my head again, signaling that I was okay. Dad breathed a sigh of relief.
I later learned that I had been in a coma for more than ten hours since I came out of the operating room, and the doctor said that if I didn't wake up within 24 hours, I would probably be in bed for the rest of my life.
After listening to the doctor's words, Dad was so frightened that he couldn't do it.
He had been talking in my ear all night, and then he fell asleep as he spoke.
I said how I always felt like someone was talking in my ear, it turned out to be my father.
Fortunately, my father woke me up, otherwise I would have to go to Hades sooner or later.
This accident caused me to have intracranial hemorrhage and multiple fractures in my body, and I stayed in the hospital for a whole month before I was discharged.
After a month, when I returned home again, I felt that the air was fresh, but the furniture at home was covered with a layer of dust.
Dad touched his ears and said a little embarrassed, "In order to celebrate the discharge of my little princess** from the hospital, Dad will be responsible for all the work today, and my little princess only needs to be responsible for resting."
I smiled and felt a lot of comfort in my heart, and my father finally returned to his previous state of mind.
After half a year, I ate my father's food again, and the taste was so delicious and familiar.
As I ate, I suddenly started crying.
Dad looked nervous, "Fei'er, what's wrong?" Is it because Dad's cooking is not delicious? Don't cry, my crying dad is heartbroken."
I shook my head, wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and said, "No, Dad, I just haven't eaten Dad's food for a long time, and I cried with joy."
After I finished speaking, Dad breathed a sigh of relief, "You kid, you scared Dad to death."
After a while, Dad continued, "Son, Dad did something wrong this time and made you suffer, but don't worry, from today onwards, Dad will cheer up, work hard, and give you a better life."
I didn't want to cry, but the tears flowed down unconsciously.
I put down the chopsticks in my hand and immediately gave my dad a hug, "Dad, no matter what happens in the future, you have me, and I will always be by your side."
Dad also stroked ***'s back like when I was a child, and replied with a "yes".
A ray of sunlight refracted through the gap in the window, warm and comfortable.
I knew that after this day, all the ups and downs would pass, and my dad and I would finally have a rainbow.
After that, Dad really regained his fighting spirit as promised.
In just half a month, my father found a job again.
When he doesn't work overtime, he picks me up from school every day and cooks me a lot of good food in the evening.
On weekends, my dad would take me fishing in the suburbs.
Dad said that fishing tests a person's patience and can cultivate one's self-cultivation.
But usually my dad comes home with a full load, and my bucket is clear.
Later, I really didn't have the patience, so I watched my dad fishing, and when I was bored, I took out a book and put it on top of my head, and lay down next to it to sleep.
When I woke up, the sun was setting, and it was time to close the stall, and my father returned with a large bucket of fish.
Time passed slowly, and I was slowly growing up.
I finished college on track and then went back to work.
After four years of work, I partnered with a like-minded college classmate to start a business and opened a foreign trade company that belonged to us.
The company has also experienced difficult times, but fortunately, we have risen to the challenge and the company has gradually moved on the right track.
The scale of the company is not particularly large, but now, I am also a small boss with an annual income of one million, which is considered a small achievement.
Later, I changed a small villa for my father, bought a car, and my father had nothing to do with three or two friends to fish, dance square dance, and life was also delicious.
When I was 30 years old, I met one of the company's clients and eventually got married.
Once, because of the example of my parents, I lost confidence in marriage for a while.
It was Wen Hao who touched me with love and taught me tolerance, understanding, and how to love others.
I finally overcame my timidity and made a white head covenant with Wen Hao.
I thought our family would live happily ever after, but last week, a sudden appearance of a man shattered the peace of our lives.
Last Friday, my dad suddenly felt a little unwell, and I rushed back from out of town to take care of him, who knows, an uninvited guest came.
That day, my dad was resting in the bedroom, and I was lying on the couch playing with my phone when I suddenly heard the doorbell ring.
I thought it was a courier, but when I opened the door, it was a strange woman.
She looked at me, looking a little excited, and I didn't know why, but I looked at her again, as if she was a little familiar, but I couldn't remember who she was.
Before I could speak, she took the lead in asking, "Are you Fei'er?" ”
I wondered who this person was and how I knew my nickname, so I asked suspiciously, "Who are you?" Have we met? How do you know my nickname? ”
As soon as I finished speaking, she immediately held my hand and said excitedly, "It turns out that it's really you Fei'er, you've grown so big, it's your mother, let my mother see if you've been doing well over the years."
Her words hit me like a boulder in my heart.
My mom? The woman who disappeared for 23 years.
I looked at her again in disbelief, and it seemed to overlap with the one I remembered.
But she has been gone for 23 years, why did she come back to the door again? What is the purpose? Will it hurt my dad again?
These questions swirled through my mind over and over again, and finally I decided to negotiate with her without telling my dad to see what she had in mind.
We made an appointment at a park near our home.
Now she looks a little cramped, and she looks much older than her peers.
She looked at me and stopped, and finally I was the first to speak, "Is there something wrong with you coming this time?" ”
In fact, when I said this, my heart was boiling, thinking of the harm she had caused to our family before, and I was really afraid that I would do something impulsive.
But for the sake of my dad, I still chose to pretend to be calm.
She hesitated for a moment before she spoke, "It's not a big deal, just come back to see you and see if you're doing well."
I did not believe it when I heard this.
I said, "We're doing well, and now that you know what we're doing, don't bother us anymore."
I was adamant, she had disappeared from my life for so long, and now she was only a stranger, and I didn't want her to disturb the peace of our family.
Seeing that I was leaving, she immediately grabbed me, and her tone was almost pleading, "Child, I actually have another thing to do today."
I wanted to see what kind of medicine she was selling in her gourd, so I asked, "What's the matter?" ”
Mom now regrets leaving you two at the beginning, and now that Mom is older, she feels more and more that your dad is the best person for me, so I want to be by your side for the rest of my life and try to make up for you."
I scoffed, "I regret it now, why did I go earlier?" ”
Her face turned a little red, and she paused for a moment before replying, "I have a hard time."
Only then did I realize that the love I saw in my eyes between her and her father was actually fake.
Mom doesn't love Dad at all, Dad loves Mom very much, but it's just wishful thinking.
My mother had a first love before she got married, but because her first love was very poor, her grandparents did not agree to the marriage between the two of them.
Later, they began to secretly date again, but because of a misunderstanding, my mother married my father who was very satisfied with my grandparents in anger.
Originally, my mother also wanted to live a good life with my father, but I didn't expect that by chance, when I was eight years old, they met again, and the misunderstanding was resolved, and the suspicions were relieved.
It is said that first love is beautiful, but in the end, my mother couldn't control her heart and filed for divorce with my father.
But my father was too obsessed with my mother, and he didn't want me to be without my mother, so he didn't agree to divorce.
Mother was forced to elope with her first love.
Mom and first love had a good life at first, but as time went on, the two quarreled over various trivial things, and the two eventually parted ways after only five years of freshness.
After her mother broke up, she found out that she was pregnant, but her first love had disappeared without a trace, so she had to give birth to the child alone.
Over the years, she has been staying in Shenzhen, working and raising her children at the same time.
A while ago, her child was diagnosed with a tumor, and she didn't have that much money, so she thought of me and my father.
She said, "Phil, I hope you can save your sister for your mother's sake."
I said, "She's not my sister, my dad is my daughter, and I don't have that much money for you."
She smiled bitterly, "I heard your grandfather say that you run a company, you are a big boss, you live in a big villa, and you drive a luxury car, I didn't believe it originally, but I just wanted to try my luck, she is your only sister, don't you even want to help with this little help?" ”
She looked pitiful, but I was a little moved.
But as soon as I think of the hardships that my father and I have gone through over the years, I have nothing but hatred for her, so I reject her mercilessly.
Perhaps, her heart to save her daughter is real, or maybe her heart regrets wanting to be with my dad again.
It's just that my mind is a little messy now, I don't know if my dad will forgive her, I'm afraid my dad will be hurt again, and I don't know if I should save this half-sister of mine.