I am a post-80s generation in rural China, studying hard for 17 years, and entered the society in July 2011, with a stable job, which was once the pride of my family, and I have been working for 12 and a half years. After long-term repeated consideration, to eliminate many obstacles, and finally decided to resign at the end of the year, return to his hometown, and return to the mountains and forests, not to talk about the country, from the countryside, back to the countryside.
Maybe this is something that many peers want to do but dare not do, the pressure comes from the incomprehension of parents and relatives, from the ridicule of the world, and worry about their future, I will talk about the process of making this decision.
It is a big difficulty to convince parents and relatives, after all, it is not easy for a poor rural family to raise a college student, there is the hard work of parents, the sacrifice of siblings, and the generous support of relatives. My parents didn't understand it at first, but I reasoned with the facts and convinced them that I could resign and return to my hometown without worrying about food and clothing, and that I could take care of them.
The strange vision of the social world, in fact, is not much of an obstacle for me, more than 30 people, life needs to feel by themselves, and the audience's discussion can go in and out of the left ear and the right ear, not to mention that we don't have so many audiences. I work diligently, hard-working, and my colleagues in the unit expressed regret, but for them, I am just a passerby, an iron-clad battalion and a flowing soldier, and the post is naturally a successor; The old landlord got along well with me, rented for more than 10 years, this time, I am afraid it will be difficult to see each other again, when parting, I was a little emotional, and I unconsciously remembered Li Shutong's "Farewell".
The hardest part was to convince myself, and I thought deeply about it in several ways.
On the one hand, working for 12 and a half years, I rarely socialize, live a simple life, and have worked part-time as a tutor, accumulated a sum of money, plus the provident fund, a total of more than 1.5 million, I plan to deposit most of the bank on a regular basis, a small part as a new life start-up capital, monthly interest income of about 4500, which is equivalent to the income of an ordinary labor force, life should be guaranteed. As for illness, it is unpredictable, and it is enough to follow what Master Hongyi said, "Minor illnesses should be cured, and major illnesses should be treated with death".
On the other hand, I asked myself, I am indeed very tired of the current life, not the misanthropy, but the daily work of the case, all of which are false and useless things. I wanted to survive until retirement, but the best years of my life are now, when I retire, how many years will I be able to move freely, and will I still have the energy to open up wasteland and farm? I'm probably halfway through my life and don't want to wait any longer.
The most important thing is that I am a person with deep feelings, every grass and tree in my hometown makes me linger, how many times I dream back at midnight, strolling on the mountain path, drinking a handful of mountain streams and clear springs, the old trees on the side of the road are still standing, I feel the deep call of my hometown.
I also repeatedly thought about whether I would regret it in the future, maybe when my life is not satisfactory in the future, I will be lonely and lonely, and I will inevitably regret it, but it is very unwise to expect too much about the future is essentially to advance troubles.
Now that the dust has settled, I will leave after the handover of work the day after tomorrow, except for my luggage, I only drive away the scooter, and the rest are left to the past.
Life is reincarnation, birth to death is a kind of reincarnation, returning to the place where I lived when I was a child is also a kind of reincarnation, when I was a child, I did heavy farm work, hard and helpless, I wanted to get out of the countryside, but now I look forward to going back. I am looking forward to my new life and will continue to share my life experiences and feelings.