Before I was about to get the certificate, a pair of wedding shoes kindly given by my mother-in-law made me break up with my fiancé
I never dreamed that the night before I got the license, Jiang Jiwu and I would have an argument over an ice cream.
I ran out of the house in a rage, Jiang Jiwu chased after me, and we went all the way to the convenience store in front of our house.
Despite the anger burning in my heart, just one bite of ice cream magically calmed me down. My brain was so angry that I opened the freezer door, grabbed a small box of ice cream, and went straight to the checkout.
Hello, a total of 18 yuan. ”
I stared at the tiny box of ice cream for two seconds. Since my father's business failed, I have rarely eaten such expensive ice cream.
Hello, how to pay? WeChat or Alipay? ”
After the urging to check out, I felt around my pockets and suddenly remembered that I had forgotten my phone because of a quarrel.
I glanced at Jiang Jiwu, who was silent behind me, and thought about giving him a step down.
You go to the checkout, my phone is at home. ”
With that, I flashed to the side. After hearing this soft sentence, his expression finally softened, and I gradually calmed down.
The code scanner scanned the payment code, and he picked up his phone to see the deduction page, and gasped in surprise.
Eighteen pieces! Eighteen dollars! You just bought an ice cream that's not the size of a palm? ”
He looked at me in disbelief, the box of ice cream dangling in front of my eyes, as if I had sold him a house and only exchanged a handful of sand.
The salesman looked at us both in astonishment, like two beggars. The sneer in that look suddenly dragged me back to the scene ten years ago when my father sold his real estate to pay off his debts, and all the neighbors and relatives looked at me with such eyes.
It was as if I was stripped naked and paraded through the streets, and I was ashamed.
I lowered my head and snatched the ice cream in my hand, as if to protect what little of my pride remained, and gritted my teeth and whispered to him word by word.
I'll go back and transfer it to you! "I grabbed the doorknob and wanted to get out of here.
It's not about money! ”
Jiang Jiwu reached out and grabbed me, I held the ice cream in my hand, and the coolness it emitted slowly climbed up my whole arm like a snake, making my whole body stiff.
Not because of the money, because of what? ”
I didn't shake off his hand, but I went straight to the point, saying what I had been holding back for a long time.
Said that good wedding shoes must buy Jimmy Choo, but the result? Do you think I can't see the difference between the original and the imitation? ”
The ice cream slowly began to melt and curl up, and I held it a little harder, as if trying to grasp something so I could get some little strength out of it.
Who would spend four or five thousand dollars on a pair of wedding shoes? You don't wear it every day, you just wear it once. ”
His voice dropped from high to low, and finally it was almost inaudible, but I heard it anyway.
I smiled bitterly, "Eighteen pieces of ice cream, I don't eat it every day, what's wrong with you buying it once?" ”。
Didn't I tell you, it's not about money! Jiang Jiwu stomped his feet and said.
What's the problem with that? I asked.
He didn't say a word, and the ice cream in my hand had melted and slowly dripped to the ground.
It's me who doesn't deserve it! Right? ”
He froze in place, silent, as if nodding his head in agreement with me.
I don't know if I can get married tomorrow.
In other words, whether it should be knotted or not.
When my father's business was thriving, our family of three lived in a spacious duplex building with an area of more than 300 square meters.
I was young, only five or six years old. While Shen's mother was out shopping and my mother was taking a nap, I sneaked into her cloakroom. Quietly crawled into the shoe closet, pinched a glowing heel, and put a pair of Jimmy Choo's moonlight white wedding shoes on my little feet.
I swayed the stairs, and my mother, with her messy sleeping hair, secretly hid behind the door, ** the clumsy way I walked.
I just stared at the shimmering shoes, as if the whole galaxy was embedded in them.
Half a year ago, when Jiang Jiwu and I began to prepare for our wedding, we had the newly released "The Myth of Love" in the cinema.
He is a science student, and he is not interested in this kind of euphemistic love story, his eyes are scanning from time to time, and his hands are busy replying to messages from the work group.
Every woman has at least one pair of Jimmy Choo in her life! ”
The cobbler in the movie sipping coffee and speaking authentic Shanghainese brought back memories of my nanny Shen's mother when she saw me fall down in my mother's high heels.
Oh no, why did Nong fall and still hold his mother's shoes! ”
Those are the shoes I have kept in my arms since I was a child, and I also longed to be like my mother, walking the galaxy to the person I love the most.
I excitedly shook Jiang Jiwu's hand, pointed to Jimmy Choo, which was broken on the screen, and said to Jiang Jiwu with anticipation
Weddings can be simple, but I'm sure to buy a pair of Jimmy Choo shoes, okay? ”
He looked down and nodded perfunctorily.
Seeing that he didn't care, I begged again: "The wedding shoes must be Jimmy Choo, promise me!" ”
I held out my little thumb and tried to get a hook with him. He smiled helplessly and nodded.
Before tonight, I was waiting for my Jimmy Choo with anticipation, even more than the wedding.
Wearing those shoes is like going back to the time when I was a child, carefree and not worried about money. However, taking off my shoes, I was back to reality.
It's just a pair of shoes, can't I go and get the certificate tomorrow? ”
After falling out with Jiang Jiwu, I didn't go home, so I ran to my best friend's house angrily and took her to the mall to shop.
Yesterday it was a few thousand dollars of shoes, today it is eighteen dollars of ice cream, tomorrow will you even have to get his consent to spend your own money? ”
I directly picked up a bottle of Chanel No. 5 perfume, and my girlfriend pulled my clothes and whispered:
I have a ** here, it will be a lot cheaper to get it from her! ”
The teller looked at us and whispered, knowing it, and politely reminded us: "If you don't want this bottle of perfume, I can keep it for other guests first." ”
I took out my mobile phone payment code: "Scan!" ”
I have always been obsessed with choosing the genuine Jimmy Choo as my wedding shoes, and this decision directly led to the temporary suspension of my marriage with Jiang Jiwu.
Every day, he would send me the ** of the shoes worn by his relatives and colleagues at their weddings, indicating the price, and repeatedly emphasizing that the imitation shoes he bought me were more than twice as expensive as these genuine shoes.
However, the question kept ringing in my head: "Are you worthy?" ”
Since I was in college, I started working part-time in my spare time, selling sodas, instant noodles, and handing out flyers, from a few dollars to several thousand yuan, and a few years after graduation, my savings finally exceeded six figures.
Every penny is thought out before daring to spend it.
I don't dare to buy expensive items easily, because I am afraid that once I get used to it, I will become addicted like an addict who can't quit his addiction.
Although I used to have these things.
But I don't want to go through the life of falling from the clouds to the ground anymore, and I don't want to live the days of being displaced and parasitic again.
Choosing an affordable man like Jiang Jiwu who is budget-conscious and knows how to live is like an insurance policy for my life, maybe I can't live a rich and expensive life, but at least I don't have to worry about eating and drinking.
However, as the wedding date approached, I felt more and more that his concept of life had bound me too tightly, as if it had put a tight spell on my heart.
He always reminded me not to pursue the life of the past, and not to fantasize about going back to the past when I made enough money.
His clothes add up to less than three hundred yuan, and dozens of dollars of shoes and pants have been worn for two or three years.
This view of consumption gradually affected me, and my clothes were directly downgraded from the discount price of the boutique to the single item of a certain Duoduo.
Our goal in life is to save money, enough money to buy a house, enough money for our parents' pension, and enough money for our children's milk powder, without a chance to breathe.
I looked down and sniffed the perfume on my body, which was exactly the same as the perfume on my mother when I was a child. But now she only has the soap smell of laundry detergent, and maybe I will only have this smell in the future.
I don't want to live like this all the time, I need a little bit of light, a little hope, even if it's just a little bit in my life.
My parents are here, do you want to come back and have dinner together? ”
Jiang Jiwu sent a WeChat message, which was withdrawn after a few seconds, and the page kept showing "The other party is typing".
I preemptively sent a message over, "Jimmy Choo's shoes are on sale next month, and only the airport has the pair I want." ”
I chose to compromise, but it was also my last compromise.
Half an hour passed, and I was no longer expecting his reply, planning to work overtime at the office tonight, and starting to think about going to the branch.
Ding", a WeChat message popped up, and I seemed to have guessed his answer.
Then let's go together! ”
The unexpected reply made me a little happy, as if I saw a little light in my life.
Do your aunts and uncles have any favorite dishes? I'll buy it back and do it later. ”
I walked down the steps he had managed to give, and the biggest conflict between the two of them was finally alleviated.
Did you buy perfume? ”
I haven't seen him for a few days, and Jiang Jiwu is very clingy to me. While cooking in the kitchen, he kept standing behind me and putting his arms around my waist, his nose rubbing against my neck.
Does it smell good? I turned around and ruffled my hair and sent the scent behind my ears to the tip of his nose.
Smells! "He buried his head in my hair, and I was a little excited, and he finally stopped talking and only knew how to withdraw money.
It's ......No matter how expensive a perfume is, it doesn't smell as good as your body odor. He said sullenly.
The smile I had hidden in my heart froze instantly.
The perfume is issued by the company and does not cost anything! I said with a blank face.
Then you can spray more, it still smells good, after all, it doesn't cost money. With that, he put his head on my shoulder socket.
I slowly pushed him away with a little anger, and bowed his mouth towards the living room, signaling that his parents were still there, and he was gone.
Do you think I'm picky? ”
Jiang Jiwu and I were separated for a while because of a dispute over a pair of wedding shoes. Until today, he suddenly sent a message saying that the wedding shoes I liked were on sale, and asked me if I wanted to go and see them together.
We stood outside the store, looking at the shoes from afar, glittering seductively in the moonlight. The store is full of customers because of **.
I felt like we were a lot farther away than usual, and maybe it was because of the shoes that we were re-examining each other.
When I was fifteen years old, we moved into the house my grandfather had left us, and we were crammed into less than 70 square meters with our relatives, and we had to queue up to go to the bathroom. ”
I never talked to him about our family's plight because it was too dark for me.
My mom makes a cup of coffee every afternoon. No refreshments, just a bitter cup of coffee. ”
She sold everything of value in our house, leaving only a pot of coffee and a set of cups dedicated to coffee. Neighbors say she's used to luxury, but she doesn't feel comfortable without coffee for a day. ”
Some people even say that the coffee is worse than cat urine and dog urine, and it is better to fill the stomach with steamed buns. ”
Jiang Jiwu looked at me with a puzzled expression, he didn't understand why I was telling him this, it seemed that it had nothing to do with our coming to see the shoes today.
Do you think I'm doing unnecessary hypocrisy by being obsessed with those thousands of dollars of shoes, just like she makes coffee every afternoon? ”
No, it's not like that! I just think that wedding shoes are only worn once, and a few thousand yuan is a bit too expensive. Moreover, you don't usually wear high heels, and after you buy them, you may sit idle at home, which is quite wasteful. ”
And ......He looked at me with a blank, his voice lowered.
My mother's custom-made shoes for you are also good! ”
I know it's what he's telling and it's true, just like he thinks it's better to eat a steak than a pot of ribs.
My mom said that every time I make coffee, it's to remind my beat dad that we haven't given up, as long as we work hard, life will slowly get better! ”
The bitter aroma of coffee is the only hope in our lives.
Like the moonlit shoes on the counter, they were the shining hope of my life.
Even if my father was poor, he would save money to buy coffee beans for my mother, so he quit smoking and drinking, and he was reluctant to change his clothes for several years.
But he never asked his mother to quit coffee, because he knew that it was her only hope to support her life, and he was reluctant to erase it.
My wedding shoes can only be jimmychoo", I looked at him firmly, "I always thought so. ”
Jiang Jiwu lowered his head, as if considering a compromise.
But your wedding shoes can be any other style, as long as it's not jimmychoo, right? ”
He didn't answer immediately, and after a moment of silence, he slowly walked over, took my hand and said:
Let's try it first! Perhaps, these shoes look good, but maybe they don't fit properly? After all, only the feet know if the shoe fits or not. ”
I smiled wryly and looked up to see that the moonlit white shoes had been put into the box.
Just before receiving the certificate, a pair of shoes that my fiancé's mother kindly gave us had a disagreement.
I'm sorry, but the last pair of discounted moonlight white has already been sold. ”
We walked into the store and the clerk smiled.
It's really unfortunate, Mr. Jiang, my wedding shoes can only be jimmychoo! ”