When I was a child, I often heard the old people say that the New Year is "New Year's Pass", but I don't know what it means.
How can the year still be "off"?
The older I get, the more I feel that the New Year is really a hurdle for adults. It is like the ink in the inkpool, every time the brush is dipped in, the ink in the inkpool is one layer lower, and every time there is one more word on the paper, the whole paper is one step closer to its effective life. As the years go by, the sun and the moon shadow gradually move, and the hand holding the pen will become stiff and clumsy with the time.
When the Chinese New Year comes, I will recall the scenes of the Chinese New Year as a child. Almost before the age of eighteen, often before the winter vacation arrives, the heart of the New Year has gradually become excited. When the winter vacation is really over, a heart is even more wild. First of all, there were about three or five small friends, and the small township market went around next to the small stalls, from one end of the street to the other end of the street, from the stalls selling clothes to the stalls selling shoes, from the stalls selling shoes to the stalls selling Spring Festival couplets and vegetables, and then from the stalls selling vegetables to the stalls selling all kinds of gadgets ......I often go for a day, and every time I revisit, I will meet one or several acquaintances who have revisited the street. A few of us children, holding hands and holding arms, talking, laughing, fighting, giggling, and wandering aimlessly.
When children go to the market and have pocket money in their pockets, they usually just buy some cheap snacks and gadgets; If you don't have pocket money, you just follow it and don't buy it. But even if you don't buy anything, you will be very happy by the lively and full of New Year's flavor. Then there is the happiness of adults in the eyes of our children: the adults who kill the pigs boil a large pot of water in advance, prepare the knives, hooks, ropes and other utensils used to kill the pigs, early in the morning, the children have not yet come out of the bed, they are the adults shouting, the sound of catching pigs, the humming of the strong laborers carrying the pigs and the terrible pig howls are caused to ...... heart
Immediately after, firecrackers rang out in different directions and corners day and night, and children were looking forward to new clothes, New Year's money, and steaming meat buns and big bones that had just come out of ......the pot
New Year, is the happiest festival in childhood, seeing that I have grown up a year old, watching the lights and firecrackers calling, seeing the smile everywhere to show the New Year, seeing that winter is about to leave, spring is coming, and blessings are going to be full of ...... in the world
After becoming a family and having children, the taste of the New Year is not as good as before.
Often sitting alone sullenly, thinking of the past year, I began to have a sense of frustration in the world, began to face all kinds of pressures from family, life and work, and began to know that the New Year is not only the year, but also related. The Spring Festival is not only about welcoming spring, but also about calamity. years, there are still worries ......
Sometimes when they see their lovers rushing to the Chinese New Year's Eve and go everywhere to arrange the flowers for the New Year, or seeing that the days are lonely and unbearable, some old people still smile and prepare for a happy New Year's ......
All this made me begin to know that there are times when the year is sad.
Once a person reaches a certain age and has experienced some wind and frost, the year is really unbearable, no matter how much money is pressed.
Every Chinese New Year, it is also the season when the past is on the mind, and gradually begins to try to figure out fate, as if fate has been set, we just walk forward step by step, and at the same time do not admit defeat, do not want to believe in the established arrangement of fate, while walking, over and over again thinking about how to get rid of some of the established tracks, the more you want to get rid of, the more difficult it is to get rid of.
When I think that life is not allowed to be repeated, there are many things I love, and I must give up the pain; There are many hateful things that I know will disappear naturally with the passage of time, and it doesn't hurt to go fast or slow, but it is still difficult to leave a trace. The years will still come one after another, and life is still slowly disappearing little by little.
Sometimes I wonder why I look forward to the new year before the age of eighteen, and worry about the old years disappearing as adults. I remember Mr. Lin Qingxuan said in an article: Before the crown ceremony, we were "short days in the past, and long days in the future". When I become an adult, I will become "the coming days are short, and the days are hard", what a different mood!
Oh, yes! It is also the Chinese New Year, and after reaching the cut-off point of a certain age, it will show a completely different mood, just like the two streams of water at the confluence of Heluo, half clear, generally turbid.
Whether clear or turbid, the established fact of the passage of time, since ancient times, will not stay because of anyone, no matter what our mood is, what the day, the wall clock on the wall will always ring on time on Chinese New Year's Eve, the bell is ruthless, absolute, there is a precious past, and there are shocking warnings.
Every Chinese New Year, I always try to get the whole family together, everyone summarizes the past year, plans and designs the upcoming new year, hoping to get inspiration and growth from the past summary, and can get new life and hope from the new year.