Why don't you come out of the shadows? What do you really look like? Are you afraid of something? What are you afraid of? ......I carefully study the people hiding in the shadows. He doesn't give me the same ominous feeling as he used to. I asked him, "Who are you?" —Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance" Whenever I think of this paragraph, an inexplicable fear rises in my heart, and I vaguely feel that it is the fear of what I fear most in my heart. What is it? Many times, I also ask myself. Is it old age, sickness and pain, or poverty, death, the emptiness of "nothingness", or is it just the fear of the unknown itself?
What really scares me is my own heart, or to be more precise, my own "demons", the fear of the "demons" itself, not other things such as illness, aging, or death to which it is attached. Thinking about this, the chill I felt when I first saw this passage seems to have disappeared.
What's really holding you backThe book "The Art of Possibility: 30 Lectures on Comparative Politics" mentions the threefold mechanism of producing the "mob": fear (coercion), interest, and ideology. I suddenly realized that this model was suitable for other purposes.
For example, trapped in the traditional work model, nine nights.
Fifth, what traps migrant workers who do not want to go to work (except for office workers who are content with or happy with the traditional work mode) who are content with or happy with the traditional work mode? Fear: The fear of unemployment, the fear of not being needed, not being able to produce value, not being able to belong, to be recognized and to be self-satisfied. This fear of ** may also be mixed with pressure from superiors, or even PUA, 996 ......It makes people think that life is likely to be difficult without this job; If you don't work hard, you won't be able to live with your leaders, your team and your employer, and you'll be sorry for yourself, and you may face unemployment ......
Benefits**: Salary and benefits, paid holidays, all kinds of bonuses, etc., yes, there are so many tangible and intangible benefits, material and spiritual wealth, surrounding me, waiting for me, why not go to work hard?! Put aside those whimsical poems and distant places, you have to work harder to earn more, and the harder you work, the luckier you will ......IdeologySpecifically, the ideological concept of work is shrouded in such a mainstream concept system: part-time work, or the traditional work model of enterprises and markets, is the way in which the whole society operates effectively; Personally, it is ...... to find a good job, get a promotion and a raise, and live and work in peace and contentmentIt is the way to a successful life. Through this ideological filter, people see the serenity of blue sky and white clouds in this traditional model, and it is difficult to imagine the vastness of the infinite starry sky beyond the atmosphere.
Therefore, those who are trapped in it, those who are trapped in the mental cage forged by the collusion between the self and the outside world, it is very difficult to break free. Not to mention that these three mechanisms are powerful, the key is that they exist in the human heart and human nature, and if we do not deeply analyze ourselves, it is even difficult for us to find out what we are really subject to and what we are trapped in. Of course, those who are suitable or content with this mode of work are not in the scope of discussion. If they can self-consistently exist, realize and gain value in it, this kind of framework and system is not a shackle. For them, the real shackles are the helpless, difficult, and dangerous ...... of the vast space beyond the atmosphere
In fact, it is also true to apply this analysis and argument in reverse, because the point is not whether a model is good or bad, there is no difference between good and bad, but whether it is suitable for you and whether it is what you really want in your heart.
For me, who has left the mainstream working model and opted for freelancing, this triple mechanism is also working and hindering progress. Fear: Fear of not having an income, fear of the unknown, uncertainty, frustration and failure......
Benefits**: You may encounter the salary of a traditional job, or envy the kind of life with material and spiritual security; Ideology: Your newly constructed worldview, career outlook and outlook on life may not be solid, after all, there is no economic foundation to support it; The mainstream work concept system in society will imperceptibly erode my new ideas and concepts through social and family channels.
Therefore, on the road to the true self, hesitation, hesitation, frustration and failure are inevitable. Prepare yourself mentally and mentally to be strong enough to face and accept them, rather than trying to avoid and eliminate them. Because the fears, greed, and obsessions in my heart cannot be eliminated forever, they are part of human nature, part of my heart. All I can do is to minimize their distractions, or transform them into other harmless forms of relief.
On the other hand, it is necessary to strengthen the belief in life that you have re-established, strengthen your inner self, give enough internal motivation to the new life ideals, and give yourself more traction to offset the resistance or adverse effects that they may bring.
Re-understand "living in the moment".On days when I'm not working, I usually cook my own meals to save money and to be healthier and more nutritious. In the past, when cooking, I always felt troublesome and time-consuming, and I didn't like cooking very much, and I was slow to do things, so cooking gradually evolved into a kind of torture. Sometimes I even wonder why people have to eat every day, cook every day, day after day, and the cycle ......What is the difference between this and Sisyphus who rolls up the mountain, maybe it is also a punishment.
Then one day when I was cooking food, I thought, why should cooking be regarded as meaningless, unwanted and disliked to do? Now that you've decided to do this, why not put yourself in a different state of mind? It is a blessing to have the time and freedom to cook the meals you want; When cooking, don't think about anything else, don't think about an article that you haven't finished yet, and don't think about a book ...... you haven't finished reading yetIt's good to cook seriously, to devote yourself to the thing itself, to cook while cooking, to eat while eating, to read a book while reading, and to do other things.
There is no past, there is no future, all people can have is the present, and even the present is fleeting. But the present moment contains the past, which is the accumulation of countless pasts; The present also contains the future, and countless future possibilities begin from this moment, and the so-called "instant is eternal" probably means this. The reason why we have to live in the moment is because "I" can only live in the moment.
How to live in the present moment has already been illustrated by the example of cooking, and here is a quote from the book "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance": This happens when we do what we really want to do. It's just that a lot of the time, we're detached from our work. That's not the case with the kind of good technicians I mentioned. It is said that he is "interested" in what he does, and he is very "engaged" in his work, and the reason for this "devotion" is that, at the forefront of consciousness, there is no alienation between subject and object. "Take it to heart", "Become a second instinct", "Move your hand with your heart" - many sayings express exactly what I mean, there is no duality between subject and object, because this has always been fully understood by the people, it has long been common sense, and every workshop has the same cognition. In the scientific community, however, such language is hardly heard, because the minds of scientists have been trained in normative objectivity, and they shield this kind of thinking from the depths of their consciousness.
Zen Buddhism advocates meditation, which is to make the characters forget about themselves. And when it comes to motorcycle repair, as long as you focus on repairing your bike, you won't be in a situation where things are at odds with you. When a person does not feel alienated from the work they do, they can be said to care about their work, and this is the true meaning of caring - to have a sense of identity with the work in their hands. So Camus said that it should be imagined that Sisyphus (who was going up the hill) was happy.
To re-understand the purpose of "living in the moment" is to always be soberly aware: when I leave the state of "forgetting things and self" and return to every ordinary moment, whether I am still living in the present moment and how I am going to live in the present. 
Accept yourself and the worldIn order to attain "pure enlightenment", we must achieve the extinction of "body" and "mind", so that we can enter the pure enlightenment of our own mind's nature, and only then can we understand that our own mind is originally in the great light of the supernatural powers, and we can find our own self-mental nature.
One night, I woke up suddenly from my sleep and found that my physical and mental desires were unbearable, and then I remembered during the day that in fact, "heart" and "matter" are one and inseparable. Inner (physiological) desires are nothing more than a little hormones and mucus in the body, but it is this small substance that can have such a strong effect on the human "heart".
Because the "heart", or human consciousness, will, and soul, originates from the material world, the self is bound to be subject to the material world and will inevitably be subject to all kinds of human desires. But the human will is not passively driven by instinctive desires, when self-control or resistance, so that the body and mind return to peace, it is about the so-called "physical and mental annihilation". Therefore, "pure consciousness" requires a certain degree of free will.
Whether it is "pure and conscious", or surging body and mind, whether greed, hatred, and ignorance......, or living in the moment, are all part of "me". They do not need to be dualistic, but should merge and complement each other, and be unified in the self-conscious nature of "me". In this way, it is to accept oneself and the world. Only by accepting oneself can we continue to grow.
Finally, Xu Zhiyuan's words of encouragement (the awakening of the individual spirit): Every generation and every person must re-understand the whole world and the entire heritage of mankind in their own way, and add new elements to it. No system or idea is constant, it must be constantly tested and challenged. Everyone has to discover the world in their own way, take the corresponding responsibility, pay the corresponding price, and accept the joy and frustration that comes from the heart.
Yours, Qiao Wenda Personal growth