The poet Rabindranath Tagore once said: ".Only after experiencing hellish torture can we refine the power of heaven."
Yes, in this life, I don't know how many times I have to fall and get up again; After how many joys and sorrows of fate; After many years of merciless whipping, it can be like a plum blossom standing proudly in the cold winter.
Just as someone said: years are the skin of dumplings, experience is the filling, and perseverance and tenacity are the folds of the skin of dumplings. Life is like dumplings, up and down, ups and downs, ups and downs, without wading in muddy waters a few times, you can't mature.
I can't help but think that when the children were young, my husband wrapped up the family's firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and I was a supporting actress who didn't know how much water and electricity the family needed for a month. Undoubtedly, at this moment I am immersed in the small happiness of my day.
Sometimes when I was playing in the community with my children, my neighbors would laugh and say with a smile when they heard the sound of chopping vegetables coming from my house: "Look at what your children's father is making for you to eat." When it was time for dinner, he was like a set alarm clock, calling us home on time for dinner.
But sometimes the impermanence of fate is always unpredictable. When my daughter was five years old, even though I was reluctant to give up and he had a thousand worries, my husband still couldn't resist the erosion of the disease and left us forever. But thankfully, he left enough money for me and my children to live without worry.
In order not to lead to the shrinkage of funds, in order to give children a better living security. I have dabbled in some high-return and high-yield investment and wealth management platforms. In less than a year, I lost all my money in bad investment and financial management.
Thinking of my little daughter, who is still a minor, the more I think about it, the more unwilling I become, so I want to recover my losses quicklyAnd this is just a mother who wants to provide a better life for her children.
Even though I'm past the age of confusion, I'm still willing to try. In this way, in 2020, I learned that my friend rented 100 acres of sugar oranges, and I became his partner. In order to raise funds, I didn't know what a credit card was, so I applied for a credit card from various banks.
And this year is also the year of the outbreak of the epidemic. But who would have expected that the epidemic lasted for three years, and the superposition of various factors led to the decline of the market economy, which also led to the loss of more than 200,000 yuan per year for the orchard. Later, the epidemic finally passed, and the economy is slowly recovering. In order to maintain the capital chain of the orchard, I also patronized such online loan platforms such as Huabei and Borrow.
However, fate played a sinister joke on me again.
I was supposed to reach retirement age, because I trusted my original employer too much when I was pregnant with my little daughter, but as a result, I was unable to go through the retirement procedures normally due to an approval document, and now I have lost the lawsuit with the original unit due to labor disputes, and since then I have embarked on a difficult road to defend my rights.
But life doesn't end there. On New Year's Day 2024, 100 acres of orchards survived the epidemic for three years, but they were wiped out under the erosion of the cancer --- huanglongbing in the plant kingdom. My life has completely fallen into the abyss.
Confused, helpless, hopeless, crying in the middle of the night and sleepless. I even want to find the original owner and die together.
But when I saw my young daughter again and again, and saw the eager smile of the child's father on the wall, my responsibility as a mother made me have to regain the courage to live and take on the responsibility of a mother.
By chance, I accidentally came across Ms. Fichen's article and learned that the teacher had come from a rural girl to live the life of her dreams by reading and writing. The tenacity and hard work of the teachers continue to inspire me.
Isn't it okay for me to be an ordinary person? Late at night, I kept asking myself. Thinking of the burden on my body and my minor children, I decided to try, maybe reading and writing can not only ** the current me, but also a good opportunity?
This is probably what people often say:Hope blooms in the midst of despair。This will be a new beginning for me as well.
Looking back on the road we have traveled, the years that have passed, just like every fold on the dumpling skin, depicting the past we have experienced. Each time is the cornerstone of our slow climbing. All of them must be steamed in boiling water, or fried in an oil pan, and slowly become mature.
Thanksgiving years, thanksgiving experiences, every ordeal, every period of confusion, every helpless crying and struggle in the middle of the night, all spur our patience and perseverance on the road of growth. Paint a rich color in our gallery of life.
I always believeAs long as your heart does not fall, everything will not defeat you in the end. There is still a long way to go, and you and I don't need to bow down to fate, please have more confidence in yourself.