My name is Wang Jun, I am 45 years old, and I am the founder and chief designer of a small design company. I have a beautiful and gentle wife named Xiaoxue, and a lively and lovely daughter named Tingting, who has entered junior high school this year.
Our family lived in a small villa on the outskirts of the city, and although life was not rich and luxurious, it was full of warmth and happiness. Xiaoxue and I are college lovers, we have been in love with each other for more than ten years, although there are inevitably bumps in our marriage, but we always support each other and have gone through many ups and downs in our lives together.
However, when I was forty years old, I experienced a turning point in my life that left me miserable.
It was a spring morning, and I was busy working on an important design project when my phone rang. I looked at the caller ID and it was an unfamiliar number. I wanted to hang up directly, but an inexplicable premonition made me press the answer button.
Hey, are you Wang Jun? An unfamiliar female voice came.
Yes, may I ask you ......I replied, slightly confused.
I'm Chen Jing, and we last met at that design show. She said.
I thought about it for a moment, and then I remembered that she was a designer from another design company. We had just had a brief conversation at the time, and there was no particular connection.
Can I help you? I asked.
Can we meet? She asked suddenly.
I was stunned for a moment, wondering why she was seeing me. But there was an inexplicable curiosity in my heart, "Okay, then when are we going to meet?" I agreed.
That afternoon, Chen Jing and I met at a café. She is indeed a beautiful woman, with long hair and a shawl, and a slight smile, giving people a sense of intimacy.
We ordered two cups of coffee and started talking. At first, we simply talked about work and life, but gradually the conversation shifted to more intimate aspects.
How do you and your wife feel? Chen Jing asked suddenly.
I was a little surprised, but I told the truth, "We have a good relationship, and although there are sometimes some small frictions, I love her very much." ”
Have you ever thought about changing your mind? She asked again.
I was stunned, this question really caught me off guard, "Change of heart? Why did you have this idea? ”
Because I feel that sometimes, for various reasons, we are bound to pursue what we really want. She said lightly.
I was silent for a moment, lost in thought. Maybe she had some truth in it, but I didn't think about changing my mind, I love my family, I love my wife, all of this is the most important thing to me.
However, this meeting with Chen Jing set off a wave in my heart. I began to feel confused between my family and my career, and gradually I found myself in a state of incomprehension.
Over the next few months, Chen Jing and I kept in touch, and we started working together, eating together, and even traveling together. I found that by her side, I could forget all my worries for a while and feel a sense of relief and pleasure that I had never felt before.
However, as time went on, I began to realize how irresponsible and selfish my actions were. I began to realize that I was betraying the people I loved the most, that I was hurting the people I loved the most.
I began to regret it, I began to fear. I knew I couldn't go on like this, I had to stop, I had to face reality, I had to re-examine my life.
So, I decided to put an end to it all. I had a frank conversation with Chen Jing and told her I couldn't go on any longer. Although she was a little disappointed and sad, she finally accepted my decision.
When I got home, I saw Xiaoxue and Tingting waiting for me as always, and their smiles made me feel an inexplicable warmth. I took a deep breath and hugged them tightly.
I'm sorry, I was wrong. I whispered.
Xiaoxue raised her head and looked at me, her eyes full of understanding and tolerance, "We all make mistakes, as long as you can recognize and correct it, I am willing to forgive you." ”
At that moment, I felt a kind of happiness, a kind of happiness that I had never felt before.