In the fifth class of the grassland, Lao Ma, the squad leader, was immersed in his own thoughts. The cacophony of the television and the chatter of the soldiers did not disturb him, and he was writing at the table. Li Meng is an observant person, he found that Lao Ma was writing, and asked curiously: "Squad leader, are you writing **?" ”
The old horse raised his head, smiled, and gently spit out a few words: "Dog**, discharge report." ”
As soon as these words came out, the atmosphere of the entire fifth class instantly froze. Everyone was stunned, and the jokes couldn't go on, and no one knew how to take it for a while. The honest Xu Sanduo broke the silence, and he said bluntly: "Squad leader, don't write it." But the old horse just smiled, with some helplessness and desolation in his eyes, and then continued to bow his head to write his report.
Why did the old horse show such a look? Why did he react this way? Let's move on.
There was a hint of anger in Lao Wei's tone: "You want to leave? Are you willing to leave us? Xue Lin also chimed in: "I know we are annoying sometimes. The old horse replied, "You don't hate you, I'll miss you when I get home." Li Meng was not to be outdone: "What did you say yourself, we soldiers are all like this, and no one cares about what kind of human form and ghost form?" You don't care? Lao Ma calmly replied: "There will be more suitable people to take care of you, or you will take care of yourself." ”
Xue Lin showed no mercy: "Of course, if you are determined to leave, you will definitely prepare a basket of rhetoric." Lao Ma finally put down his pen, he knew that he had to make some things clear: "You guys, tell me a word of conscience, I may be the longest squad leader in this regiment, but am I a good squad leader?" ”
Yes, is Lao Ma a good squad leader? This is also the question I was thinking about when I read the ** book "Soldier Assault". For Xu Sanduo, Lao Ma is undoubtedly his savior. If the fifth class of the grassland did not have Lao Ma as the squad leader, or if Li Meng, Xue Lin, and Lao Wei were replaced as squad leaders, Xu Sanduo might be depressed on the grassland. Therefore, for Xu Sanduo, Lao Ma is undoubtedly a good squad leader. Xue Lin also said to Lao Ma: "A few of us just think it's okay, isn't it?" Obviously, the soldiers under him liked him very much, and thought that Lao Ma was a good squad leader for them.
So the question is, is Lao Ma a good squad leader? This requires us to think deeply and **. It is not up to the soldiers under his command to judge whether the squad leader is qualified or not. A squad leader holds a specific position in an organization, so a squad leader should be evaluated from an organizational point of view. First of all, a qualified squad leader must be a good soldier and have the responsibility and ability to raise his forces to the same level as him, or even beyond.
When Lao Ma was in the fifth squad of the grassland, he knew that he was no longer a qualified squad leader, or even a qualified soldier. In the year and a half before Xu Sanduo joined, he was the most outstanding squad leader of the Red Third Company. However, in the fifth class of the steppe, he lost his way and abandoned the principles that he was supposed to adhere to. He placed so much emphasis on unity that he neglected the basic duties of a soldier.
The appearance of Xu Sanduo made Lao Ma realize this, and he felt ashamed. Lao Ma said to Xu Sanduo: "You made us understand that we are messing around, but you forced us to think." That's why we hated you, but we finally started to think. The old horse concluded: "I can't do more here." I just want to tell you, don't mess with the days, or you will be overwhelmed by the days. ”
Lao Ma knew that he had become a squad leader who was "overwhelmed by the days". Before coming to the fifth squad of the grassland, he was an outstanding squad leader of the Red Third Company, and the soldiers he led have now become the backbone of each company. However, the organization sent him to the fifth squad of the grassland red third company, and entrusted him with a "glorious and arduous" task - to protect the grassland and lead the fifth squad.
Why is it said that garrisoning the grasslands is a "glorious and arduous" task? Li Meng's explanation is the most appropriate: "The glory lies in the plain, the arduousness lies in the long, and we devote our limited lives to infinite causes." "However, there is a huge gap between knowing and doing. Many great goals have been reduced to empty slogans because people do not know how to achieve them. Although the task of the fifth class stationed in the grassland is "glorious", it is full of challenges and hardships to achieve it.
In the vast steppe, the soldiers of the fifth squad lost their way. They had a firm goal in mind, hoping to complete the task of garrisoning the grassland by the standards of soldiers, but they could not find a way forward. Life on the steppe is boring and boring, like an endless monotonous picture. In Li Meng's words, the life here is "no danger or danger, the people are simple, the enemy has never had the idea of sabotage, natural disasters such as storms and hailstones are rare in a century, and the underground pipelines are also professionally maintained by engineers." This piece is not bitter, and it is definitely not tired when it is tired, it is boring."
In this seemingly calm but monotonous grassland, the soldiers of the fifth squad began to look for a way to dispel the boredom. Xue Lin loves lost lambs, seeing lost livestock is like seeing a girl he likes, and his fun lies in communicating with people outside the fifth class. Lao Wei likes to give people nicknames, and there are new jokes every day. The squad leader, Lao Ma, is no longer obsessed with playing chess, but instead studies the ...... of bridgeThese soldiers fight against the monotony of life in their own way.
In life, we often face such situations. Faced with the monotony of life day in and day out, we always seem to be looking for new thrills and options. We can choose to play games, shop, drink, play cards, play sports, fish, square dance, ......However, too many choices lead us to lose track of finding the true meaning and value of life.
Man always needs to find meaning and reason for his existence and action. We often ask ourselves, "Who am I?" What am I doing? What is this for? What's the point? "In order to find out, we set various goals, but we lost our way in pursuing them.
In this grassland, the soldiers of the fifth squad are facing the same problem. The reason why they are lost is not because they lack a goal, but because they can't find the direction to achieve it. Just like us in life, we gradually lose ourselves in the monotonous life of two points and one line.
We lost our way to our goal, as if wandering in the endless grassland, overwhelmed. If you can't even find a direction, how can that goal become a reality? It will only turn into an illusory bubble and lose all its actual value. Just like the people of the fifth class stationed on the grassland, facing that seemingly glorious and arduous task, they have no way to start and don't know how to achieve it.
It's nonsense to talk about ideals, you have no money, no connections, you have to do what you should do, you can only accept fate. This phrase is widely spread in life, it is like a curse, which makes people doubt their struggle and lose faith in their dreams. We often use this concept to deny everything, to despise the value of ideals, and to dismiss struggle as nonsense.
However, there are always those who hold fast to their beliefs and resist the erosion of nihilism. They firmly believe that no matter how much the world changes, people always need that tenacity and perseverance in their hearts. They are the ones who have always held on to the grassland, and they are the fighters of the fifth class.
Among them, Xu Sanduo is their representative. He insisted on tidying up housekeeping every day and asked everyone to re-examine the meaning of housekeeping. With his actions, he proved that even a gun without bullets has its meaning in existence. He said: "Meaning cannot stand up to consumption, and there is no meaning in the wasteland." This is his creed and his insistence.
In the midst of everyone's doubts and ridicule, Xu Sanduo did not give up. He picked up rocks every day, starting with one person to building the road to four people assisting in the completion. With great perseverance and perseverance, he built a road from the dormitory to the sentry post under the condition of "one person repairing the road and four people demolishing the platform". That's his persistence, that's what he's all about.
Before he came, how did the four of them spend their days on the grassland? Their hopes seem to be a fantasy that can never be realized, and what they do seems to never be done. Their "hope" is more like an excuse to stay in an "unfinished" state, just like Li Meng's never-ending **.
It reminds me of Nobel Prize-winning Samuel Beckett's Waiting for Godot, where two homeless men wait under a tree for a man named Godot. Actually, who is Godot? What does Godot look like? Neither of them knew that they were just waiting there. However, until the end of the play, Godot did not come, and they did not wait for anything. This may seem like a great irony, but it also reveals the reality of life and the absurdity of human nature.
In Beckett's play "Waiting for Godot", there is a thought-provoking line: "Hope is delayed, and the one who waits dies." "This reveals not only the desires of people's hearts, but also the impermanence of life. In the world, not everyone has a definite God in their hearts, but almost everyone has a vague Godot in their hearts. What the two homeless men are waiting for may not be Godot, but the hope for the future.
Why don't they know Godot's true identity, or even what he looks like, but still wait persistently? Perhaps, what they are waiting for is not Godot, but the persistence and persistence. Just like Beckett tells us through this play: in the absurdity and helplessness of life, the only thing we can do is to keep waiting, as long as we still have hope, Godot will exist.
*Although Li Meng's works are unfinished, his life is full of meaning and hope. His every word and sentence is full of enthusiasm and expectation. As for Lao Ma, his situation is more complicated. What he was waiting for was a new life after being discharged from the army, the coming Godot. Before Godot arrived, he chose to unite the fifth class, and that was his dedication. For the sake of this dedication, he was even willing to give up some of the principles of the military. However, in the face of the upcoming "Godot", Lao Ma did not think deeply, or he did not want to face it squarely.
Just when everyone in Class 5 was quietly waiting for Godot, Xu Sanduo quietly came. He did not choose to join them in waiting, but like Camus's Sisyphus, he found his own meaning and hope in a repetitive and boring life. Seeing Xu Sanduo doing things without distractions, Lao Ma and his soldiers began to reflect on their attitude towards life.
In the end, they decided to build the road with Xu Sanduo. However, the arrival of instructor He Hongtao disrupted their plans. In order to keep the old horse, everyone attributed the credit for building the road to him. In the struggle of honor and conscience, Lao Ma finally accepted this "kindness". But after the instructor left, Lao Ma was deeply disturbed, and he realized that it was the greatest blasphemy to regard Xu Sanduo's efforts as his own promotion.
When the instructor stepped into the territory of the fifth class of the grassland again, Lao Mana's deeply hidden words poured out like waves. "It's a pleasure to be able to talk. He paused, "There is no need to sublimate, there is no need to condense, the days are stacked on the day, and we will look at the ...... with wide eyes."The new soldier is coming, and he knows better than we do! Do you know how this road was built? A raw handmade man who has never tasted the taste of bullets! How did he do it?
Build the wall alone, and the four of them come to tear it down, that's all! How to build? It's all made by heart, sweat, and time! Conscience? I haven't seen him pave the way, so I really don't know what it means to concentrate. Do we really love what we do? Look at him and ask yourself ......The knot in the old horse's heart was untied, and because of that three more, he paved a road in his heart - the road to freedom and true righteousness.
In the journey of life, many so-called hopes are as ethereal as flowing clouds, and we can't find them, perhaps they have long been lost in the vastness. Therefore, the foundation of life lies in inner exploration after all. It is not an external goal, but an inner voice, a self-constructed hope. The Sixth Ancestor Hui Neng said: "If the heart is pure, the West is convenient." If the heart is not pure, it will be difficult to recite the Buddha. "Yes, cross the sea of bitterness and reach the other side; After grief and despair, it was born again and peaceful. In this absurd material world, if you want to get rid of nothingness and confusion, you must find meaning for yourself and appease your restless heart.
After the old horse repaired his inner path, he no longer hesitated. With this path, even if he leaves the team, he is confident that he can bravely face the disturbances outside the barracks. Such a person can live like a fish in water no matter where he is.