Review: 78-year-old late love history, suicide 4 years later, he met the wrong man, or did he have some ulterior motives?
In the literary world, Xu Chi has won the love of readers with his deep and moving writing and sincere feelings, and has become a wonderful flower in the literary world.
However, Xu Chi's life path is not smooth, and his twilight love at the age of 78 and his sudden suicide at the age of 82 are the most tragic endings of his life.
So why did he do this at the time, did he meet someone he shouldn't have met, or did he have some ulterior motives?
In 1936, when Xu Chi was 22 years old, he was teaching at Nanxun High School, a small town in the south of the Yangtze River. He met seventeen-year-old Chen Song.
Chen Song's sweet smile turned into a beautiful piece of music in Xu Chi's life, which stirred up waves in his heart, which reminded him of Xu Chi when he was a teenager, full of enthusiasm, but fell into the whirlpool of love.
The relationship between Xu Chi and Chen Song is like a poetic painting, and he carved the love between the two into a permanent memory with this wonderful relationship with one song after another "Saving Chen Song" and one song after another with deep affection.
On the New Year of 1937, Xu Chi and Chen Song got married, not only because of their love, but also because of their love for 50 years.
Chen Song was with Xu Chi and experienced all the joys and sorrows with him.
After getting married, Chen Song helped him translate many works and wrote a happy married life together.
Xu Chi published a reportage in 1978, "Gothic ** Conjecture" came out, which immediately caused an uproar, and for a time, his status in the literary world reached its peak, and he is also a force to be reckoned with in the literary world.
In this process, Xu Chi's life has experienced a double success of "career and family".
But life isn't that easy. Xu Chi died in 1985, and his "perfect lover" Chen Song died of cancer. There was a look of pain on his face.
In "Saving Chen Song", he vividly interpreted his deep affection for Chen Song, and his life was shrouded in a haze of disappointment and pain.
Xu Chi, now 75, fell in love again. This time, he never thought that this love affair would make him so sad and sad.
In 19**, he attended a gathering of the Writers Association and met Chen Binbin, a Chinese teacher at Sichuan University, and the two had a twilight love.
Chen Binbin, 50 years old, has been divorced for many years, and was once a dancer in the army's literary troupe.
Her unique demeanor and admiration for Xu Chi made the two fall in love at twilight. But their relationship is not as rosy as it seems.
In 1992, 78-year-old Xu Chi and Chen Binbin tied the knot in Wuhan. But after getting married, he found that Chen Binbin had a lot of things to hide from him before he got married.
They have great differences in personality, hobbies, and styles of acting, Xu Chi is a person who advocates true love, while Chen Binbin is a flamboyant person.
This kind of "late love period" caused cracks in Xu Chi's marriage and estranged his children. The children's disgust with this late love worsened the relationship between the family members, and their favorite little girl had a long cold war with him.
In 1993, Xu Chi wrote in his diary that he had lost hope in life, and in 1994, Xu Chi and Chen Binbin finally decided to divorce him during the two years they were together.
The breakdown of this evening love scene brought him huge psychological pressure. He pinned this emotional pain on his autobiography "Jiangnan Town", hoping to use it to ** his spiritual pain.
However, although this relationship has passed, Xu Chi's life has not calmed down.
His friends saw that he was often unabashed, addicted to computers, talking about the future of the world, talking about the end of the world, and he began to wonder and be confused about his literary works, and it became more and more difficult to write an autobiography.
Xu Chi was sent to his room in Wuhan because he was sick.
During his hospitalization, he was in a particularly depressed mood and had a sense of misanthropy about life. Often have terrible nightmares, even during the day, and are enveloped in visions.
He was diagnosed with "senile mania", but this may be just a symptom of him, and the pain in his heart is far beyond his imagination.
During his hospitalization, Xu Chi had written a few words of farewell in English on a piece of waste paper, and when his friends came to visit him, he exuded a look of almost despair, as if he was waiting for some inevitable outcome.
A month later, in the dead of night, Xu Chi escaped the guard and jumped out of the window.
The autopsy report showed that the deceased had "fallen from the building before his death".
This news shook the entire literary world, and no one thought that Xu Chi would die so tragically.
Xu Chi's life is a process of ups and downs, ups and downs, he has had brilliant achievements in the literary world, but in the ups and downs of emotions, he has also had several ups and downs in life.
It seems that even the giants of the literary world can't escape the diversity and unpredictability of life.
And his experience is also a wake-up call for us to think twice about our emotional choices in old age, so as not to make irrational choices that will cause tragic consequences.
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Xu Chi's death seems to be abrupt, but in fact, his long-term psychological depression and loneliness, coupled with his own situation and the marginality of the literary world, made him fall into a situation that is almost desperate.
Lu Xun's death was not only a struggle against the difficulties of life that he could not get rid of, but also the end of the literary and artistic ideals he had pursued all his life.
Xu Chi's experience reflects the complexity of life. His life and his creations allow us to re-examine our life choices and the impact of our environment on our lives.
His decision is certainly sad, but it is also a pursuit of his own life.