I sat in my office with a heavy heart, as if enveloped in a dark haze. I used to think I would find a true partner in this world, someone I could trust, rely on, and support. However, now I feel bound to a cold and heartless marriage that is like a grave that leaves me unable to breathe and to be free.
My wife is a girl 20 years younger than mine, and when we met, she was a youthful and innocent student. I was attracted to her beauty and innocence, and she was attracted to my maturity and poisedness. We started dating and quickly fell in love.
I always considered myself a responsible person, so I decided to marry her and take care of her. However, I didn't take into account the age difference and the difference in life experience between us. Over the next few years, I gradually realized that there were more and more contradictions and disagreements between us.
We have different interests, different life Xi, and even different life goals. I began to feel that we were becoming more and more estranged and that our marriage was becoming more and more hollow. She wanted more freedom and space, while I wanted more stability and security.
Eventually, we came to the point of no return. We often quarrel and even get into fights. Our marriage has lost its meaning and we need to separate. While I knew it would hurt her a lot, I also knew it was the best option we had.
Now, I'm sitting alone in my office with a lot of thoughts. I knew I needed to be brave enough to look inside myself and find true happiness and freedom. Although the process will be very painful and difficult, I also know that only in this way can I rediscover my direction and meaning in life.