"I'm not proving how great I am, I'm proving that what I lost must be taken back with my own hands", because Chow Yun-fat's classic lines suddenly reminded me of the past and re-examined it, it has a different taste, but it is more bitter.
When I was in elementary school, the three good students were the glory of a child, but also yearning, once under the election of my classmates, I unexpectedly got such an honor, looking at the "positive" word voted on the blackboard, my first reaction was shock, the second reaction was to steal joy.
After school, I was anxious to tell my parents the good news, but the teacher asked me to stay, and told me a lot of truths, and now I think about it is all shameful nonsense, in summary, it is for me to give the three good students to another classmate who has won this honor all year round, and the background of that classmate is the son of the principal of another school.
In the child's heart, the teacher's words were like a holy decree, I agreed without hesitation, to be honest, maybe because of my own character, there was no great fluctuation in my heart at that time, I only remember that the teacher told me not to talk about it with my parents.
When I graduated from university, everyone worked hard for their graduation and defense, my tutor was a gentle lady, I also respected her, and with her guidance and help, I successfully drew a successful end to my study career.
That day, I was playing online games in the Internet café to my heart's content, my mobile phone rang, I saw that it was the tutor, I quickly picked up the mobile phone and connected it, and was told that because the group she led performed well, they were all good or excellent, in order to balance other students, but also to avoid suspicion, I hope I will give up Liang and give it to others, and I will be demoted to the middle level.
I promised that the bachelor's degree would not affect me, I didn't think about anything, I immediately agreed, and continued to play my game, I didn't put this matter at ease, I had nothing to do, and I bragged to my classmates, and the teacher discussed it with me, and I felt that I was very valued.
Why, why, why!I asked myself fiercely.
The same thing, why do they repeat it, why do they all choose me, whether it is a good student or a good level, this is what I deserve, why should they deprive me.
After thinking about it for a long time, I summed up two points, one is that I am afraid of power, and the other is that I do not know how to defend my rights and interests.
Don't be afraid of power, don't let your own things go a step, because you don't defend and fight for yourself, no one will care and help you.
Too many people have been constantly testing your bottom line, and the more you retreat, the more you retreat, there will be no sea and sky behind you, only cliffs.
I deserve it, even if I fight hard, don't give up, because if you give up once, it is tantamount to ignoring the cry in your heart, there must be two, and two are easy to get used to.
I have forgotten the names of those people, but these two events will always remind me, because I believe that since I have written them down clearly, they are revealing to me and reminding me of the way to the future.
Self-growth