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It's like I watched a few episodes of the recently well-received new drama "Hometown, Don't Come to Harm" over the weekend, and I couldn't stop crying because of a song in the play.
The heroine in the play, Zhang Pei (played by Ren Suxi), sang "Sui Sui" in the tavern and heard "At that time, I was half a meter tall and couldn't climb the courtyard wall, it's weird, who handed me the ladder, I turned over, I turned over, I haven't seen you for a long time...""My tears just flowed out.
Tactful and warm voice, very graphic lyrics,It reminds me of the limited size and arm length of my youth, where every little problem was like a hill, and I was glad that I successfully passed the hill, looking back at that teenager, I just want to say "long time no see".
In the play, Zhang Pei's mother heard her daughter sing so well, she felt guilty and proud, and remembered that she had prevented her daughter from participating in literary and artistic programs when she was a student, and she said with tears in her eyes: "Zhang Pei,Now I really want to sign up for a class, a class where I want to be a mother Xi, and I hope the teacher can teach me how to be a good mother.
Zhang Pei said optimistically: "I am very satisfied with the mother you did..."You're going to stop me, or I'm not going to be the best singer in insurance. ”
A song and a passage unravel the decades-long complaints, incomprehension and remorse of two generations of a family. Thisdepicts the sense of reconciliation with the original family that many people dream of.
Ren Suxi used to have a bad audience, and he was ridiculed by many netizens as the "donkey-faced queen" because of the misunderstanding of the "little three", but this time, when everyone saw the one singing under the lights,With a clear voice and emotional eyes, Ren Suxi performs a relaxed performance, and suddenly I was infected by the charm she exuded. So this time, the audience and Ren Suxi also completely reconciled.
I first met Ren Suxi, from"Donkey Gets Water".At the beginning, I always felt that she was acting on stage backstage, because of her appearanceThe first impression is "ugly".
In "Donkey Gets Water", Ren Suxi plays the role of **female teacher Zhang Yiman, she has a **personality, "freedom" in thought, and is best at "pajamas" men, but she also has a kind nature, and she is not without a "moral bottom line".
There is a classic picture that the sun is shining, Zhang Yiman picks up the garlic skin as a snowflake, scatters it into the air heartlessly, and happily says "romantic", as if to foreshadow her "innocent" but "regarded as a mustard" by others.
No one can act more like Zhang Yiman like Ren Suxi", this is the consensus of the whole crew.
To perform to this extent, Ren Suxi spent 5 years, acted in more than 200 drama versions of "Donkey Gets Water", slapped himself at least 1,000 times, honed his acting skills in a solid manner, and acted as a real character.
Her second famous work is "The Nameless", Ren Suxi plays the role of Ma Jiaqi, who is a high paraplegic, pungent and bent on death, unable to move from the neck down, with only facial features, Ren Suxi performed a person with complex, changeable, strong and extreme emotions and thoughts.
The body was motionless, and his words and eyes were guns, scaring the two outlaws and not knowing what to do. The failure of her whole body made her heart like ashes, so she regarded death as home, and she was not afraid of heaven and earth.
But when she was incontinent, her armor was her weakness, she softened and asked two people to leave, she didn't want people to see her embarrassment, and she didn't want people to change diapers for her, and the expulsion was fruitless, she burst into tears, spitting stars, full of swearing, and lustful.
"Becoming famous in one urine" has become her exclusive term, and she was laughed at by the audience for "sitting and acting can be a god"., Ren Suxi once again used his strength to tell the audience that people should not be disrespectful.
and Fang Min in "My Motherland and Me", when she met her lover in the crowd who had lost contact for several years due to confidential work, the look in her eyes was ten thousand years, and silence was better than sound.
She also won the Best Actress Award in Chinese Film at the 27th Huading Awards for this movie.
When she won the award, she and Zhang Yi were trembling, after all, "My Motherland and Me" is a platter movie, and they only played one of the units, while Ren Suxi played the role of only a few minutes, which attracted a lot of scolding.
Even if she got the actress as she wished,Many people still call her the "donkey-faced queen". Ren Suxi's acting skills have been recognized, but he still can't pass the level of some "Yan Control" audiences.
Ren Suxi didn't see it that way, she said, "For the public, in fact, my appearance is very ordinary, butI think I'm just right because I can play very ordinary people. If it's all beautiful, who will play ordinary people.
It's easy to look like an ordinary person, but it's hard to act like an ordinary person and be recognized by an ordinary person.
Ordinary people are three-dimensional and complex, and their emotions and thoughts are like streams that travel thousands of miles, not formed in a moment and a half, but will flow in all directions.
To study this kind of three-dimensional and complex, Ren Suxi's way is to write a "character diary", supplementing the diary of the first half of the character's life and mood outside the script.
She said, "I just want to be real, to live in the situation, to convince the audience that the character is the most important thing." ”
Netizens commented that her acting skills have a sense of steadiness in autumn pants tucked into socks, this sense of steadfastness can only be experienced by ordinary people, and Ren Suxi also captured this essence.
What surprised me even more was that Ren Suxi's acting skills were strong, and his talent and talent in singing were also impressive! It is no exaggeration to say that she can easily beat 90% of the singer-songwriters on the market.
When she participated in "Donkey Gets Water", the crew was short of funds and had no money to invite professional singers to sing the theme song of the movie, so she simply asked her to fill in the gaps, and many crews did the same, and everyone thought that Ren Suxi's "I Want You" would be surprisingly good.
I want you to be by my side, I want you to dress up for me", before the climax of the song, Ren Suxi opened her voice and sang these two sentences that were even more unexpected than her appearance.
Listening with my eyes closed, I thought it was a professional singer in the old Shanghai song and dance hall, and people couldn't help but sway along with the playful little love songs, with pink hope in their hearts.
After listening to the singing, I looked at Ren Suxi again, although it was indeed not beautiful, but the more I watched it, the more attractive it became, "Some netizens have begun to turn fans."
Later, as Ma Jiaqi in "The Nameless", Ren Suxi wrote lyrics and sang the movie promotion song "Hu Guangsheng" for the first time, and I actually started to know Ren Suxi from this song.
At that time, a friend said that she liked this song the most, there was no one, I thought that there was such a local name of the song can be heard well**, but as soon as I heard it, I was caught by a familiar emotion.
Hu Guangsheng, Ren Suxi - Hu Guangsheng.
The sad and melodious rhyme easily steps on people's heartstrings, even if you don't know the movie and the plot, it makes people feel as if they have seen an ordinary and extraordinary sad story.
A black mass, high and dumb. The two souls gasped, and smoke and dust were everywhere. Do you recognize me, say so many words to me? You want to be dignified, I'm familiar with it. ”
The lyrics seem to be a short and in-depth dialogue between the characters, earthy and straightforward, just two men and women living at the bottom, the deep inner struggle and the deepest desire for love.
The lyrics and music are all done by Ren Suxi to figure out the hearts of the characters alone, and the songs and songs of amateur singers are so breathtaking, in addition to being surprised or surprised.
Since then, the unknown person finally has a name, it is Hu Guangsheng, and it is also Ren Suxi.
sang well, and Ren Suxi sang the theme songs of film and television dramas such as "Wang Zhaojun", "Dear Child", and "Goodbye Youth" one after another, adding a lot to the plot expression.
Wang Zhaojun (You see the way you hold me) (Accompaniment)., Ren Suxi - Wang Zhaojun (You see the way you hold me).
Ren Suxi's versatility was all grown out of embarrassment, including the first piano in her life, is the hope left to her by her father who has cancer to save medical bills.
In 2018, Ren Suxi appeared on the stage of "City of Fantasy", playing the role of a little girl who grew up with her father in "Time Machine".
A song "Childhood" sings all the complex emotions of the daughter to her father, sometimes innocent and happy, sometimes frightened, sometimes heartbreaking, sometimes smiling and missing, singing and crying Faye Wong, who has always been cold.
Ren Suxi used to say that every time he released a song, he was nervous, thinking: "I'm so amateurish, do I have to be laughed at again." But then I thought that this is also my expression, jokes are jokes. ”
Now Ren Suxi is becoming more and more confident on the road of singing, not because of how professional her skills are, but because she knows more and more how to express characters through singing.
In September this year, "The Third Season of the Band's Summer" was broadcast, and "Big Dream" (also known as "What to Do") sung by Ren Suxi and Wayina received the highest 242 votes in the audience, becoming the best single of Lexia 3 and ranking second on the Chinese song chart.
A song vividly expresses the dilemma, sadness, and helplessness of a person at all stages of his life from the age of six to eighty-eight.
If you can't let go, how can you be satisfied, if life is just a big dream, what will you do? Ren Suxi cried with tears in her eyes and forbearance, her expression changed from bitter regret to smile and relief, with the ultimate question, she lowered her eyes and saw a different scene.
I see people hurrying, I see clouds in the sky, I see people walking on the road", maybe it was a dream, but in the end, it became more open and thoughtful.
Big dreams, Vaina - Rice of the Vine, the 10th Anniversary of the Oneness of the World "Waina Land."
Zhou Xun and Na Ying both choked up and commented, without flowery words, and their true feelings touched everyone.
True art is not the flower of kaolin, but the ability to make people who are unknown and nameless feel that they are being seen, heard, and cared for.
Everyone else uses songs to tell a story and a character, but her singing is always one, she is the character in the story, and she uses her singing voice to sing about herself and the people who are closely related to her.
Let the audience have this kind of small luck, but Ren Suxi has to pay all the strength of "breaking the cocoon into a butterfly".
The first level is to break through the powerlessness of the original family.
Her father is an erhu actor, her mother is a kindergarten teacher, good at accordion, and her sister likes to dance.
But then his father was diagnosed with cancer, and Ren Suxi died when he was in elementary school. It is extremely difficult for my mother to support a family by herself, so she chose to remarry.
At first, her mother wanted Ren Suxi to enroll in normal school and make money independently to support her family as soon as possible, but Ren Suxi still wanted to take the literary route.
At the age of 17, Ren Suxi finally relied on her own skills to be admitted to the directing department of the ** Drama Academy, no one gave advice, she was also blindly selected, entering professional Xi, only to feel boring, not the same as she imagined.
In addition, the people around her are as beautiful as flowers, she is at most a "flower" in "Tang Bohu Dots Autumn Fragrance", and she is very inferior and introverted in her heart.
Ren Suxi later became involved with drama, which was also accidental, because she always carried machines and edited in her spare time to participate in backstage work to earn living expenses.
A force drilled from the ground through the backbone to the depths of her heart" Ren Suxi described the feeling she felt when she stood on the stage for the first time, and she knew that she liked acting.
Since then, Ren Suxi has been rooted in the theater stage, although many times there are more actors in the theater than the audience, but every performance will be conscientiously performed and figured out, even if the remuneration is so three heads and five hundred.
This has laid a good foundation for her acting skills, but she has never slackened, she is still very humble, she invests a lot of time to do her homework in advance before every acting, and when it comes to live filming, she is very relaxed and natural, which is also the main reason why people like her to play roles.
I haven't fooled around with acting once, that's what I can promise. "Ren Suxi tries his best to come up with the most genuine thing every time he acts. She also gradually found a sense of accomplishment from acting and got rid of her inner inferiority.
The second level to break through is the limitation of appearance.
After she appeared on the screen, limited by her unpretentious appearance, many good scripts still did not give priority to her. It is not easy to get the approval of the director and the audience for an actor like her who is "congenitally insufficient". She came to the stage of "I Am an Actor" to prove that she is a powerful actor.
In the show, she played a mother in "1942", her child had been hungry for several days, dying, Ren Suxi broke the bowl, picked up the tile and was about to cut her wrists to feed the blood, and all the power of a mother's desperate situation exploded.
Ren Suxi didn't shed a single tear, and the judges present were all moved with tears.
Xu Zheng said excitedly: "The arrival of Ren Suxi makes me feel that the spring of a good actor has arrived."
Director Chen Kaige praised her: "Silky, smooth, and very relaxed".
Hearing the directors' comments, Ren Suxi began to burst into tears, she said: "I see a lot of good scripts, but they don't come to me, so I want more people to know that I can act very well, and you can trust me." ”
Step by step, Ren Suxi has built up his confidence little by little, and has won the trust of more and more people.
Facing the stereotype of her from the outside world, now Ren Suxi finally has the courage to say: "It's not easy to do anything, the actor relies on the work." ”
Whether it is a song or a film and television drama, one work after another speaks good things for her in front of the audience, because Ren Suxi knows how to use works to speak their hearts.
Authenticity and empathy are always the beginning of a real mutual understanding between people.