My name is Liu Fang, I am 45 years old and I am a full-time housewife. My husband Li Qiang and I have been married for 20 years and have a nine-year-old son, Xiaobao.
A few days ago, my mother-in-law called me ** and said that she was not in good health and was going to come to my house to live with me for a period of time. I was shocked when I heard this, my mother-in-law had a brutal personality, and I really couldn't resist her. What gave me even more headache was that my husband had to pick her up.
That night, I said to my husband, "You also know that your mother has a bad personality, I used to pick her up and quarrel every day." I really can't bear her temperament, please don't take her here, it's better for her to live on her own side. ”
My husband said disappreciatively: "My mother is already old and in poor health, so I am the only relative left, and I can't leave her alone." You'll just be fine, I'll take care of her when she comes, and try not to let her trouble you. ”
I was very anxious and said to my husband, "You said the same thing before, but what happened?".You can't control your mother at all, she is always unreasonable and dictates to me. I've been a daughter-in-law for many years, so you should be considerate of me. She's coming, we're going to have to fight again, I'm really fed up. ”
My husband said impatiently, "You have to get along with me, don't you?"My mother is so old, and I am the only one left, can I not pick her up?Birth, old age, sickness and death are human nature, how many years can she live, you can bear with it. ”
I was angry, raised my voice and said, "I can bear it, but have you ever been considerate of me for so many years?".I take care of your mother by myself, you are good, never help to say a fair word. Now that I've told you what I think, you don't care, you just listen to your mother. Okay, then come on, anyway, I'm your nominal wife, you don't care if I live or die!”
My husband also lost his temper and said, "I let you endure it, but you can't bear it, right?"Didn't I raise you for so many years as my pension?You have to be strong in everything, complaining all the time that this is not good and that is not good. Do I feel good about your attitude today?I'm your husband, you can't understand me, you have to get along with me!”
I couldn't help but scold: "I have to serve you and your son every day, you say I eat white rice?!".I've worked so hard for so many years, and you don't take me seriously like that?Okay, your mother is here, let's get a divorce, so that I don't get angry every day!”
As soon as my husband heard that I was going to divorce him, his face suddenly changed, and his tone softened: "Divorce is not a joke, why are you so unreasonable?."Am I not doing this for my mother?You have been my wife for so many years, and I don't know your hard work, how can you say that you want to divorce me?”
I gasped with anger and sneered, "I didn't expect you to care about my feelings at all. You'll just blindly accommodate your mom and keep unloading tasks on my head, and my feelings don't exist at all!I'm still young and can live again, I'd rather get divorced than be by the two of you every day!”
I was lying alone on the bed, and my heart ached like a knife. It was getting dark, and my husband hadn't come back to look for me. He's in the living room right now, and I can hear him slapping **, like he's talking to his mom about picking her up. Now I'm dead, he doesn't care about my feelings at all, he only thinks about fucking things.
I was so sad and angry. How could he do this to me?I've given so much, I'm his wife. I have served him a lot for so many years, gave birth to a son, and took care of the housework, but he didn't take me seriously. I think about the bits and pieces when we first got married, and now that the relationship is long gone, I can't bear to spend it like this anymore. I made up my mind to get a divorce tomorrow!
On the way home, I went to the supermarket to buy groceries, thinking that tonight I would cook a few of my husband's and son's favorite dishes, which would be their last meal. I was ready to have a showdown with my husband and say I wanted a divorce.
My husband looked at my expression and seemed to know that something was wrong. When my son entered the room, I took a deep breath and said to my husband, "Husband, this time I really thought about it, let's divorce." I can't resist you and your mom anymore, I've lived enough for so many years, and I want to start over. ”
As soon as my husband heard me say this, his face suddenly changed: "Why do you still think this way?".Didn't I tell you last night, we can discuss this, it doesn't have to be like this. ”
I shook my head and said, "I've discussed it too many times, but every time you still only care about your mother's thoughts, you never care about my feelings." I've had enough of it for so many years, I really can't continue like this, it's hard for you to keep me alive. I really want a normal life, no longer angry with you, my heart is too tired. ”
My husband said anxiously: "You calm down, divorce has a great impact on us and our children." You're just not going to give me a chance?I promise to take care of your feelings in the future, and you can trust me one last time. ”
I sneered, "I've heard enough of your promises, I've never seen you do it." I won't believe it again this time, I've made up my mind. You didn't take me seriously at all, and I don't have to suffer in this family anymore. I've got all the paperwork ready, let's get a divorce as soon as possible. ”
When my husband heard me so decisive, his face suddenly turned pale, and his tone also cried: "Fang, how did you become like this?".We've been in a relationship for so many years, and you don't believe me once again?Divorce really doesn't do us any good, and the children are even more innocent. Can you calm down?”
I still shook my head and said, "I've been calm for too many years, and if I continue, it will only get more and more painful." Divorce is good for the children, at least you don't have to watch us quarrel every day. Don't try to persuade me anymore, my decision won't change. ”
After speaking, I turned around and was about to leave, but my husband was in a hurry, so he actually knelt on the ground and hugged my legs, and said: "Fang, don't be like this, please give me another chance, I will definitely make you happy, I will take care of you and take care of the children, and everything will be up to you in the future, please don't do this to our family!."”
When I look at my husband like this, I feel very uncomfortable. But I pushed him away and left without looking back. When I left the house, my tears rained down and my heart hurt like a knife. But I knew that I had to take this step before I could start a new life. I can't listen to my husband's persuasion and promises anymore. I believe that time will eventually heal everything and give us all a new lease of life.
I went back to my best friend's house and stayed with her and her son for one night. Although Xiaobao was still young, he also felt that the atmosphere was not right, and asked me why I didn't go home. I vaguely said that I had something at home and would go back tomorrow. I didn't have the courage to tell him the truth.
I drove home at noon, and my husband was waiting for me at the door of my house. When he saw me, his eyes were red, and his face was full of exhaustion and helplessness. I tried to calm myself down and told him I was here to get some necessities and you don't get in my way.
My husband hugged me and said, "Please don't do this to our family, give me one last chance." I won't stop you if you take something, but I beg you to think twice. ”
I gently pushed him away and quickly entered the room, where I grabbed my and my son's clothes and some necessities. My husband kept standing at the door looking at me, his eyes full of sadness.
I looked at the room I once knew and gritted my teeth without tears. After packing my luggage, I said to my husband, "I have made an appointment with my lawyer to sign the agreement tomorrow morning." When you're ready, sign it, and we'll have nothing to do with it. ”
After saying that, I hugged the box and walked out, and my husband hugged me and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't take care of you." But please give me another chance, this time I will definitely make you happy!”
I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself: "It's late, I've had enough of this life. Let it go, it's all good for us. ”
My husband wanted to say something, but I quickly broke free from his embrace, got into the car and left without looking back. This time, I really left this once warm home.
I know my husband must be very sad and blame himself. Actually, I was also in pain, but this is a decision that has no way out.
Back at Xiaofen's house, I tried to calm myself down. Xiaobao came over and said that she missed her father, so I could only prevaricate him. He was still young, and I couldn't explain it to him, so I had to wait until the dust settled.
After two hours, the divorce agreement was finally signed and sealed. Our seven-year marriage ended like this. My husband said sorry and goodbye to me with red eyes, I nodded, and quickly left the law firm.
The days after the divorce were not as easy as I imagined, but stressful. I had to take care of my son and work on my own, and my schedule was full from morning to night. Xiaobao asks my dad every day when he is **, I can only vaguely say that he is too young to understand this matter.
In order to support my family, I had to go to several schools to teach part-time, leaving early and returning late. At the end of the day, my feet were weak and my back was sore, but I knew I had to persevere. I began to know how to live frugally, and all the wayward consumption in the past was canceled, and every penny had to pass through my eyes.
I gave the house to my husband and rented a small apartment for myself. Rent and utility bills are expensive, and there is barely much left after paying each month. My sleepless nights kept increasing, worrying about what to do tomorrow. But I know that if you choose to divorce, you must have the courage to endure hardships.
Once, I came home from work exhausted to find that the water and electricity in my house had been cut off and the refrigerator was empty. I was so tired that I sat on the ground with my knees folded and cried. Xiaobao was frightened, hugged me and said, Mom, let's go find Dad. My heart felt like it was hurting, but I smiled at him stubbornly.
In our most difficult moments, a life-saving straw appeared. One day I received a ** from my husband, and he said that he could give us a sum of child support. I didn't say no right away because I really needed the money to live. My husband started sending me money regularly, which somewhat eased my burden.
Gradually, I adapted to this new life. Work became hectic but regular, I learned to manage my finances, and I was able to support myself despite being struggling. I began to Xi living alone and no longer relying on others.
Occasionally, I think of my husband and the bits and pieces of our life together. I will pray that my husband and son are in good health and wish them all the best in their new life. I began to learn to forgive the past and let go of the knots.