After actually going to work, I just feel tired, and it's really fatal. When I wasn't at work before, I would arrange for myself to read books, watch movies, write, or develop some hobbies. Although I didn't go to work and didn't study the content of the exam seriously, I arranged it quite for myself every day. It's a very fulfilling waste of time.
This year I tried my hand at work and found that the short 8-hour work day used up almost all of my energy. Combined with the commute, nearly 10 hours a day are spent in exhaustion. In the morning, I struggled to get out of the warm bed and start my commute, full of resistance. In the subway station, people are irritable and tired, and the subway is even more crowded during rush hour. On days when I wasn't at work, I had never experienced such a crowded subway.
After going to work, I found that I didn't wake up as easily as I used to. After reflection, I realized that it was because I didn't want to go to work that it was difficult to wake up early. In order to overcome this problem, I have tried to give myself ** every day, telling myself that waking up early is to avoid the crowded subway and buy more time. However, after less than a week, I almost got exhausted, and every night I came home and just wanted to have dinner and go to bed.
Going to work makes me feel as if I've been drained of energy, and I don't want to do anything even when I have free time. Because the takeaway was so unpalatable, I decided to bring my own food. In the kitchen of the rental house, the lights are dim, and every night I feel miserable when I prepare the ingredients, like a rat in the basement, living a life that does not see the light of day. Although the sun was shining in the morning, I had to rush to work.
I thought about preparing the ingredients for the following week on the weekend, but I didn't have enough lunch boxes and the fridge couldn't hold that many ingredients. Faced with this kind of life, I began to wonder if I really needed this job. Perhaps, I should look for a lifestyle that suits me more and make my life more fulfilling and happy.