I read an article in "Reading Poetry for You", titled "Thank You, My 2023", and listened to the host Cai Zi read the poem "Thank You" by Eilechuan in a calm voice, and was shocked to find that there are only 10 days left in 2023.
2023 is as short and long for me as any year before.
However, there are some differences in this year, more precisely, this year's me, which is different from the previous me.
There is a book that says that people around the age of 30 are easy to doubt their own ability and value.
In 2023 and even longer, I can't help but question myself, my choices, my abilities, and even more so my choices.
The previous achievements do not seem to exist, and the affirmation and praise of the people around them are regarded as perfunctory and on-the-spot.
This situation ended in March 2023.
In Lincang in March, there was a hint of warmth mixed with a hint of coolness, and we had an exciting meeting on an ordinary night, and then went for a drink with three or four friends who we hadn't seen for a long time.
C and I arrived first, and he was already in the second game, and he was already a little drunk.
Chatting casually, he encouraged me as always, and I agreed perfunctorily, deep down I didn't believe it.
Later, he said sincerely, I am good, I don't know why, I suddenly realized that I am just good, even though there are all kinds of shortcomings, but they do not hide the fact that I am good.
From that day on, I collected my emotions and continued to work my life.
It's a pity that life is never about figuring it out and everything is prosperous, after that, because of the adjustment of the job, I still experienced a long time of torture, during that time I always couldn't help but sigh, the whole person was very nervous, very anxious.
Fortunately, it has slowly passed, work has started to get on track, and life has moved forward as always, not for better or for worse.
One day after work, I had dinner and chatted with Xiao Peng, and she told me the story of her neighbor's brother, and finally came to the conclusion that "brave people enjoy life first", which once again lit up my life.
After that, I went to cut my hair short, went on a blind date, worked harder and lived happier, and the shadow that had always haunted my heart dissipated, and I finally got rid of the depression that would come back from time to time.
From then to now, I live happily every day, although I am also worried about work, although my relationship is still unsettled, although I am still troubled by poverty.
In 2023, I have gained a new and happy self, and such a year is worth saying goodbye to.
Record my 2023 from today