My name is Li Jianguo, I am 57 years old and I am a junior high school Chinese teacher. I have been married for almost 30 years, and I have always had a good relationship with my wife, and I can be regarded as a standard middle-aged couple. Just two years ago, our marriage was almost ruined because I met a beautiful young female trainer at the gym.
At first, I didn't expect this to happen. It is said that middle-aged men will have a period of "youth scandal", and I am no exception, so I was easily bewitched by a little girl. Actually, I could have stopped the loss earlier, but I almost went crazy because I coveted the novelty and passion.
It all started when I started working out two years ago. At that time, I suddenly realized that my physical condition was not as good as before, and my small belly obviously had a lot of fat. So I told my wife that I was going to the gym to work out. My wife also thought it was a good idea and encouraged me to do it.
I found a gym not far from my home and started a one-year membership. In the beginning, I was simply running in the gym, lifting weights, and other workouts. The environment of the gym is not bad, the equipment is very new, and I have met some like-minded middle-aged people.
Hello, my name is Xiao Wu and I am the new personal trainer here. Please give me a lot of advice in the future!She introduced herself enthusiastically.
I felt a trace of liking inexplicably in my heart, so I took the initiative to greet her: "Hello Xiao Wu, my name is Li Jianguo, and I am a member here." I'm going to ask you to guide me through my workouts in the future. ”
Xiao Wu smiled sweetly: "Okay, Uncle Li, you seem to be in good physical condition, we will make a training plan suitable for you." ”
Since that day, I have often met Xiao Wu at the gym. She seemed to train me as a key member, and always took the initiative to greet me and explain to me how to use various equipment. I found it very comfortable talking to her, she didn't talk much, but she made me laugh every time. The fatigue after the workout seemed to be released with a smile on her face.
I started going to the gym twice as often as I did when I started. I told myself that it was for my health, but I knew in my heart that it was more about being able to meet Xiao Wu there. Her smiling face, her voice, seemed to be the motivation for me to keep exercising. I started to pay attention to her every move, what she was wearing, what makeup she was wearing today, and what weird jokes she was telling. I can't tell you what it's like to be this kind of attention.
After a day of fitness, Xiao Wu offered to send me home. I agreed without saying a word.
Uncle Li, your physical condition is getting better and better, keep it up!She said in an affectionate tone.
I smiled: "Thanks to your guidance, Xiao Wu, my wife sees my current figure and says that I am much stronger every day." ”
That's not good, Uncle Li has to continue to work hard, and he can't take it lightly. She smiled and patted me on the shoulder, "Otherwise, your wife may not like you when she sees that you have gained weight again!"”
I was amused by her joke: "Yes, yes, yes, I will definitely continue to work hard." ”
On the way home, we talked a lot, and I also learned that she is a foreign girl from Shandong, who has only been in the city for less than a year and is still single. She told me that she thought I was a very attractive middle-aged man.
I was overjoyed, and naturally I also expressed my affection for her. When I got home that night, I was almost overjoyed. My wife noticed my abnormality and asked me if there was anything particularly fun going on at the gym. I vaguely prevaricated and didn't mention Xiao Wu to her.
For a while, my mind was full of Xiao Wu's figure. I began to avoid intimate contact with my wife, always using the excuse that I was tired and needed to rest early. In fact, I'm just afraid that once I make out with my wife, I will have Xiao Wu's face in my mind. It bothered me a lot, I knew I was wrong, but I just couldn't control it.
Xiao Wu and I started going on frequent dates, going to the movies, going to the park, and eating together. Every time I am with her, I feel like I am back in my youth, full of energy and passion. Xiao Wu also seemed to enjoy her time with me, and she said that I was the most charismatic uncle she had ever met.
After a date, we happened to meet Ma Ying, an old classmate of mine from college. As soon as Ma Ying saw me holding hands with a young girl, she suddenly showed a surprised expression on her face.
I smiled awkwardly and said, "This is my fitness coach Xiao Wu, we just happened to meet." ”
She's fine, you can rest assured. "My face is a little hot.
That's good, you also continue to take care of yourself. I'll go first, I'll get together another day!Ma Ying waved goodbye to us.
After seeing Ma Ying leave, I breathed a sigh of relief. Xiao Wu leaned on my shoulder and coquettishly: "Uncle Li, you won't be mistaken, I'm not a fitness coach, what I like is you." ”
I smiled and comforted her, "I know, don't think too much, let's just continue to enjoy our date." ”
But this incident still tugged at a certain string deep in my heart. I knew that what I was doing now was wrong, but every time I wanted to push Xiao Wu away, I couldn't bear to say anything about breaking up when I saw the sad look in her eyes.
I began to avoid my wife, consciously or unconsciously, and often hid in my study and did not talk to her. I know that such a cold will definitely break her heart, so I try to avoid too much communication with her, so as not to see through my inner emotions.
One day, my wife finally couldn't help it, she grabbed my wrist, her eyes were full of tears: "Jianguo, what's wrong with you?".Why is it that all of a sudden I am a different person, always snubbing me and my children? Is there something going on at the gym?”
I was speechless and could only immediately shake off her hand and tell her that I was tired and needed to be quiet. Then he ran away and went to Xiao Wu's house.
Xiao Wu saw my embarrassed appearance and immediately understood my feelings. She hugged me and comforted: "Uncle Li, it's okay, I'm here, don't be sad." ”
I hugged her tightly, as if to melt into her flesh and blood. I asked her if I could just leave her home with her.
Xiao Wu hesitated for a moment, then shook his head resolutely: "No, Uncle Li, what you are doing now is not right. You already have a family and shouldn't hurt your wife. You should go back to her. ”
I was silent, filled with shame. Xiao Wu is completely right, how can I easily abandon my wife and children because of a moment of novelty?What I'm doing now is ridiculous.
I'm sorry, Xiao Wu, I was wrong. I smiled wryly and said, "I think I need to be quiet and rethink what I've been doing during this time." Thank you for waking me up. ”
Xiao Wu nodded and watched me leave her house.
I returned to my house like a walking corpse, and when I pushed the door open, my wife was sitting on the couch in a trance. She seemed to have slept all night, her eyes were red, and her face was bloodless. When she saw me return, a flash of surprise flashed in her eyes, which was quickly replaced by disappointment.
You're back?Her tone was so calm, but it made my heart twist.
Well, I'm back. I looked away, not daring to look at her.
Who have you met at the gym these months?She asked bluntly.
I knew I couldn't hide it from her, so I had to tell everything I had done during this time. I saw her body tremble slightly as I spoke, but she didn't say a word, just listened silently.
I'm sorry, but I know it's a big mistake. I figured it out, I'm not going to see that girl again, and I'm not going to the gym again. I whispered.
Is it that as long as I am 20 years younger, you will not change your mind and go to the little girl?She asked, choking up.
The wife was silent and did not respond for a long time. After a while, she patted the back of my hand gently: "Get up, I'm hungry, you go and get something to eat." ”
I knew it meant she was willing to give me a chance to start over, and I got up excitedly, turned around and went to the kitchen. I am determined to make up for the damage she has suffered with sincerity and action, and I will never let her suffer the slightest grievance in this life.