19-year-old Gan Tingting had a dream in the entertainment industry, she resolutely gave up her finance major and came to the unfamiliar big city of Beijing alone. At the beginning, the hopeful Gan Tingting ran around to contact the opportunity to audition for the role. She took the initiative to cooperate with all kinds of requests, regardless of the hardship. However, one after another failed, Gan Tingting gradually realized the cruelty of this circle. As a foreigner, without a background and network, it is extremely difficult to gain a foothold in Beijing. 
The day-to-day failures made Gan Tingting fall into self-doubt, and she cried and slept alone, holding back the lonely courage that worked hard but could not see hope. Without three meals, living in a crowded dormitory made Gan Tingting feel as if she was fighting a war in Beijing without a blade. All she can rely on is her firm belief - I must break out in the entertainment industry. The first opportunity that I finally waited for was a supporting role, and Gan Tingting clung to it like a thin wolf seeing its prey. Although it is only a small role, she regards it as a treasure and does her best to interpret it in order to strive for more opportunities. With her love for acting, Gan Tingting slowly accumulated her acting skills and experience step by step. Until one day, at the age of 26, she finally played the important role of "Pan Jinlian" in the new version of "Water Margin". This is the first highlight of her acting career, and it is the moment of revenge on the North Drift Road. Gan Tingting, who got this opportunity, was very excited, and she was determined to devote herself to this role at any cost and conquer all the audience with her acting skills. The role of "Pan Jinlian" brought Gan Tingting the pleasure of becoming famous in one fell swoop, she was known as "the most beautiful Pan Jinlian", and her popularity rose rapidly like a rocket. This should have been the pinnacle of Gan Tingting's acting career. However, while being on the list and carrying a halo, it has also become a shackle and curse that Gan Tingting will be difficult to get rid of in the future. 
In the minds of the audience, the impressions of Gan Tingting and Pan Jinlian have blended together, which has become a huge burden and obstacle to her career. In the following years, Gan Tingting continued to try to play other roles, hoping to jump out of the label of a personalized symbol. However, there is always a gap between the audience's expectations and reality, and they still equate Gan Tingting with Pan Jinlian, a sometimes charming, sometimes cunning and ruthless demon girl. Whether she plays a positive patriotic girl in the anti-Japanese drama or Shen Bijun who is loyal and infatuated in the Gulong drama, she is unable to achieve self-expansion and breakthroughs, and she always hits a wall. This kind of freeze-frame made Gan Tingting distressed. She also laughed at herself in her heart: It turns out that my biggest success is Pan Jinlian, and my defeat is also Pan Jinlian. Is this the end of the actor's career?Or did someone ask me to play Pan Jinlian's play?It's just that these dramas are gone. In any case, whether it is the aura or curse of "Pan Jinlian", it will accompany Gan Tingting's life. Only transformation and breakthrough are the only way to break this curse. The opportunities and stages for transformation are in the best placeGan Tingting stood alone and didn't know the way forward. 
After entering 2015, 31-year-old Gan Tingting gradually realized that she was quietly abandoned by this circle, and her declining career entered a low period. On the contrary, some newcomers have no teacher, and they can easily become popular in the entertainment industry with a beautiful photo and hot search, and become a popular fried chicken. Gan Tingting is not without strength, her acting skills and popularity have reached their peak in "Water Margin". However, the trend and environment of this circle have quietly changed - traffic stars and packaging are dominant, and real acting skills and performances are ignored and neglected. Actresses such as Huan Xi and Guo Zhenni of the same era had no scenes to film, and reluctantly faded out of the center of vision. They all face the same dilemma, having lost their foothold in an era of glamorous appearances. The once most popular Hua Dan had no drama to film, and was replaced by a newcomer, which has undoubtedly become the sadness of the development of this entertainment industry. This also made Gan Tingting suddenly realize that she was just the object of abandonment after the consumption and squeezing of this circle. Youth and appearance are the lifeblood of this industry, when I was over 30, what was the use of good acting skills and performances?
As soon as she thought of this, Gan Tingting's heart swelled with deep loneliness, melancholy and unwillingness. I'm only 31 years old, which is the ** age of blood and strength. I have only been in the film for ten years, why should I be forgotten in this desert of acting!Is my youth and acting skills only worth so many years?Gan Tingting couldn't help but redden, she clenched her fists, and secretly swore in her heart, I will never sink here, and I must rise again in adversity!Gan Tingting, who was originally in the limelight and reached the peak of her career, had to take on some low-cost online movies to make a living after experiencing a trough in acting. She also had good development prospects, and her masterpiece "Water Margin" was popular all over the country and was pinned on high hopes. Unexpectedly, the good times didn't last long, and the aura of "Pan Jinlian" made her fail and could not escape the curse of typological interpretation. After the transformation time and attempts, Gan Tingting experienced the impermanence and cruelty of the entertainment industry. 
What makes it even more difficult for her to accept is that the ecology of this circle has changed beyond recognition at this time. Those young trafficmen who have not studied acting and rely on their family background to rise to the top are as dazzling as the sun. They don't need to rack their brains to interpret the characters, as long as they appear, they can easily earn enough eyeballs and attract thousands of favors. This is in stark contrast to her dismal experience as an older generation of actors, which makes Gan Tingting feel extremely ironic and unfair. However, the torrent of fate does not stagnate or retreat for any individual. They mercilessly throw those who do not conform to the aesthetics and rules of the era out of the mainstream. For Gan Tingting, who was once in the limelight, this is undoubtedly the darkest valley period in her acting career. She had to face this cruel reality and survive in the marginal waters of online movies. Seeing her most glorious youth slowly retreating into the back of the long river of history, Gan Tingting's heart was full of helplessness and sighs. 
She understands that the circumstances of this era no longer allow her to shine. So, what's left?Is it silently giving and performing, or turning away from this cruel stage?Gan Tingting gently stroked her forehead with her hand and exhaled a long breath. She decided to hold on for a while longer, because she still had a love for acting and that unwillingness in her heart. Let time tell, I will definitely make a comeback and return to the top!