Wen The green onion mother is homely.
Narrator: Ms. Sun.
Our family is rural, and when we got married, my in-laws didn't help us except build us three rooms. My husband and I have been married for 15 years, from the initial nothingness to the later bought a car and a house in the city, all of which are based on our own step by step hard work, of course, the biggest credit is my husband, because these years he has been alone to get up early and run long distances, I just farm at home and do some odd jobs.
Although my husband and I get together less and leave more, our relationship is very good, and the fly in the ointment is that we don't have children. I got pregnant when I first got married, but I didn't expect the baby to stop when I was more than three months old, and then I never got pregnant, and we also went to many hospitals, checked many times, and the doctor said that there was no problem with both of us, but we just couldn't get pregnant.
At the beginning, my husband was still worried about not having children, but after so many years, my husband also wanted to open it, it doesn't matter if there are children or not, as long as the two of us are happy. He said that he would retire in a few years, stop driving, find a job as a security guard, relax and retire with me.
However, before my husband retired, I waited for the news that my husband had lung cancer, and it was still in an advanced stage. Looking at the diagnosis, my husband asked, "Is it still cured?"”
Although my husband looked calm on the surface, I could clearly feel that his tone was full of longing for life, so I hugged him and said:"Do you need to ask?Of course, I have to be cured, and I will grow old with you. ”
When I said this, my heart was extremely heavy, because the doctor had already greeted me in advance, and I was not sure whether this disease could be cured, but it must be a bottomless pit, so I was mentally prepared.
More than anyone else, I want my husband to live, because he is the only one who can accompany me until I grow old. However, after persevering for a while, I felt a lot of pressure, on the one hand, mental pressure, and on the other hand, financial pressure, because my husband's condition did not improve, but worsened day by day.
After multiple tortures of surgery and chemotherapy and radiotherapy, my strong husband has become thin, and I feel skinny that I can't describe his thinness, let alone walking, and even my voice is very small, so I have the idea of giving up**. Because I feel very selfish, knowing that this disease cannot be cured, and I have to let my husband suffer from the pain for my own glimmer of hope.
At this moment, my in-laws came with my eldest sister and sister-in-law, and they handed over 3,000 yuan of aid to each family"Daughter-in-law, no matter how difficult it is, you have to save my son, he is not only your husband, but also our son, we are this son, and we still expect him to provide for us in old age. ”
I understand the feelings of my in-laws and sisters-in-law, but I have to let them know that this disease is really not what we imagined, so I told my in-laws and sisters-in-law the truth, and told them that I was already planning to give up**. Unexpectedly, the in-laws immediately changed their faces and said"No, my son's illness must be cured, you can't give up, you two don't have children, the family's money is earned by my son, even if he can't enjoy it, it must be spent, is it possible to keep you and take it to the next house in the future?."”
This sentence has already shown their attitude, even if the husband is not cured, they want the money to be spent on the husband, and they don't want to leave me a penny.
I didn't refute it, I did my best to save my husband, and even sold the car and house. Some people say that I am stupid and stop me from selling, saying that the deposit and the garage are the joint property of the husband and wife, and half of it will be spent, so why should I give it all I have. At that time, I was also choked in my heart, that is, I wanted to show my in-laws and gag their mouths.
My in-laws and sisters-in-law would occasionally come to see my husband, and apart from crying for a while and asking me to find a way to prolong my husband's life, I didn't stay in the hospital to help me take care of my husband for a day, and I never cared if my body could afford it.
I persisted in this life for nearly a year, spent all the family's savings, and failed to keep my husband's life, all the money just extended my husband's life for a few more months. In those months, I witnessed my husband's quality of life, full of tubes, hanging there with all his breath, and I could even describe it as lingering, and I also dropped my weight from 120 pounds to more than 80 pounds because of overwork.
I felt that I had a clear conscience, and I did everything I should have done and what I shouldn't have done, so on the day my husband died, I didn't shed a single tear, or even felt relieved, because I was finally relieved.
At the funeral, my in-laws and two sisters-in-law cried to death, and I was the only one who stood aside, as if they had been tortured this year. After crying, my sister-in-law questioned me:"Why aren't you sad?Haven't you been looking forward to my brother leaving for a long time, so that you can take the money to find a home and be happy, fortunately, we have the foresight, even if we can't save my brother, we will spend all your money. ”
Hearing what the sister-in-law said, the in-laws also came over to add fuel and vinegar, and there was not a word of gratitudeI even said that my husband's illness was because I was tired, I didn't have children over the years, I didn't go out to work, my husband ran long distances alone, and he smoked for fear of sleepiness, so he got lung cancer, all of which was caused by me, I caused them to lose their son, and the white-haired people sent the black-haired people.
I don't want to refute or explain what they say, my mouth is on them, let them be, I just have to be worthy of my conscience.
Half a year later, I was introduced to my current husband, who was divorced and had a child, and we soon got married and lived happily.
My mother-in-law's family said everywhere that I was a careless woman, and my husband remarried after only half a year of death. Only I know how much it hurts in my heart, and I'm just looking for someone to rely on to cover up my pretended strong appearance.
I want to ask everyone, do you think I'm unkind?Anyway, I think it's my kindness that has made me survive all the hardships and usher in the sweetness I have now.
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