Last spring, my husband Zhao Tianxiang was diagnosed with ** cancer, and the doctor told us that if it was not removed, his life would be in great danger. For his safety, he had to cut off the life he cherished. However, at the end of this summer, his condition deteriorated furtherCancer cellsStarted the transfer and ended up leaving us a little over a month ago. His passing made my heart cut and I missed him deeply. Everything remained the same during his lifetime, and the study he loved remained the same. Whenever I miss him, I sit in my study for a moment, hugging his portrait tightly and tears streaming down my face. I blamed him for not paying attention to personal hygiene, often sweating and kicking shuttlecocks, and not liking to take a shower or change his underwear. Eventually, dermatitis developed at the base of his thigh, which further evolved into ** cancer. Reminiscing about the past, when I fell asleep with his portrait in my arms, I felt endless regret and pain in my heart.
According to hisWillsI scattered part of his ashes in the Baishui River next to our community, and the other part was stored inFuneral home。Every day, I go for a walk along the Whitewater River, which has become a Xi for many years. There, I exchanged thoughts with Tianxiang and asked him if he was okay in heaven. I hope he will give me a dream and tell me if I need to do something for him. Gazing at the sparkling Baishui River, it seems that I can see his face and smile, recalling the past of our marriage for more than 30 years. The brown color he loves to wearCoatsI didn't burn it, but stayed at home and often wore it out for walks, as if I could still feel his warmth and his presence by my side. My sisters all comforted me compassionately, telling me to be strong and that it would take time to get out of the shadows. It will take three years, they said, and the key is up to me. I hope that I will be able to get out of my grief as soon as possible and avoid the diseases caused by excessive sadness.
The more I miss Tianxiang, the more I want to do something for him. After thinking about it slowly, I decided to take all he hadCalligraphyThe works are collected and published as a book. HisCalligraphyThe work is very well written. I found his cousin and he was a familyPrinting houseThe boss explained the situation to him. He immediately agreed to my request and said that he was willing to publish a commemorative book for Tianxiang for free. So, I started selecting his works and captioning each one. The preface to the book is byCalligraphyThe secretary general of the association wrote, and I wrote the afterword, recording his life's experience and criticismCalligraphyand how much I miss him. This book will be published soon, and I plan to give it to his friends, family, parents, and likesCalligraphyto express our nostalgia for him.
Before Tianxiang died, he took out the bonuses accumulated over the years, totaling 200,000 yuan, and donated them to the party committee of the factory as a reward for outstanding scientific researchers. I found the leader of the party committee of the factory, proposed to hold a small symposium, and commended two outstanding R&D personnel with this bonus. The leaders of the party committee of the factory agreed to my proposal, selected two outstanding R&D personnel, and held a small symposium. Tianxiang's old colleagues, leaders, as well as the heads of the scientific research department and the deputy secretary of the factory all attended the meeting. At the meeting, I tearfully told Tianxiang's deep affection for the unit, as well as his thoughts about his leaders and colleagues, and his expectations for the future development of the diesel engine factory. I hope that the R&D personnel will continue to work hard and achieve new achievements in their respective positions. We also awarded bonuses to two outstanding R&D personnel. This incident was made into a newsreel by the Propaganda Department of the Diesel Engine Factory, broadcast on the unit's TV station, and was also carried out on the Yuandu TV station.
In order to relieve my longing and grief for Tianxiang, I began to participate in some activities and organizations related to him. I joined the local Whitewater River ConservationVolunteersThe team goes every weekend to help clean up the garbage along the river and promote the concept of environmental protection. I joined as wellCalligraphyassociations, participateCalligraphytraining courses, withCalligraphyXi and communicate with enthusiasts to perpetuate his relationshipCalligraphyof love. These activities not only made me feel connected with him, but also gave me new motivation and meaning in life.
Every night before I go to sleep, no matter how tired and sad I am, I pray that he will give me a dream and spend the night with me. In the dream, we would walk together by the Baishui River, holding hands, chatting about our past and all the good things. Sometimes, we would sit on the rocks by the river, listen to the murmuring of the river, look at the stars in the sky, and enjoy the nightTranquilityand his company. In my dreams, I could feel his warmth and love, as if he was right there for me and would never leave. The reunion in my dream brought me endless comfort and **.
During this time with Tianxiang, I learned to be strong and face life. I felt that His love was always there for me, giving me strength and courage. Every day is a new day, and I want to live for him, no longer indulging in sadness and longing, but to live my life more exciting and fulfilling. I will continue to cherish my family and friendships, maintain a positive attitude, and live my life to the fullest for him. I know that Tianxiang will be at ease in heaven, and he is willing to see me live happily ever after.
In order to commemorate Tianxiang forever, I decided to organize a memorial ceremony on the first anniversary of his death. I invited all his friends and family, as well as his colleagues and enthusiasts, to the commemoration. At the ceremony, I will share with you his life and thoughts about him, as well as the precious memories he left us. We would light candles together to mourn his departure, and then release balloons to send our thoughts and blessings to the sky. After the ceremony, we also organize a small dinner to celebrate his life and the wonderful memories he left us.
In the days without him, I will always miss him and put him in the deepest part of my heart. I will use his love and spirit to support myself and continue to move forward to make my life more exciting and meaningful. His passing changed my life and made me more aware of the importance of cherishing the people around me and every moment. Although he is gone, his presence will live forever in my heart and memory.