In order to continue the incense, the 52-year-old father and the neighbor's aunt gave birth to twins illegally, and the son is not yet married
I'm Zhang Hai, a 52-year-old middle school history teacher. My son Xiaoyu is 30 years old, but he has never planned to get married and have children. As an elder, I always hope that he can get married and have children as soon as possible and continue the family incense, but he is always reluctant to enter into marriage too early on the grounds of high social pressure.
Not long ago, I met my neighbor Ah Fang at school. She is the mother of my son's elementary school classmate, two years younger than me, with a good figure and outstanding appearance. We talked about the baby, and she revealed that her daughter is currently working in the field and has never had a boyfriend. I joked, "If only your daughter were with my son, we'd be a family." ”
Ah Fang responded with a smile: "How can it be so easy, I don't think there is much hope." Your son is quite comfortable living alone now, so he shouldn't get married and have children easily. ”
The thought made me both excited and a little ashamed. Excitedly, I felt as if I had found a solution that would allow the family to continue the incense without putting too much pressure on my son. I'm ashamed that at my age, I would have such crazy thoughts.
Although time has passed, I really care about the inheritance of incense, which may be said to be a traditional concept of mine. As the only male in my family, I feel that it is my responsibility to pass on the incense. The thought of the possibility of the family being severed inevitably led to a sense of guilt in my heart.
Teacher Zhang, Teacher Zhang?"Fong's voice woke me up from my contemplation.
Ah, sorry, sorry, I was a little distracted just now. Where did we just go?"I'm a little embarrassed.
I'm saying that my daughter will find the right partner one day, and you're suddenly out of the woods. Ah Fang said with a smile.
Well, maybe. I just suddenly thought of some trivial matter and forgot to respond to you. "I tried to hide my feelings. 
Mr. Zhang, you are really thoughtful about the problem, you have a son in his thirties, and he is still so attentive. Ah Fang laughed and teased me.
I laughed twice and thought, do you know what I was thinking?I struggled to suppress the ridiculous thought in my mind, chatted casually with Ah Fang about trivial matters, and then politely said goodbye to her and went back to the office.
Sitting alone at my desk, my mind involuntarily returned to that bold idea. I understand that this kind of thinking is too unreasonable, and that at my age with Ah Fang, there should not be any deviant relationship. But on the other hand, I really care about the inheritance of incense, and I don't want to just watch my family have no successor.
I propped my head on the table and said to myself, "Let's go back and think about it first, maybe in a few days, this urge will subside." I'm not a young man anymore and can't make rash decisions. ”
With that, I began to pack my things and get ready to go home from work. But my heart was like knocking over a five-flavor bottle, full of mustard and excitement brought by this absurd idea.
When I got home, I tried to get rid of the thought that came to my mind during the day, but it was like a nail in my heart, constantly reminding me and not giving me a moment of peace.
How can I make a decision on the spur of the moment when having a baby?I said to myself repeatedly.
But the thought of the family incense being cut off made my heart ache again. As someone who grew up in a traditional Chinese environment, I can't imagine that I just gave up the responsibility of passing on the lineage.
Maybe I can go to the monastery and ask the great monks for advice to see if this idea is the confusion of the elderly. I muttered to myself.
After listening to my story, the old monk pondered silently for a while, and then looked at me kindly: "Child, the old man can understand your thoughts. Passing on the family line is a traditional virtue of the Chinese nation, and it is human nature that you want to fulfill your responsibilities as a son. But you also have to think carefully and don't do anything that hurts nature and reason. I suggest that you think twice and ask your family to enlighten you, and don't be greedy for the moment. ”
After listening to the old monk's words, although I still had a grudge, I also felt that what he said made sense. So I thanked the old monk and left the monastery.
On the way home, I pondered the old monk's advice. Indeed, I should not be greedy and impulsive and do things that hurt my family and neighbors. I'm going to make this clear to my son, listen to his thoughts, and we'll discuss the countermeasures slowly.
After dinner, I found my son Xiaoyu and told him that I was confused for a while and wanted to have another child to inherit the incense. I also told him how I went to the monastery to ask the old monk for advice. Xiao Yu listened quietly and was silent for a long time.
After a while, Xiao Yu breathed a long sigh of relief and looked at me solemnly: "Dad, I understand your mood of wanting to inherit the incense." But don't be ruined. We live in a pluralistic society, and traditional attitudes are constantly changing. I will consider your ideas carefully, but I will never support you in doing anything against the law. Please also look at this matter calmly and rationally. ”
After listening to Xiao Yu's words, the big stone in my heart fell to the ground. I nodded and said, "You're right, kid. It's Dad who was confused for a while and didn't think things through enough. I will think about this slowly, and I will never do anything that hurts nature. You can rest assured. ”
Xiao Yu also seemed very happy to see that I could calm down. Our father and son chatted a little bit about homely things, and the atmosphere was much more relaxed. I have repeatedly promised that I will be calm about this and that I will not do anything stupid. The conversation between father and son relieved me a lot.
Although the communication with my son and the monks of the monastery calmed me down, my obsession with inheriting the incense was still difficult to eliminate. Whenever I think of the family being interrupted, I still feel extremely sorry and blame myself.
What Ah Fang said that day also made sense, now that the social situation is complicated, it is indeed inhumane to force his son to get married and have children. However, I am 52 years old, and it will be more and more difficult to have children in a few years, and if I don't take advantage of the opportunity now, I will regret it later. "The more I thought about it, the more I felt I had to take this last chance.
Perhaps I could try to hint at Ah Fong, probe her tone, and see if I could accept my bold offer. "I had a plan in mind and decided to test Ah Fang's idea. 
On a sunny weekend, I invited Afon to take a walk in the park. We walked and talked about various topics in life, including the future of our children. I casually mentioned, "If you think about having another child, then we can enjoy the grandchildren together." ”
A flush appeared on Ah Fang's face: "Teacher Zhang, are you kidding?" I'm not young anymore, and it's really impossible to have another child. ”
I tried to gently persuade: "Now that the medical conditions have advanced quite a bit, the age limit for childbearing has been much relaxed. Moreover, the joy that children bring is incomparable, wouldn't you like to try what it's like to be a grandmother?”
Ah Fang smiled and quipped: "Teacher Zhang, you are really joking, I don't ask for so much." As long as I am healthy and happy, I am already satisfied to watch my daughter find happiness. ”
On the way home, I fell into deep thought. Although Ah Fang did not want to have children in his later years, my desire was still unwavering. I decided to take a more direct look at what Fong really thought.
Halfway through the conversation, I noticed a look of disbelief on Fong's face. She was silent for a moment, and then sighed heavily: "Teacher Zhang, I understand your feelings, but having a child is a very important decision. We all need to be thoughtful. We're not young now, and I don't think we need to take that risk. Rest assured, don't worry too much about that. ”
She was very adamant and I understood that she did not agree to my proposal. I was frustrated, but I also knew that no amount of persuasion would help. I could only put this topic aside, chatted with her casually about some other things, and sent her away. I stood in the doorway and watched her go away, with mixed feelings.
Despite Ah Fang's clear attitude, my desire to pass on the incense still lingers. I thought to myself, "It's understandable that Fong doesn't agree now, but maybe I need to explain my thoughts more carefully so that she can understand my struggle." The thought kept coming to my mind.
A few days later, I plucked up the courage to invite Fong to my house for dinner, hoping to talk about it again. After the meal, I solemnly expressed to her: "Ah Fang, I know that the things I mentioned last time may make you think I'm joking. But in fact, I thought it through, and it was my sincere thought. I understand that we are no longer young, but I can't give up on my desire to pass on my family. Can you think about doing me a favor?”
Ah Fang sighed and looked at me seriously: "Teacher Zhang, I understand your feelings, but this idea is too unexpected. We can't make irrational decisions because of our own desires. At the same time, I have to think about my reputation. ”
She was very adamant, and I knew there was no point in persuading her. Perhaps, I need to accept this reality and stop holding on. 
After much thought, I assured her, "Ah Fang, I will make sure that your reputation and that of your child will not be affected. I will not let this matter affect your life in any way. Can you understand my wish and promise me?”
Ah Fang was silent, her expression hesitant and tangled.
I continued to persuade: "Ah Fang, you understand how deep my heart's desire for inheritance incense is. If I can't make it, I'll regret it for the rest of my life. This is actually a kind of happiness for us. Think about it, right?”
One weekend, I finally convinced Fong, who reluctantly agreed to my request. She looked helpless, but expressed confidence in the promise I had made. I was so excited that I promised to keep my promise. We discussed the details of the plan in detail, and although Afong was still a little apprehensive, he finally agreed to my request. I was elated, feeling like my wish was about to come true.
We moved quickly as planned. On a beautiful weekend, we drove to a mountain lodge in the countryside and chose a peaceful and secluded place as our rendezvous.
We booked a beautiful suite. I set up the room in advance to create a romantic and warm atmosphere, lit up the aromatherapy, and placed flowers and delicious snacks. Ah Fang saw the layout of the room and had a shy smile on her face.
I gently hugged Ah Fang and said to her, "Thank you for agreeing to my request, I will be forever grateful to you." Ah Fang nodded shyly, blushing on her face, and hid in my arms. 
We hugged each other intimately in bed at that warm moment, and I felt the happiness and satisfaction that I had not felt in a long time. Ah Fang's delicate and touching appearance aroused all my enthusiasm, and I unreservedly expressed my sincere feelings and deep love to her.
When the climax came, I couldn't help but shout loudly: "Ah Fang, our wish will finally come true!".Ah Fang replied shyly and softly. Afterwards, she slept quietly, with a faint happy smile on her face. I gazed at her with joy and gratitude in my heart.
Ah Fang quietly conceived my child. In the first few months, she had some morning sickness and discomfort, and I took care of her wholeheartedly, caring about her health and diet. As time passed, Ah Fang gradually adapted to the changes in her body, and her complexion became more and more beautiful.
During pregnancy, I tried not to disturb Ah Fang, and occasionally asked ** to care about her physical condition. Sometimes I sneak into her house and bring some nutritional products or a meal I have made myself, and spend time with her.
Ah Fang's daughter works outside the home and does not know her mother's condition. For the sake of secrecy, Ah Fang told his neighbors that he was going to travel abroad, and then moved to another city to live for a while, avoiding the attention of familiar people. 
Ah Fang's belly is gradually getting bloated, and the baby is coming. I started to feel anxious and worried that something unexpected might happen. But Ah Fang was always calm, and she comforted me in turn, telling me that everything would be fine and that I didn't have to worry.
I was thrilled by the arrival of the baby and tears welled up in my eyes, as if this moment was a miracle. I silently watched these two little beings, and gratitude came spontaneously.
After the baby was born, I quietly went to visit the hospital. Carrying two pink babies into my arms, my heart was wrapped in warmth. I hugged them, and I felt so excited that I could only kiss their soft little faces and little hands and feet over and over again.
Ah Fang said to me tiredly: "The children will be entrusted to you, you must fulfill your promise and take good care of them." I nodded solemnly and reassured her that I would fulfill my responsibilities and obligations as a father.
On the day I was discharged from the hospital, I drove Ah Fang and the child back to her home in a foreign land. Carrying the two babies into the house, Ah Fang had a complicated expression on his face. I knew she must have been going through a difficult time, and comforted her softly, telling her that everything was going to be okay.
Ah Fang began to feed the two little angels milk powder, and I silently observed the scene on the side, feeling distressed and moved at the same time.
In the days that followed, I drove in to visit them and brought the two little ones all the best nutrition and supplies they could get. Ah Fang gradually passed through the difficult period after giving birth and also adapted to her new role as a mother.
Slowly, I began to take these two little ones into my own home to take care of them. It was only a few hours at first, then a whole day, and finally they were safely living in my home full-time.
The neighbors thought I had adopted a relative's child, and I didn't explain too much. Xiao Yu is full of joy for the twins and often goes home to help take care of them.
Time passes like flowing water, and the children grow up rapidly, becoming more and more cute and lively. Ah Fang and I are both extremely careful to protect each other's reputations, keeping quiet and keeping this story a secret for us.
Looking at the innocent smiles of the children, I knew that I had made the right choice. I am grateful for Fong's help, which allowed me to fulfill this most important wish. Every time my children call me "Daddy", I feel that my life has been fulfilled without regrets.
Occasionally, Fong came to visit the children at home, and they happily called her "Auntie". We maintain an appropriate distance from each other and do not cause any trouble to each other. On the surface, everything is calm and normal, but in our hearts we all know that this is a secret between us, not known to others.
Today, the children have grown up to five years old, they are growing up healthy and happy, and Xiao Yu has also started a family. I finally let go of my obsession with passing on the lineage, and I just want to see them grow up safely and have the life they want. Whenever I see the sweet smiles of the children, my heart is filled with relief and satisfaction.
As the days passed, the children grew up and their personalities were revealed.
The eldest son is introverted, calm and mature, does not like words very much, prefers to play with his gadgets alone and quietly. The youngest daughter is lively and cheerful, full of happiness, and likes to stick to me and talk non-stop.
When night falls, I often hold my children in my arms, whisper fairy tales, and take them to sleep. Looking at the lovely appearance of their rosy cheeks, my heart was filled with love.
When the children were six years old, I sent them to kindergarten. At first, they were always crying and wouldn't let me go. I had to be patient every day, and with the help of my teachers, they gradually adapted to the group life.
At the end of the school day, the two little ones always run to me happily, full of anecdotes and interesting things to see all day. I listened to their words with a smile and rubbed their little heads from time to time.
As the children grow older, they begin to realize that they are a little different from other children. They often ask me, "Dad, why don't I have a mother?".”
I can only tell them in the simplest way that my mother is far away and can't come back to see them often, but she must love them.
At night, I often accompany the children, gently telling fairy tales and leading them into sweet sleep. Looking at their innocent and lovely sleeping faces, my heart swelled with endless love.
When the children were six years old, I sent them to kindergarten. In the first days, they were reluctant to keep me, but with the company of teachers and peers, they slowly adapted to the new environment.
At the end of school, the children always come to me with joy and enthusiasm to share the day's moments. I laughed and listened to their anecdotes, stroking their hair from time to time.
As children grow up, they begin to notice how they are different from other children. They often ask, "Dad, why don't we have a mother?"”
I can only answer vaguely, and you will know when you grow up. Although the children were a little confused, they stopped asking.
As they move into adolescence, there seem to be more problems. When they saw that the other children had mothers and only fathers, their hearts were full of questions and uneasiness.
Once, I overheard my eldest son say to my younger daughter, "When I grow up, I must find my mother and ask her why she left us." ”
At that moment, I felt a sharp pain in my heart and felt sorry for the children. I know that one day I will confess the truth to them, but now is not the time. I can only care more for them and hope to make up for their regrets.
Now that the children are in their teens, they have gradually developed their own life circle. I sometimes wonder if I should be honest about my past, but I can't bear to open up the conversation when I think about the pain it might cause.
I can only silently guard them and use my love and sincerity to nurture them. I often remind myself that no matter what, they are my most cherished flesh and blood, and my responsibility is the most important thing in this life.