It was the most memorable day of my life.
At 8 o'clock in the morning, I had just finished making breakfast and was about to wake up my sleeping daughter Lin Xiaoxiao to go to school, when I received Li Hui's **.
Hey, Tingting, it's me. The familiar voice passed through the earpiece, and my heart skipped a beat.
Hui Hui?"I couldn't believe it. We haven't been in touch for half a year.
Well, it's me. He paused, "Tingting, let's meet, just once, okay?"”
I nervously clenched my phone and asked tentatively, "Are you looking for me?"”
I want to make it clear to you face to face, just once, one last time. His tone was a little hesitant and pleading, "Just once, is it okay?"”
I took a deep breath and tried to keep my tone calm: "Okay, let's meet." You say the time and place. ”
We made an appointment at the Côte d'Azur not far from home. I arrived at my hotel room an hour early and sat on the edge of my bed in a daze.
15 years of marriage replayed in my head. After graduating from university that year, Li Hui and I were officially together. He was an excellent civil engineering graduate, and we fell in love during college. After graduating, he stayed on to teach, and I went to work for a local publishing house. After we got married, we lived in the dormitory of the teachers on campus, and our lives were poor but very sweet. Three years later, our daughter Lin Xiaoxiao was born, and we both resigned and moved back to our hometown to start a business. Relying on Li Hui's professionalism, we started a real estate agency and architectural design business, and the business is booming.
When we reached middle age and had a successful career, we also bought two houses and one. My daughter has excellent grades and happily shares her report card with us every time she comes home from an exam. Together, we decided on our daughter's route to higher education, hoping that she would live a privileged life that she had never had.
I thought we would go on like this forever, until one day, Li Hui suddenly proposed to break up.
Tingting, I'm not happy anymore. Let's get a divorce. "At that time, looking at his back, I just felt that the world was spinning.
Are you kidding?We've been together for 15 years, how can you say break up and break up!"I cried bitterly, trying to salvage this sudden nightmare.
I've already thought about it, Tingting, you let it go. He said without looking back.
A divorce agreement was handed to me, and I felt that the sky was falling apart. We broke off contact for 15 years.
Now, half a year later, he called ** and said that he wanted to see me "one last time". My heart couldn't calm down for a long time. Between us, is there still something that we haven't said clearly?This time, I'm going to ask what really happened between us.
Standing outside the door was Li Hui, who was so familiar in his memory.
After a long time, he seemed to have lost some weight, and his hair was no longer as black as before, but a little gray. He was wearing the blue shirt I had given him, and looked at me with a smile: "Tingting, you are here." ”
I nodded, leaning sideways to open the door: "Come in and talk." ”
With only a bed and a set of tables and chairs, the room seemed empty and deserted. We sat opposite each other, and for a moment we didn't know where to start.
I took a deep breath and decided to speak first: "Huihui, what is the matter with you coming to me?"We haven't been in touch for half a year, is there anything we can't make it clear directly?”
I stared at him in disbelief with wide eyes.
What a joke!I stood up excitedly, "I haven't been in touch for more than half a year, and suddenly let me be your wife, what do you think of me!."”
Li Hui was speechless for a moment and lowered his head.
I felt trembling all over, and too many bitter memories came flooding back to me. I gritted my teeth and asked him, "Okay, you want to relive the reality of husband and wife today, but have you thought about my feelings?"How could I casually agree to be with you?
I was taken aback by his sudden seriousness, and I felt a sense of foreboding strike me.
Li Hui lowered his head again and was silent for a long time. Just when I thought he wouldn't answer, he suddenly looked up at me, his eyes were full of tears: "Tingting, because I have a terminal illness and the rest of my life is not long, so I want to finally fulfill this wish." Please fulfill me, okay?”
I watched him dumbfounded, and I felt that the world was spinning, and it was difficult to make sense of this sudden message.
Li Hui nodded, his face full of pain.
My mind went blank. Just half a year ago, he was still standing in front of me in good health;Now he told me that he was terminally ill and that the rest of his life was short, and that it all came so suddenly, and I was shocked and distressed.
Li Hui did not answer directly, but took out an envelope from his pocket and gently placed it on the table.
His moist eyes were full of pleading. Trembling, I picked up the envelope on the table, which contained his medical records and examination reports.
At that moment, I finally broke down and tears welled up in my eyes. This man I've loved for most of my life, is this going to leave me like this?
I couldn't stop crying, and Li Hui also shed tears silently.
Tingting, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have hidden it from you. He choked up and said, "I wanted to bear it alone, I didn't want you to be sad." But I really can't walk anymore, and I still want to see you one last time, and fulfill my little wish by your side. ”
I wiped away my tears and tried to calm my choked voice: "What's the disease?".Did the doctors say they couldn't?”
Li Hui nodded and sighed: "It is an advanced stage of pancreatic cancer, it has reached stage four, and the life expectancy given by the doctor is only 6 months." I can't hide it from you, and I want to see you again and say goodbye to you before I leave. ”
I held his hand tightly, and tears welled up in my eyes again: "You fool, you suffer from me, so how have I lived these months!".”
I shook my head vigorously and interrupted him: "Don't say it, I will always be with you in the future, we will defeat the disease together, it will definitely work!".”
Li Hui shook his head weakly, his eyes were full of sadness: "Don't be reckless, I rely on morphine every day now, and my days are running out." I'm happy to see you. ”
Tingting, do you remember the day I proposed, you promised to grow old with me?Li Hui suddenly spoke, a glint flashing in his eyes, "I make one last request now, I hope you can fulfill this wish of mine, okay?"”
I nodded tremblingly, trying to squeeze out a smile: "You say, your wish, I will definitely fulfill it." ”
Li Hui looked at me affectionately, his eyes full of sadness: "Tingting, are you willing to be my wife again tonight?"It was our last goodbye. That's my biggest wish. ”
I froze, tears blurring my vision again. Can I really be his wife for his last night?
Over the years, I have always loved Li Hui deeply, and even after separation, I have never been in contact with other men. He's going to leave me like this, how can I bear it?
But now that I think about it, since he doesn't have much to live, how can I refuse his last request?
Okay, I promise you. I whispered with red eyes.
Li Hui clenched my hand excitedly, and the light of hope rekindled in his eyes: "Thank you, Tingting!."You know, it means a lot to me. I only have one wish left now, and that is to stay with you until the very end. ”
I held back tears and nodded. Li Hui stood up and hugged me into his arms.
The hug that I hadn't seen for a long time, the familiar body temperature and breath enveloped me again. I closed my eyes and tears welled up in my eyes.
We slowly walked to the bedside, and I gently held Li Hui, for fear that he would fall if he was unstable. He was so weak that he needed my help, and my heart ached like a knife.
I nodded silently and said nothing. I know that no words can undo reality, and I can only do my best to fulfill his last wish.