My surname is Lu, some time ago, fate was really not very kind to me, and a physical examination made me learn a shocking news. I waited anxiously for a whole week, and finally, on that terrifying afternoon, my daughter and I went to the hospital to collect the test report.
In the lobby of the hospital, my daughter Wen Yan persuaded me to sit down and she went to get the report herself. However, my inner turmoil prevented me from sitting still and I couldn't wait to follow her. The moment she handed me the report, her expression suddenly froze, I knew something was wrong, and the moment I snatched the report, the handwriting in front of my eyes stung my heart - lung adenocarcinoma.
At this moment, the whole person seemed to lose consciousness.
Looking back on this life, I can't help but feel that my fate has been bumpy. When I was young, in order to survive, I traveled far from home to this strange place and lived in a queue. As I grew older and my hope of returning to my hometown faded away, I was introduced to my current wife.
My wife, who was also approaching 30 years old at the time, told me that her marriage had been delayed due to her family's poverty and the large number of siblings. My mother-in-law once said that her wife was honest and not good at pleasing girls, and she was anxious and uneasy watching other people's sons start families one by one.
After I got married, my in-laws were very old, and my father-in-law was sick in bed and needed my care. There is an extra labor force in the family, and I have to go to work, take care of the housework, take care of my sick father-in-law, and work as a farmer.
Because my parents were far away and couldn't take care of me personally, my mother always told me, and my mother-in-law also advised me to be diligent in life, and to be considerate and considerate to my husband, so as to win the favor of others. These suggestions are deeply imprinted in my heart. Although my feelings for my wife had not yet sublimated at that time, after all, this was my new home, and I was determined to treat this marriage with my heart, for the sake of my future life and the growth of my children.
Whenever I get ready to go to work, I always tell my wife that I will go home after work today and help me share some housework. But my wife always seems to deliberately ignore it, and she definitely doesn't want to go home before it gets completely dark. Eating quickly as soon as we got home and then jumping into the arms of the TV continued until we had Xi children.
During the time of the child's birth, my mother-in-law was too old to provide much help, so my mother came over for a few days. At that time, our family was financially strapped and could not even afford brown sugar and cooking oil, and my mother brought these to us. As soon as my wife saw the cooking oil, her eyes immediately lit up, and after my mother left, he couldn't wait to make himself a big bowl of steamed dumplings and eat them non-stop. I stood silently, but he never asked me if I wanted to take a bite too.
After having a daughter, my life is even busier. The work unit and the family were busy at both ends, and my daughter was taken to the nursery school of the unit before she was five months old. However, my wife has always lacked interest in his daughter, and I understand that deep down he still values boys more.
At that time, my wife always hugged the sons of my uncles with great interest, smiling with a smile on her face. But as soon as he turned his head and saw his daughter, his brow tightened. In his eyes, his daughter seemed to have no merit, her appearance, intelligence, everything did not meet his expectations. His words were always full of dissatisfaction with his daughter, saying that she was not good-looking, that she was stupid, in short, that nothing was good.
Frankly, even though my in-laws haven't contributed much in our lives, as a daughter-in-law, I've always tried my best to be qualified. They have been living with us since we got married, and I have taken good care of all aspects of life, even when they finally got sick. For these, even the mother-in-law, who has always been hard-mouthed, changed her attitude, and she admitted that I was the kindest of the daughters-in-law she had ever met. She even regretted not being nicer to me earlier.
The past is the past, and life needs to be forward. I have always believed that being kind to the elderly will bring blessings to us and our children.
But my wife seems to have a different idea. Since the death of his in-laws, he has become indifferent to family matters. In the affairs of the family, he became a dime, and kept all the expenses for himself. Even if his daughter goes to school, he is not willing to pay for the school fees. Every time I asked him for money, our family would get into a fight, and it was painful to see my daughter cry because of it. In the face of my wife's current attitude, I really considered divorcing him, but in the past, I have always been conservative. I am worried that once I get divorced, I may feel a moment of relief, but in the future, when my daughter faces marriage, people may find fault with our family's divorce background.
This period of time slowly came by. My daughter is very sensible and excellent, she successfully found a job after graduating from college, and later talked about a boyfriend, and bought a house together to get married. In my opinion, the son-in-law is a very good person, but the wife always seems to have an opinion about him.
The son-in-law drank with his wife out of good intentions, but unexpectedly, after drinking too much, he began to speak ill of each other, and he was mad at everyone in the family, including his in-laws. My son-in-law's face turned red and white, and I tried to soothe me with warm words, but my wife raised her hand as if she wanted to beat me.
In front of my son-in-law, I couldn't really get angry, and after he left, we had a big quarrel at home, and finally had to sleep in separate rooms. For many years, my wife has been like this, seemingly honest and untempered on the surface, but as soon as she gets home, she becomes strong and becomes more and more unreasonable. As he grew older, his temper became more and more chatty, and he was always competitive about trivial matters.
Three years ago, his wife began to feel an upset stomach, and digestive problems have been bothering him. I was a little worried, but I chose not to tell my daughter out of the fear of adding trouble to her. That morning, we took the bus to the hospital for a check-up.
Along the way, my wife kept complaining, blaming me for not informing my daughter that I should have asked her to drive us. I explained that my daughter was busy with work and couldn't ask for leave, but my wife yelled: I raised her, is it wrong to let her drive us?
My wife always lacks understanding for children, and I don't want to argue with him. He yelled at me for a few steps and didn't catch the car, and sat next to me and scolded me all the way, tears rolling in his eyes, and he really didn't want to spend time with him anymore.
Upon arrival at the hospital, there are many queues and waiting. The wife sat in the hall and couldn't bear it for a moment, becoming more and more impatient, angrily scolding the heavens and the earth, and the tendons in her neck were almost tense. I tried to persuade him with good words, but he turned to me, sometimes blaming me for going out late, and sometimes starting to curse my daughter for not being filial and not driving us. In short, it seems that everyone owes him the same!
After several examinations, my wife's illness was diagnosed with stomach cancer!
Faced with this news, my wife couldn't accept it for a long time, his way was different from others, and he was angry at me at home all day long.
His daily mantra is: "Why is it not you who gets sick, but me!"Why don't you die!You remember, I can't have a good time, and none of you want to have a good time. ”
After her daughter and son-in-law learned of her wife's illness, they have been actively seeking a solution. The son-in-law ran around to find a reliable doctor, and the daughter was afraid that the money would not be enough, so she went to the bank to withdraw the money from me as soon as possible, but even so, the wife was still not satisfied.
In his mind, it seemed as if his illness had come for us, even though we deserved to work harder, to be tired, and to be blamed. Ever since my wife fell ill, life has almost become a confession and a stretch of hand. At the hospital, the responsibility of caring for him fell on me, my daughter and my son-in-law in turn. However, even so, his bad temper became more and more difficult to control, causing his son-in-law to gradually choose to avoid showing up.
Originally, this was the case, after all, the son-in-law was not born to us, nor was he raised by us. His filial piety to us is motivated by his affection for his daughter on the one hand, and by his kindness on the other. But despite this, his wife still doesn't know how to cherish it and often scolds her son-in-law. At first, the son-in-law was able to bear it, but slowly lost his patience. Faced with his wife's scolding, he chose not to show up again.
For this reason, the daughter and son-in-law often quarreled later. The son-in-law has a lot of resentment in his heart, so he will naturally complain to his daughter. And the daughter was wronged by her father, which inevitably caused some disputes for the young couple.
In order to take care of my daughter, the task of taking care of my wife fell completely on me. I tried to persuade myself not to get angry with someone who was sick, who scolded him like a fart and had to move on with his life. However, who knew that the wife would later become like crazy.
My wife has undergone two surgeries, and since the second operation, his whole person has become even more unreasonable. After his body gradually **, he always indulged in alcohol. I was worried about his health and advised him to quit drinking, but he went to buy it himself, and said that I was reluctant to spend money on him, but I hoped that he would leave this world as soon as possible. Once, he got drunk and suddenly rushed to my room in the middle of the night.
I was sleeping, and he was standing at the head of my bed with a kettle in his hand, as if he was going to pour water on me. He said viciously, "I'm going to burn you." ”
Luckily, the water was cold, but at that moment I was terrified.
In the eyes of outsiders, my wife's health has improved a lot, all thanks to the fact that we have found a good doctor, or because he is already in good health. Actually, I know it has to do with our meticulous care. In order to increase his nutrition, I spend a lot of time cooking for him every day. My daughter always buys all kinds of supplements, even the life-threatening sea cucumber, and my daughter buys 50 at a time. However, even so, my wife is still grateful.
Every morning, the first thing my wife does when she wakes up is to scold me and yell at me. Everything I did was wrong, and he even said that his illness was because of me. Since we got married, I have taken care of all the housework, I have taken care of the children all the way, and I have to serve my in-laws. On top of that, I have to go out and work to earn money like him. I really don't know I'm sorry for him.
I became more and more depressed, more and more incomprehensible, and I couldn't hold back my tears in front of my daughter several times. My daughter took pity on me and took me home to recuperate for a few days. However, less than 3 days later, my wife suddenly appeared and begged me to return home. He claimed that there was no one around to take care of me, and then he scolded me for being brazen.
Not long ago, I was in poor health, and my cough didn't get better after catching a cold, and worries gradually rose in my heart. For this reason, I went to the hospital for a check-up, but the results were not satisfactory, and the doctor recommended a new test.
After learning about the incident, my daughter insisted on accompanying me to receive the inspection report, and she hoped that I would not follow, but I was really relieved and finally accompanied me. The moment I got the report, I was stunned.
The report reads: Lung adenocarcinoma!
Eventually, like my wife, I got cancer. I don't know about my wife's **, but I know very well that this is the result of long-term depression and grievances. Married for more than 40 years, I have never received real love, and I always feel aggrieved and helpless in this family.
After getting the report, I calmed down, and after a few days of thinking, I made a decision - I want a divorce.
This decision was supported by her daughter. At this moment, I finally understood that with this disease, I may only have a few days left to live, but even if it is only a short time, I have to live a good life. I don't want to be controlled by others anymore, I don't want to be scolded easily, I don't want to serve anyone anymore. I just want to have fun, eat when I want, and sleep when I want.
When my wife learned about my condition, she didn't change her expression much, but stressed that she didn't have the money for my treatment. When I filed for divorce, he laughed at it.
I understood what he was laughing at, I was sick even though I was old, but this time he was wrong. No matter how difficult the road ahead is, I will stick to my ideas. Even if it's only for a few days, I'm going to live for myself.