It's 3 a.m. on December 28, 2023, and the child is breathing shallowly and his teammates are asleep.
I tossed and turned in bed, and my life slipped by like a movie.
Who am I?What am I doing?What am I busy with every day?
My life doesn't seem to be mine, and her script is completely out of my control.
So, what am I living for?
A look back at December 27, 2023 (a day for working moms).
7 points: Get up and prepare your child's clothes, today is the animal sports day in the kindergarten, I hope he can be happy.
8 o'clock: After sending the child to kindergarten, hurry to the subway station and go to the company.
9 a.m. - 6 p.m: A busy day of work, product plan, publicity plan, private domain activities.
19 o'clock: The subway is crowded after work, and it took 2 times to squeeze on the train.
20 o'clock: I am still busy at home, I don't have time to eat, so I can only continue to work.
22 o'clock: The child fell asleep alone after being rejected countless times of intimacy and the need to read picture books, but I was still busy in the study.
23 o'clock: At the end of the 24-hour standby work, the day of the workers is over, and they are ready to rest.
24 o'clock: Lying in bed after washing, it is rare to spare time for yourself, brush the mobile phone for a while, the mobile phone reminds me to pay attention to my health and rest early, but it is rare to have such a moment of my own time a day, and I am reluctant to sleep.
1 point: Slightly insomnia, listening to the wind outside the window, normally speaking, tomorrow will be the same, I seem to be a machine.
2 points: Brush the circle of friends lonely and look at ** no sense of anxiety about reading, walked to the windowsill, I wanted to shout a few times, I was worried about disturbing the neighbors in the middle of the night, and I retracted the quilt in the cold. The warmth of the hot water bottle became my only solace.
Thoughts are in confusion.
I used to be a girl chasing the wind, just to see the sea, I came to Guangzhou alone from a small town in the north with my luggage to look for a job, and then started a 10+ year wandering part-time job. I haven't seen the sea a few times, but I see the sea of people every day, and I am physically and mentally exhausted.
I used to have a lot of hobbies in life, college mixed orchestras, and I started posting after work. Now when the child sleeps, he is only left with his mobile phone, and he is helplessly despised and morbidly addicted.
I used to be obsessed with reading, all kinds of books, no taboos. Nowadays, except for parenting books, there are very few reads.
As I grew older, the grind of life increased, but I lost my appearance and became a machine of life.
The psychological anguish and tearing clearly told me that I couldn't go on like this.
I want to find myself, if life is destined to be dull and bitter, I choose hard steel to suffer the hardships of self-discipline.
I want to live, not just live.
I want to be aggressive, not just reactive.
I want to embrace change, not just adapt to the environment.
I want to live my own style, not just follow trends.
I want to keep my emotions in balance, not just suppress my feelings.
There are still 3 days left until 2024, and now, at the moment of writing the article, at 3 o'clock on December 8, 2023, I turned on my computer and wrote down my reboot plan.
If you feel the same way, you can join me and let us find ourselves together and experience life.
Let's go to see how the flowers bloom, see how the water stays, see the people you want to see, do what you want to do, listen to what you want to hear, and learn your favorite musical instruments.
Exercise for at least 30 minutes at least 3 times a week. ️️
*Plan: 3-month target**30 kg to 100 kg. ️
Travel plan: Take the baby to travel 1 time a month and share travel tips. ️
Relaxation time: Set aside at least one day a month for relaxation activities such as meditation and yoga. ️
Parent Time: Communicate with your parents every day and take your parents on trips at least once a year.
Home Optimization: Organize your living space every week and start planting greenery.
Dietary modifications: Eat more fruits and vegetables and research healthy recipes.
Break away: Regularly clean up unnecessary items and keep your life simple. ️
Reading habits: Read according to Dong Yuhui's recommended book list and methods, at least 2 books per month.
Psychological Counseling: The goal is to obtain a psychological counselor qualification certificate.
Skills Learning: Learn your favorite musical instruments such as piano and flute.
Course training: Challenge course training to improve teaching ability.
Refuse to procrastinate: Improve execution and complete tasks on time.
Emotion Management: Learn and apply emotion regulation techniques.
Time management: Organize daily life and work efficiently. ️
Self-reflection: Conduct daily self-reflection to improve self-awareness.
Xiaohongshu operation: daily update, continuous optimization of content.
Deepening professional skills: accumulating experience in IP building, and digging deep into the gameplay of the matrix platform.
Course Development: Complete the development and release of at least 2 courses.
Live stream planning: At least one live stream per week to improve engagement.
Community Building: Establish and operate a community for women's growth.
Network development: Expand your professional network and communicate with industry professionals on a regular basis.
Pleasing yourself: Treat yourself regularly and relax.
Learn to say no: Don't be afraid to say "no" and maintain personal boundaries.
Protect yourself: Learn to defend your rights and interests, and steel up. ️
Reject internal friction: Avoid ineffective thinking and focus on solving problems.
Quickly defuse negative emotions: Learn emotion release techniques.
Positive life: Find the small blessings in life and increase the source of happiness.
Life is a wilderness, not a track. I want to find my way in this wilderness.
Just like Mr. Luo Xiang said: "Please be sure to save yourself from fire and water in this world again and again, three times without exhaustion, thousands of times." ”
On December 28, 2023, I decided to start today and recuperate myself. Raised abundant and contented, independent and sober, gentle and firm. No longer defined by the world, nor by reality**.
At the age of 34, I can still grow into what I like with my bare hands, tenacious, brave, sincere and kind.
Thank you for reading this article and liking it, I hope you will grasp the initiative of life like me and live as you like together.
I guess many sisters will feel that there is no time. In fact, let's make efficient use of time and integrate fragmented time. In the following article sharing, I will share my project management and time management methods, after all, I am an old worker in the Internet industry for many years, pay attention to me, and restart my life without getting lost or delayed. ️