The summer sun shines on my bed, and I toss and turn. The cool air was filled with the aroma of mosquito coils, but it could not dispel the boredom in my heart. Gazing carefully at the ceiling, my heart is mixed. We have been in love for many years and have entered the marriage hall, but he still insists on the "AA system", which makes me feel tired and helpless.
I still remember that in the spring of 2017, I participated in a variety show called "If Love". As an actor from a drama school, I was not suitable for such a star-chasing variety show, but in order to let more people know me, I decided to try my luck.
On the first day of the show's recording, I met Fu Xinbo, a rising star in show business.
His eyebrows are heroic, his face is bright, and he exudes the breath of sunshine. I was so impressed by his insights that we had a good conversation and finally confirmed our relationship.
Our relationship has always been low-key, and almost no one knows about it.
In between busy work, he would occasionally come to visit me, and we got along in silence. Six months later, he proposed to me, and I excitedly said yes.
We opted for the AA system, which is not common in the entertainment industry.
The host questioned us in a travel show: "After so many years, do you still settle accounts separately?"
I explained that it was based on mutual respect and an expression of our independence.
However, it is difficult for the outside world to understand this, and it is believed that couples should run the family together.
When I gave birth, I was in great pain alone, but he was still busy with his work. Out of responsibility for my family, I offered to work again to earn money, but he insisted that I recuperate at home.
This made me feel extremely conflicted and helpless.
As time passes, our lives become more complicated. As the child grows older, problems keep coming.
I lost sleep in the middle of the night, reflecting on whether our relationship was really as happy as it seemed. It was as if we were through a thin layer of window paper, which we could see but could not touch.