When I first joined the company, I was full of enthusiasm and ideals, and I had only one simple desire: to put my heart and soul into my work and contribute to the company.
Every morning, I go to work with excitement, and despite the daunting task, I feel extremely happy and proud to see that my efforts are gradually turning into tangible value. Outside of work, I also participate in activities arranged by the company, get together with colleagues who share the same goals, and enjoy laughter and warm time.
I never aspire to a promotion or an increase in salary, I just want to be recognized by my colleagues and superiors for my efforts, which makes me proud. I firmly believe that even the most mundane work, as long as you do it with your heart, you can live a fulfilling and happy life.
However, that all changed with the arrival of a new leader. I'm still immersed in my own little world and working hard. But the new leader obviously doesn't approve of my down-to-earth work attitude, and he prefers employees who are good at reading words and feelings.
In one of the awards, although I performed well, I was ignored by the leader, and the discount was given to a colleague who usually has an average work attitude but is good at flattery. This made me question whether there were unfair selection criteria. My enthusiasm for my work has been greatly affected by this.
This unfair approach by the leadership not only made me less enthusiastic, but also made me less active in the company's activities. As a result, the atmosphere in the department became dull, and discontent and complaints spread everywhere.
In order to adapt to the environment, I began to try to change myself, and whenever I met a leader, I would deliberately show enthusiasm and say something he liked to hear; Before important meetings, I help prepare speeches to make sure everything is perfect; I will immediately implement any request from the leader.
At first, I thought the changes were harmless, but gradually, I found myself having to sacrifice my principles in order to cater to the leadership, which made me feel extremely painful.
Over time, I became a person who was completely dependent on the will of the leader, and I began to imitate the behavior and style of other employees who were liked by the leader. Everything I did was to please the leader, and I lost myself.
I even began to neglect my family and put off my personal life in order to maintain my singleness as a leader preference.
Eventually, I couldn't stand myself and decided to leave the company. These five years have made me lose myself, and I have realized that sticking to my principles and pursuits is the most important thing.
After leaving the company, I reflected deeply and realized how precious it was for me to focus on my work. I decided that in my future career, I would stick to my values and not change them in order to please others.
The experience was painful, but it was also a valuable life lesson. I believe that as long as I stick to myself, I will always find those places that truly recognize my worth. Life goes on, and I see this failure as an opportunity to start over and believe that I can create a better future.