My name is Li Xiaofang, I am 32 years old and I have been married for 10 years.
I remember that when we got married, my husband and I were both typical "post-70s", and we spent most of our wages on eating, drinking, and having fun when we first joined the workforce.
Husband, this designer dress is really handsome, just buy it! ”
Okay, we'll wear it to the band tonight and then go to the nightclub until the wee hours of the morning! ”
After the band's performance, call Xiao Gao and them to go to the nightclub together, I'll have a treat tonight! ”
No problem, anyway, we still have a few thousand dollars left in our salary card before the end of the month, enough for us to squander for a while! ”
We always get together with friends to eat, drink and have fun, buy the most fashionable clothes and jewelry, and travel around in the BMW car that my husband just bought.
Money is like running water to us, as long as it hasn't been spent, we will continue to spend it.
It wasn't until 5 years ago, when I was ready to have a baby, that life slowly changed. I'm starting to feel like we need to save a little bit and that the birth of a baby will add a lot of expenses.
At one point, we had a big fight over it.
Husband, look at our expenses this month, not to mention anything else, the cost of eating alone is almost 5,000 yuan! We have to learn to save money.
What kind of money to save, money is for spending, it's not easy for me to earn money, what's wrong with spending some money? Besides, eating, drinking, and having fun is what it should be, and I'm not short of money to spend! ”
But the baby is about to be born, and we have to think about the future living expenses, buy milk powder, diapers, and school bags.
All kinds of expenses! ”。
If you have money, you will spend it, and if you don't have money, you will talk about it! Don't keep talking about saving money, it's annoying! ”
My husband and I argued about it, and eventually he slammed the door and went to the bar alone to spend the night.
Later, I thought of a proposal and was going to discuss it with my husband. I think we can try to manage our salary, and each person only keeps 2,000 yuan per month for living expenses for themselves, and saves the rest of the income.
I also promised to help my husband invest the money he had saved, let him participate in some normal investment projects, and not let the money sit idle.
I thought to myself that as long as my husband agreed to this proposal, we could change the situation little by little, even if the process would be difficult, but the result would be gratifying.
After careful consideration, I plucked up the courage to tell my husband about the proposal to manage my finances. At first he was vehemently opposed:.
What system? Only 2,000 yuan a month to spend? What are you kidding, I spent more than 10,000 yuan on eating, drinking, and playing in a month, and I didn't even have enough money for breakfast with 2,000 yuan! ”
Husband, I know it's not easy for you to accept, but the child is about to be born, and we have to think about his future.
What's so difficult about buying milk powder, I can just earn more money when the time comes! Why save money, it's really disappointing. ”
But your current style of life is destined to not be able to earn more money, your salary is basically spent, what environment will our children live in if this continues? I can't watch this happen.
I talked to my husband with red eyes, and although his face was very ugly, he finally agreed to try my suggestion.
The first year of execution was a huge challenge and torture for me. There is only 2,000 yuan left for living expenses every month, and all food, clothing, housing and transportation must be strictly controlled.
I lived like a monk, but I still gritted my teeth and persevered. Because I know that the money we have in the investment account is accumulated little by little, and it will help the children to plan for a rainy day in the future.
One day three years later, I checked my investment account and found that the total amount of deposits and investments in it had exceeded 100,000 yuan.
That night, I happily shared the good news with my husband, but I saw that he was a little hesitant and hidden.
Husband, our investment plan has been very successful! There are already more than 100,000 yuan in the account, aren't you excited? ”
Not... So much? That,Actually, I have something I want to discuss with you...
My husband's reaction was completely unexpected by me, and he didn't seem happy about our accumulation. This gave me a sense of foreboding, and I chuckled in my heart, vaguely feeling that something was about to happen.
I forcibly suppressed the uneasiness in my heart and asked my husband tentatively: "What's the matter, you can say it, let's discuss it." ”
My husband said, "Hmm. It's just that Wei Biao and I want to partner in a business, and they need to raise 100,000 yuan. I'm not without ideas about this money.
After I understood my husband's hint, my face changed instantly: "Wait, you mean to take out 100,000 yuan from our investment account to do business?" Are you kidding! ”
My husband explained: "This business is definitely worth a try, this project that Wei Biao found can make a lot of money to protect the capital, and we will regret it if we miss it."
I was even more anxious: "No! That's the savings we've accumulated over the years, and we can't just gamble on them. Besides, you've never been a businessman, and if we fail, we'll have nothing, and what will happen to the kids? ”。
Can't you trust me once? This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and if you don't give me 100,000, you're hindering me! Besides, when will it be your turn to worry about this child? "My husband was angry and fought back against me.
I choked up and said, "I'm thinking about the whole family, if you have to take 100,000, our years of hard work will be in vain."
The child's future has been buried, why are you so selfish! ”。
Who is selfish? You silently saved money yourself and didn't tell me, and you still said that I was selfish? I'm afraid you've been trying to control your family's money for a long time, right!? My husband's eyes were full of anger.
I was stung by my husband's unwarranted accusations, and tears welled up in my eyes: "How can you think of me like that." I've never wanted to control my family's money, I've always tried to plan for our future! ”。
Just when we were arguing, my husband said something that made me desperate: "If you don't agree to give me 100,000 yuan to do business, I will divorce you immediately!" I'd rather sleep on the street than watch you control my money! ”
I burst into tears instantly, I never expected that my husband would divorce me for a mere 100,000 yuan. Years of our affection came to naught in this moment.
After my husband got 100,000 yuan, he disappeared for nearly a month. During this time, his mobile phone could not be reached, and there was no news. I was very worried, but I didn't dare to talk to my family and friends about it.
A month later, my husband suddenly returned home with an ugly face. He spoke slowly, "I admit I was wrong. The 100,000 yuan was all lost.
I was shocked and couldn't hold back any longer, tears welled up in my eyes: "You lost all our savings for 10 years? The money we worked so hard to save for our children is just gone? What exactly did you invest in, and how could you lose money like this? ”
My husband didn't answer my questions. At this time, I finally realized that my husband had no partners at all, let alone a profitable business.
I fell to the ground crying, and 10 years of hard work were ruined. Before our children were born, the dream home was shattered.
Don't ask me about that money, give me some time, I want to be alone for a while.
With that, his emaciated back disappeared outside the door.
After that, my husband often didn't come home, sometimes for two or three days. My heart is like a knife, and I feel that our original love and dreams have come to an end in the desert of time.
However, at this time, I found out that I was two months pregnant. This surprise surprise left me both delighted and desperate.
I lay alone on the bed, stroking my unpregnant belly. I am full of love for this little life, but I am afraid that his birth will become the last straw for the breakdown of my relationship with my husband.
At this time, the doorbell rang suddenly, and I opened the door to see my long-missing husband standing outside the door.
Seeing my long-lost husband, my feelings are extremely complicated. He said to me with a tired and apologetic face, "Xiaofang, I'm sorry, I've figured it out a lot during this time.
Let's start over.
I was silent, and suddenly I noticed a hint of a woman's perfume on him. My heart sank, ready for the worst.
Husband, I also have something to tell you. I'm two months pregnant. "I plucked up the courage to say the news.
The husband was obviously surprised, and he sat down on his own, grinding the cigarette in his hand repeatedly.
But the problem between us has not been resolved, and you have not said goodbye for so long. I always felt like you're hiding something.
My husband sighed: "Xiaofang, I did cheat." During this time, I have been pursuing a young and beautiful girl, and she has given me a lot of attention and joy.
I really didn't hold back**. I know it's unfair to you, so I'm coming back this time to have a showdown with you.
I couldn't stop crying: "Do you still have me in your heart?" So many years of affection are not worth cherishing at all? Our children.
I'm sorry, I did it wrong, and I regret it. I will definitely take responsibility, child. But you also know that our relationship has come to an end during this time, and I don't want to continue hypocritically anymore.
I felt like I had been drained of all my strength and couldn't hold my body and leaned forward. My husband hurriedly held me up, but I shook off his hand and said, "Please leave immediately, and don't appear in my life and my children's lives in the future."
Since then, I have chosen to divorce my husband and move to my hometown alone. The days of pregnancy were not easy, but I did not have the slightest resentment, because I knew that I would use my love to protect the new life in my belly.
On the day my child was born, I felt endless happiness in the midst of pain. It turned out that I gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix fetuses, a handsome son and a beautiful daughter!
* When I handed the two little angels into my arms, I was so excited that hot tears rolled down my cheeks. I named my son Li Xinwang and my daughter Li Xinyuan.
I will not let my desires and desires be emotionally wounded. As a single mother, I will try my best to give them the happiest environment to grow up in.
So, I started a new life with a dragon and phoenix fetus alone.
In the beginning, it was not easy to support this family on your own. I take my children with me during the day and go to the supermarket at night, and my monthly living expenses and children's expenses are stretched.
However, instead of resentment, I was determined to raise my children alone. I will redouble my motherly love so that they do not feel the incompleteness of the family.
10 years passed in a flash, and the children grew up and went to work in other places one after another. They would call home regularly and tell me how they were doing and reassure me.
After they became independent, I lived a more leisurely life on my own, so I retired at home, living on some savings and pensions.
One day, my husband suddenly came to the door with a big gift box in his hand.
Xiaofang, this is a gift for you. He said a little unnaturally.
I took the box with a blank face, and it contained the latest down jacket and a passbook. The passbook shows the number of hundreds of thousands.
This is for you to improve your life, I know that your life is not easy, and I have been haunting it. "My husband seems to be trying his best to please me.
I said quietly, "When you chose to leave, it was doomed that we would no longer have any relationship. You can leave this money to the children.
An embarrassed and hurt expression appeared on my husband's face. He said with red eyes: "Xiaofang, I really know that I am wrong, I have had a bad time all these years, and I have always felt guilty and sorry for you and the child."
I shook my head slowly, turned around and wanted to go upstairs, turned my back to my husband and said
Everyone has regrets in their lives, but what has happened cannot be repeated. Tomorrow, we still have to face a new day.
After saying that, I heard my husband crying softly behind me. At this moment, I seemed to finally let go of those pent-up emotions in my heart.
After my husband left, I lived alone for many years.
The kids are busy with their careers and families, so they don't have much time to come and see me. But I'm not alone because I have two lovely grandchildren.
I will regularly go to the heart and wish home to help take care of the children. Looking at the smiling little ones, I feel very satisfied.
It's just that the old house I live in is still so dilapidated and shabby. I don't have much savings, and I've been reluctant to spend money on taking care of it.
Until one day, I suddenly fell and was admitted to the hospital with a broken bone. The children were very distressed when they received ** to come to see me.
Mom, you're your age, and you're still living in such a dangerous and shabby old house, and we're worried about your safety.
Yes, Mom, we want to give you a new house with a beautiful and comfortable environment, and you won't have any more accidents.
I smiled and said, "Children, I still need a luxurious house for my old bones, it's enough to have a place to shelter from the wind and rain, so don't worry about me."
Mom, we don't worry about you living alone, or you live with one of us, and someone will take care of you every day.
I'm fine on my own, and it's enough to have you come back to see me often. "I politely declined the children's suggestion.
After being discharged from the hospital, I went back to my old house alone. Because of the fracture, I have difficulty moving and living a difficult life.
One day, the two brothers suddenly returned to their hometown to find me: "Mom, we have a gift for you!" ”
YOU ARE ... I was amazed.
Mom, this is a new house that our brothers bought for you on the outskirts of the city, with a beautiful environment, livable and safe. We really don't want you to continue to live in the old and shabby.
Children, this house is too expensive for me to accept... I burst into tears.
Mom, it's not easy for you and us to grow up, and that's how it should be. We will come back regularly to accompany you in the future, so you can live in your new home! ”。
I hugged the two big boys with broad shoulders and was speechless.
My life journey may be full of regrets and ups and downs, but watching my blood get happiness is my greatest gratification.
At this moment, I was suddenly very glad that I chose to keep those two little lives. It is precisely because I did not give up that I have achieved today's fruits.
On the road of life, there will always be a haze. But as long as you have love in your heart, you will eventually usher in sunshine.
I am grateful for every wonderful encounter in my life, and I am also grateful for the sharpening and growth it has given me. Ups and downs, will be well.
With the help of my children, I quickly moved into my new home. It is a small detached bungalow with a garden and the sun shines around every corner.
The grandchildren also loved the new yard and came to play with their grandmother every weekend. We planted all kinds of flowers and plants, and we also raised goldfish.
In the blink of an eye, I was 70 years old. But I don't feel lonely with my children every day.
It's just that I often think about the bits and pieces of that married life. Memory is like an old ** book that has been opened, with laughter, tears, and the ups and downs and turns of the story.
My husband and I also loved each other and were waiting for a fulfilling future.
If I had stuck to the idea of managing my finances, if my husband had not been greedy for short-term gains from the business. Maybe our lives have been rewritten.
Until one day, a piece of news came that caught me off guard. Her husband died of a heart attack, and before he died, he paid a trust to his son.
The letter said: "Son, please tell your mother that I am always thinking of her and your siblings. It's just that I was too cowardly to face my mistakes and chose to leave.
Now I don't have the courage to live, but I want to make some amends for you at the end. Your brother and sister will each receive a portion of my inheritance, which I owe you.
I wish you all happiness.
The letter was accompanied by a significant certificate of inheritance. When I saw it, tears rained down. It turned out that he still cared about us, but he couldn't extricate himself after going mad, so he left us.
Life is like a play, it all depends on acting skills. He played the role of a loser, and I just played the image of a strong man.
One day in 222222, I went to my husband's grave alone. The wind blew softly, like a sigh.
I silently carved on the tombstone - "The Tomb of the Lonely Brave".
In this life, we are all facing the same fate after all. The road of life must continue to walk.
May I be well with the rest of my life.