What do you think your repeater career looks like:
The head cantilever is pierced by the strands, gets up earlier than the chicken, sleeps later than the cow, violently does the question for 16 hours a day, the coffee and tea are only accompanied by the stars, as if the protagonist who has been tortured and humiliated by the suffering in ** has been lying on salary for 9 years, and finally slapped the face of all the people who look down on you, "The third year of high school lays the foundation, and the fourth year of high school is 985" inspirational dog blood and cool article.
In fact, 9999% of people reread the real situation of the year.
When the first college entrance examination results came out, I looked at the school with pitiful scores and a bunch of schools on the volunteer application guide that you couldn't see by name.
Your heart is full of unwillingness.
Look at one classmate after another that you once looked down on, or the one you hated, and look at the classmate you once looked down on.
She even did better than you on the exam.
watched them get admitted to their favorite schools one by one, and posted their admission letters in the circle of friends, four or five eggs.
You think to yourself: Humph! What's the big deal! It's not because I didn't study hard. I want to repeat! As long as I study hard this year, I can get into a university that is much better than those of you.
Or you don't think about it that much at all, you just see that those who failed the exam seem to be repeating, and then you think.
Since everyone is gone, then I'll go too, right?
So you just joined the army of repeaters in a daze.
In the first few days of the repetition class, you are still motivated by the blood of teachers and parents. Before dawn, you get up from your bed. After taking a shower, you hurried to the classroom.
When you read early, you read with passion.
Answer the teacher's questions out loud in class, whether you understand it or not, as long as the teacher writes on the blackboard, you will write it in your notebook.
The countdown is back to the familiar 300 days, and the days seem to pass slowly, as the days go by.
In the blink of an eye, it was the opening day of the university. Watch your classmates in your circle of friends share their excitement and joy of going to college, yet you're still sitting in this stuffy classroom.
Looking at the math problem in front of you, without any idea at first, you start to envy those who come here.
If I had also gone to college at the time, and now I guess the new machine and the new tablet have been replaced, oh my, why should I repeat it? .
So you slowly lose your initial fighting spirit, and you start to slack off slowly.
So you're in a mess again.
You think: I haven't had enough of it. Either way, there's still a lot of time. Wait until the 300th day. From the 300th day, I had to work hard.
When the 300th day comes, you are not nervous. You want to play a little longer. There is still time. Wait until the 250th day.
By 250 days, you still haven't started to put your heart into things.
I thought, "Anyway, there's still a lot of time, and it's never too late to work hard."
You should still watch Douyin and brush Douyin every day, and you should watch**watch**.
I planned to go to ** with Jimei every day to check in, but the time inadvertently passed again.
Mom, why is there only 150 days left?
Looking at the decreasing hours of time each day and the poor results of model testing, you secretly make up your mind that this time I really want to try.
When you come home from vacation, you stuff your school bag full and swear that you must study hard this winter vacation. On your first night home, you showed your true colors and played wildly all night.
At the beginning of the school year, there were only 100 days left.
From a hundred days, you start to learn from the pain and study hard, but after a few days of studying, it collapses.
You find that you have so much to learn that you simply can't keep up. Now the school arranges mock tests every once in a while. There is only a small amount of time to review independently.
In Zhihu and Bilibili, you are starting to go crazy. Find a variety of learning methods in TikTok and fight back from 400 points to 600 points in 100 days. I was eager to find the so-called panacea and tried to find a kind of self-rationalization that "I haven't had time yet".
I followed them every day, but I felt that I couldn't learn anything at all, and waited like a prisoner for the day of execution.
Whenever you start to want to do something, you feel like all kinds of bad people and bad things start to find you.
You and so-and-so have a conflict again!
So-and-so won't talk to you again, so-and-so won't talk to you again.
The sound of flipping books on the next table was too loud, too noisy, too annoying.
I'm out of love. The person you love suddenly doesn't care about yourself.
The teacher suddenly didn't pay attention to himself when he was lecturing.
In short, as long as these people and things come along, you will be separated from them for a long time. After that, you will become very anxious and impatient, regretting why you have wasted so much time, so you will fall into endless mental exhaustion
The vast majority of high school juniors and repeaters do not begin to perceive the urgency of time until after the 100-day countdown.
However, they will waste those 100 days with guilt and regret.
As the gravel in the hourglass falls, the time also comes to the last month, and that's when you start breaking the jar and falling.
Thinking that there was no hope anyway, I began to let go of the white self, develop with Jimei, mourn youth, and sadness went upstream, and there was only one river.
When you took your second graduation photo, you were more at putting on makeup, your lipstick was redder, and everything else seemed to be pretty much the same.
The greatest madness of human beings is to keep doing the same thing and hoping for different results.
The day before the college entrance examination, you start to use all kinds of things in QQ space and circle of friends.
Share this koi, the college entrance examination is extraordinary"
Share this thousand-year-old tree and he can make you soar by 200 points'
* This blinded mushroom will make your answer the correct answer in the eyes of the marking teacher"
In the end, you went to the examination room in such a daze, delusionally thinking that "the whole meeting of the test, the whole test of Meng, the full test of review, and the full test of no review".
As a result, you still won't do what you couldn't do this year and even see some new change in the type of question accelerate your psychological breakdown even more.
On the day the results are out, the results of the exam are not as good as those of the first year. You tell your parents that you've worked hard this year, but you're not playing well. In fact, only you know that you didn't work hard this year and wasted a year.
Finally, you will sigh like this:
I knew that the exam was like this, so I didn't repeat it at the time. Wouldn't it be nice to go straight to college and graduate school? In fact, most people who felt this way asked her to take the Graduate Record Exam, but he didn't pass it.
Because I never know what it's like to do something to the best of my ability, or what it's like to push myself to the limit in order to change my destiny.
They never really live for themselves once, but constantly deceive themselves and then rationalize themselves.