For me, who works outside the home, the Spring Festival is the moment I look forward to the most. I longed to go back home, to be with my children, to feel the long-lost sense of kinship. However, when I returned home this year, I found myself separated from my children by an unbridgeable chasm.
As a result of working outside the home for a long time, my children have become left-behind children and are raised by their grandparents. Growing up, I missed too many moments to be a part of their joys and sorrows. When I came home for the Chinese New Year this year, I thought I could get along with my children, but I found that communication between us became extremely difficult.
When I tried to talk to the children, there was strangeness and alienation in their eyes. They simply answer my questions and rarely take the initiative to share their lives. I felt like a stranger, trying to fit into their world, but never being able to break through that barrier.
Watching the children's intimate interactions with their grandparents fills me with sadness and sadness. I realized that I was missing a critical period in their growth and not building a deep parent-child relationship. They already had new companions in their lives, and I became an outsider.
I can't help but ask myself, is all these years of hard work worth it? Am I missing out on the time when my kids need me the most? The pain and remorse in my heart were intertwined, and I couldn't let go.
However, I knew I couldn't give up. I'm trying to make up for lost time and reconnect with my children. It may take more patience and effort, but I'm determined not to let distance and time stand in the way of us.
I will listen to them and try to understand their world. I will spend more time with them and do what they love together. I believe that through sincere communication and continuous efforts, we can gradually close the distance between each other and regain the lost family affection.
Despite the difficult road, I firmly believe that love can overcome everything. I will use my actions to tell the children that they will always be the most precious treasure in my heart, no matter the time and distance. I will try to fill that gap and make our family full of warmth and happiness again.