I'm 38 years old and an ordinary office worker living an uneventful life. I have a beautiful and virtuous wife, a mother who is always smiling, and a father who is considerate. We have a happy family and live a happy life.
One day, I attended a class reunion, and everyone was drinking and chatting, and the atmosphere was very lively. In addition, I don't drink much alcohol on weekdays, so I drink a little too much. I decided to go back to my parents' house for a night to avoid drunk driving. When I got home, I pushed open the bedroom door and saw a scene that I couldn't believe.
I was stunned at the door, staring blankly at my wife and ...... on the bedFather? They hugged each other tightly and seemed to know each other. My wife smiled awkwardly at me, and then quickly broke free from my father's arms. The father kept a straight face and didn't say a word.
Son, you ......Don't get me wrong"Seeing my expression, my mother quickly stood up and explained"In fact, we haven't had anything for a long time, and your dad is also ...... on impulse"
On the spur of the moment? "My eyes widened"Mom, how could you do such a thing? "
Son,"My father called out to me, and his tone was a little low"This is not something you can understand. "
Completely unable to believe what was happening, I angrily turned around and left the house and strolled out into the street. The pain and anger in my heart kept me from breathing, and I needed time to calm down.
Passing by a small bar, I walked in without hesitation, ordered a glass of wine, and drank it in one gulp. The pungent liquor cleared me up a bit, but the pain in my heart didn't lessen.
Sir, do you drink alone? "The bar owner asked.
Yes,"I smiled decadently"On the spur of the moment, you need to be alone to be still. "
There will always be some unsatisfactory things in life"The bar owner patted me on the shoulder"It's okay to be quiet, but you still have to face it. "
I nodded silently and continued to numb my emotions with alcohol.
Friend, it's so late, it's not good to drink alone, right? "A middle-aged man accosted me with concern.
yes,"I paused"Something happened at home, and I was a little hard to accept. "
Life is like that"He nodded understandingly"Gotta look in a good direction. "
I listened quietly to the stranger's words until it was getting light. I realized that escaping was not the solution and that I needed to go home and face reality.
Struggling to get home, they saw that their wife and father had woken up, their expressions a little embarrassed and a little uneasy.
We ......"The wife tried to speak.
I know,"I interrupted her"I know we need to have a good talk. "
The wife and father's secret plunged the otherwise peaceful family into an awkward and silent state. We rarely speak, and everyone is immersed in their own pain. I worked hard to clear my inner pain, but the rifts in my family could not be easily repaired.
One night, I received a strange call, ** on the other end of the line was my wife's voice. She told me that my father had been unwell recently and needed to go to the hospital for further examination. I rushed to my parents' house and took my father to the hospital.
The doctor briefly examined him and told us that my father needed to be hospitalized for observation. While accompanying my father to the hospital, my wife handed me a report and asked me to pay attention to it. I was a little surprised by the report that my father was having physical problems.
What's going on?"I asked, pointing to the report.
The wife frowned and said"The doctor said that my father was too depressed during this time, which led to some physical problems. "
I looked at my wife blankly, and there was a hint of helplessness in her expression. I began to feel helpless and guilty about this family. We all seem to be haunted by this and don't know how to deal with it.
The days in the hospital were difficult, and none of us wanted to face the pain in our hearts. My father's condition was good and bad, and we were worried every day. Filled with guilt for my father and responsibility to my family, I decided to settle the matter once and for all.
That evening, I gathered my whole family and was honest about it all. I told my parents about my pain and anger at them, and I asked my wife why she wanted to have sex with her father.
There are a lot of things between us that you don't quite understand,"There was some confusion in his wife's eyes"This matter is also a momentary confusion, we are all trying to solve it, but we can't break free. "
Dad, what about you? "I looked at my father,"Why are you ......"
The father was silent for a while, and finally said"We were all wrong, but it has happened, and this is a problem that we should face together. "
There was a long silence in the family, everyone was thinking about how to deal with the problem, and there was an oppressive atmosphere in the house.
Until dawn broke and we sat in the living room. I didn't know how to speak, and there was an atmosphere of awkwardness and tension throughout the room. I looked at my wife and father, their eyes flashing with anxiety and unease.
How could such a thing happen? I struggled, "How can you ......."”
Son," the father interrupted me, "we really didn't mean to. ”
But it's not okay," I said angrily, "it's morality, it's family, it's trust......."”
I began to vent my inner anger and incomprehension like an erupting volcano, and I felt like the whole world was collapsing. I didn't know what to do, my mind was confused and painful. I looked at my wife and father, and their eyes revealed guilt and helplessness. The conflicts and disputes in this family made me feel hopeless like never before.
I'm sorry," said his wife in a trembling voice, "I know this hurts you, but in fact ......We are also miserable. ”
Are you in pain? I looked at her quizzically.
Yes," the father also chimed in, "we regret it too, but ......."”
Suddenly, the ringing of ** interrupted my father's words. The wife picked up ** and began to talk in an unfamiliar tone. "Okay, I got it. I'll go right away. She hung up, a hint of horror on her face.
What happened? I asked anxiously.
I ......I've got to get out of here," my wife stammered, "there's something urgent, and I've got to take care of it." ”
I'll go with you," I quickly stood up, "don't go out alone." ”
No," she shook her head, "it's my personal business, don't worry. ”
She left the house in a hurry, leaving me and my father in the living room, and the whole room was filled with embarrassment and silence.
Son," the father's voice was deep, "actually ......There are some things we haven't told you. ”
What's the matter? I looked at him quizzically.
Your mother ......She is not your biological mother. Father said with difficulty.
My heart ached like a piercing. I always thought my wife was my real mother, but now my father told me this shocking fact. My heart was in turmoil, and I felt like the whole world was shaking. I couldn't understand, I couldn't believe that my father and wife were hiding such an important thing. Is all this a lie? Is it a betrayal? I was forced to confront even more confusing secrets in my family.
When we got home, we sat in the living room as a family. The atmosphere was awkward, and I didn't know how to speak. The wife kept her head down, and the father frowned, and a sad expression was written on his face.
Child,"The mother broke the silence"Please listen to me. "
I nodded and motioned for my mother to continue. Mother whispered an old story about our family, saying that it was to relieve all the troubles in front of us; It turned out that I was not my father's biological son. The news shocked me and I didn't know how to accept it. I looked at my father, and his eyes were incomparably complicated, full of guilt and sadness.
Child,"Father finally spoke, his voice a little hoarse"I have never treated you as someone else's child, you have always been our son, and I raised you with my own hands. I've been lying to you about this secret, just don't want you to suffer too much ......"
The news hit me like a bolt from the blue, and I was both angry and confused. All along, I thought that I was a child of an ordinary family, and everything in the family was real and stable. However, now it all feels like a giant lie, and it makes me feel that the world has become distorted.
I want to be alone and quiet"I stood up and didn't look at them"I need time. "
Walking out of the house, I took my emotions into the streets late at night. The wind was very strong along the way, and my mood was even more irritable. It turns out that all family disputes are just a matter of a few words. Family happiness is supposed to be calm and simple, but why does everything seem so complicated? I don't know how to decide how I feel and how I feel about my family.
Destined to be unable to sleep this night, I sat quietly on a bench outside my house for a long time. The starlight in the sky seems to tell the helplessness, sadness and tenacity of the world. All of this, I need to make a decision, put myself in the right position, and let the entanglement in my heart break down.
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It's hard to find an explanation for all this, and I tried to salvage everything, only to find that too many things could not be undone. My wife and I sat down face to face and tried every means to mend our relationship, but the damage was too deep for such conflicts and entanglements to disappear easily. The atmosphere at home became tense, and I realized that this marriage could not go back to the way it used to be.
In this moment, what I need is time and space. I left home and went to a strange city, where I started my life all over again. I tried to break out of the entanglement of this family and find a new direction of development. However, no matter what kind of life I live, the pain, the contradictory picture always lingers in my mind.
Time passed slowly, and in the dead of night, my heart always echoed with that scene. I didn't find the answer, and I couldn't let go. Family disputes are like wounds that cannot be healed, and no matter how big the wind and rain are, the scars left behind are still clearly visible.
In this strange city, although I started a new life, the intricate emotions of that home are a reality that I cannot escape. Perhaps, fate has long been doomed, contradictions and entanglements are always with us.