Hello Earl, the number of words in the submission is a bit long. [laughs].
We parted on the night of the 12th. I have been in love with her for 500 days, and I have been very attentive in these 500 days, even if I am tired from work at night and in the morning, I will drive to her downstairs to send her to work, although she is only 10 minutes away from work.
There are too many things in the middle, and no matter how hard and tired I am, I have to take care of her. I was so attentive that my parents told me not to be so tired, and so attentive that I was surprised that I could love this girl so much. But the love that I worked so hard to manage still did not come to fruition, because she said that my two incomes would not be able to support a family in the future, and if the children were to be cultivated in the future, we would not even have the economic strength to send them abroad.
The budget for the wedding house is 550, the down payment can be paid 450, the provident fund loan is 50, and the commercial loan is 50, all of which are borne by my family).
She is less than 15w a year, I am less than 14w, I also have a rental income of 6w a year, and the two of us currently have a total of 35w in a year, and the provident fund loan can be completely offset because I have double gold, and the commercial loan is more than 2000 per month.
I thought that in the future, I can find some part-time work to earn money when I am resting, and I can subsidize 2-3w a year, and I don't smoke or drink and I am not a person who spends money indiscriminately, and I have a few hundred pocket money every month as food money to be satisfied. I was okay with all of this, but maybe she was still not satisfied, she had her life anxieties.
I used to say casually that I was fat because of her, I climbed the stairs for a month and lost 8 pounds on a low-carbon diet, and now I broke up for a day and a half, I fell asleep for 3 hours in two nights, ate a mouthful of vegetables, and lost 4 pounds [I'm about to cry] I am very unwilling to break up, and I also know that I am the humble side in this relationship, and I am even imagining that she may change her mind and say that she is willing to be with me again.
Some people say that they will introduce me to a better-looking and gentler girl again, and I have thought about whether to use a new relationship to wash away the current grief, but I can't seem to do it.
I can't deal with a new girl, a new relationship, and I can't treat a relationship with the same care as before. It may be that I am tired from exerting too deeply, and I feel that this is unfair to girls in the future.
I didn't know what I was going to do, I kept fantasizing, even though I knew she wouldn't look back. Maybe after a long time, I'll be relieved [tears]. But how long will it take ...
Don't be upset, it'll be fine. Licking the dog is nothing in the end, don't lick it hard in the future, love must be a two-way rush to be easy and happy, very tired will be miserable, remember the lesson. 】