What is the greatest despair of man? It's nothing but a loss of hope and desire for everything! If I could see a little bit of hope in it, or find some fulcrum to balance reality, I wouldn't have hesitated to throw myself into the water and die. But in today's society, everyone's pursuit of happiness is getting higher and higher, and simple satisfaction is no longer enough to make everyone happy.
All the unbearable and unfortunate things that Hazo has to do when he grows up, Horiki has to bear a lot of responsibility.
In "Disqualification in the World", in fact, Ye Zang knew in his heart that Horiki was just a fox friend and a dog friend. He despised him in his heart and was even ashamed to associate with him, but he was used to giving up his opinions and relying on Horiki to guide his life, so he became Horiki's defeated men. Later, after Ye Zang's martyrdom failed and his lover committed suicide, his family was furious and handed him over to someone else's supervision.
But no matter how bad Horiki is, as long as Hazo is assertive and determined, he can't leave right and wrong, good and evil, and be spoiled by Horiki again and again. There is no bottom-line compromise, no principled obedience, so that Ye Zang is easily used and then abandoned at will, and in the end he can only live while hating himself.
People who have no opinions will always give the initiative in life to others, and they are just pretending to live. Assertive people will not let themselves sink into the flies and dogs, and vow to live a decent and serious life, even in the gloomy world, they can shine their own glimmer.
In "Human Disqualification", he is a substitute for us, to feel pain and despair!
This story is not about how a person loses happiness step by step, but about what a person who can't feel happiness at all looks like. For us ordinary people, it is especially easy to feel happy when we are young. A candy, a toy, a family member who is awesome can make us happy for a long time.
However, the older we get, the happier we become. So, we are back on the road to happiness. It's just that while we are pursuing happiness, we feel very bitter at the same time. Why do you feel so bitter? Because we have all been wounded, we have since put away the soft part of our hearts.
On the other hand, Ye Zang has never experienced the taste of happiness. After he and his wife got married, they have always been very affectionate. However, one day, Ye Zang saw his wife and other men** with his own eyes. Ye Zang said that he had been white-headed all night since that night. He lost faith in everything, no longer trusted anyone, and only felt that the world was not worth it.
It is the confession of a blood-dripping soul!
The protagonist Ye Zang is cowardly and sensitive by nature, full of fear and anxiety about human life, coupled with the chaos of the world, the coldness of human feelings, as well as the hypocrisy and deception between family members, the boredom and intransgression of campus life, and the coldness and cruelty of social reality.
All this made him feel that he had become an "outlier" in the world and had lost his qualifications as a human being. But he did not hesitate to gamble with his life, placing his youth on the experimental table to reveal the confusion and loss of modern people, so as to seek the most secret truth of human beings and the original way of life of human beings.
This kind of self-loathing and self-doubt belongs to the highest mental illness in the human body! Because it can't be **, it can only go to extinction in the end. This kind of inability to **, belonging to the self can not heal itself, so even if others give enough love, if you can't reconcile yourself, you will eventually destroy yourself. I think there is a humble personality in the depths of everyone's heart.
So do you know what you have to do?
Perhaps life is a process of constant reconciliation with oneself, and real life is a process of continuous compromise with reality. In this process of compromise, we must constantly reconcile with ourselves, so that life and life can continue. May we all have more courage to confront life in this secular world, dare to face ourselves, dare to face reality, and life will be full of sunshine and embrace you.
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