I died, on the day of my twenty-fifth birthday, but my soul remained in the world.
The one I love the most is with the enemy whom I killed me.
I looked coldly, only to realize that I was wrong.
The sky was gray, but I still felt the sun shining.
The moment the soul was withdrawn from my body, I returned to my former home.
In the past, only my sister and mother lived in the house.
I haven't been back for a long time, looking at the familiar and unfamiliar furnishings.
There was a cake on the wood-colored dining table, with a beautiful outer packaging, and I noticed a card left in the corner of the table.
That's when I remembered that today was my birthday.
With anticipation in my heart, I tiptoed past, and stared at the words on it.
Happy 25th birthday, Xiaoling! A little princess who will always be a mother. 」
My body was almost transparent, and I took a few steps back awkwardly, a little timid for a moment, just like when I was alive at home.
But it soon became unscrupulous.
I'm dead, so why do I have such scruples?
I watched my mother busy in the kitchen and my sister Yunling dressed herself over and over again in front of the mirror.
Yun Ling was already beautiful, and her figure was even more convex and backward, I looked down at myself and couldn't help but compare it with myself.
Losing a lot.
Yun Ling and I are sisters of fraternal siblings, she inherited her mother's good genes, white skin and beauty, big eyes and high nose bridge, while I look like my father.
was born by the same mother, but she is as beautiful as a flower, and I am so ordinary that I am annihilated in the sea of people.
But soon, the loneliness was swept away.
I'm dead anyway, so why care?
After I died, I became a ghost, and I chatted with the ghosts who crossed me into the Yellow Spring, and those who died in vain would get a chance.
You can go back to life, but your heart is sick.
When I heard this, I couldn't help but laugh and burst into tears.
What more chances do I need to finally be liberated?
But I still got here, still wearing the same gray white dress.
It seems that there is some blood on his body, and it smells bad.
I pursed my lips in disgust, how can people still smell when they die?
I looked at the hem of my skirt in a daze, and I begged the onicha to change my clothes, but the onicha was very busy, and it turned into a puff of smoke after a few perfunctory sounds, and I must have gone to find the next miserable person.
It's okay, I'll just be honest.
My mother has been a different person since my father died, and at first she treated me as a transparent person and ignored me.
When I got older, my mother started to become violent towards me, and I needed to do housework and even go out to earn money to maintain the only tenderness between our mother and daughter.
In the face of Yun Ling, she was raised as the only little princess.
is obviously her daughter, but she has to get a completely different attitude from her mother.
At that time, I was at a loss, and my heart felt like I was stuffed with a ball of colorful yarn, a mess.
It turns out that this is not the right thing to do.
I knew the reason for all this, and that's when I realized that I was a terrible person.
It's been a long time, and I'm not a good person.
It's just that these two passages remember very clearly, the first wounds were left at that time, and I learned to please anyone.
I thought that my heart was as steel, but at this moment, the grievances broke out in an instant, and I couldn't cry.
It's just that no one cares.
Mother, I'm here to give you a hand. 」
Yun Ling said it, but she didn't mean to do it, and her mother didn't see it.
No, the guests will come later, you go to the living room to greet the guests. 」
Yun Ling left with a smile, her mother had always doted on her, and Yun Ling was also pampered and proud.
Yun Ling walked a few steps, as if she remembered something, and said worriedly, I also called Yun Qi a few days ago, but she didn't answer, I was a little worried about her. 」
The mother's action of picking vegetables in her hands did not stop, and said casually, "Leave her alone, she is at ease." 」
The small rape in the basin was a white stem, but it seemed to wilt a lot when soaked in the wet salt water.
I stared at the basin in a daze, Yunqi likes to eat rape the most, and I hate the taste of rape, but I haven't eaten less before.
In case something happened to Kosaki, she hadn't been home for a long time, and today was also her birthday, so she ......」
Don't worry about her, Xiaoling has to celebrate her birthday happily and don't think about those who are not important. 」
I couldn't help but look at my almost transparent hand and tugged at the corners of my mouth, and my mother always looked at me with only disgust.
Yun Ling is good at camouflage, and there are two appearances in front of and after.
Just like when she was a child, Yun Ling pleaded for her in front of her mother, but in exchange for more bad treatment from her mother, she always viciously angry with herself behind her back.
Daddy was killed by you, Daddy is here to save you! 」
Yunqi, you're a broom star, killing your father. 」
Yunqi, why don't you die? 」
I don't know when I would hide under the covers and cry secretly.
That wonderful father, it turned out that he died?
Now that I'm dead, can I go to the father who treated me so well?
Thinking of this, I tugged at my tattered white dress, and there was a faint light in my eyes.
When I grew up, the black memories of that day came to me like flowing water.
My father, a doctor, died in an ambulance.
My father and I went to climb the mountain, Yun Ling and I held hands, approaching the cliff, the strength of Yun Ling's hand became greater in vain, and I slipped under my feet and fell towards the bottom of the bottomless cliff.
Yun Ling called out to my father, and when my father found me crying, I was already shaky.
My father was startled and hurriedly stretched out his hand to pull me, my father's hands trembled, his strength loosened a lot, and his two hands were accidentally injured by me who was trying to survive, scratching out blood-red marks.
The strong sense of falling on my body scared me when I was a child, screaming and crying fiercely.
My father endured the pain and pulled me up with all his strength.
Before I could catch my breath, my father's feet slipped and he fell heavily off the cliff.
That's when my nightmare began.
The police came to me to talk to Yun Ling, and I still remember what Yun Ling said when she cried so much that she couldn't breathe:
Daddy for ......saved my sister before I fell ......Fell. 」
When the search and rescue team found him, his father was already dying, and his mother pretended to be calm, but the tears in the corners of her eyes still flowed uncontrollably. That day when the north wind was hunting, it seemed to be raining, and I was drenched like a chicken in soup.
The father held the mother's hand and spat out the unspeakable words:
Kosaki is okay, I'm ......」
I was in the arms of my sister and noticed my father's fingers trembling at me.
I was in the tuyere of the north wind, and I shivered with the cold, and my whole body was wooden.
My mother looked at me with mixed emotions in her eyes.
I was taken aback.
Even the youngest children can tell the difference.
That's indifference, it's complaining.
I wanted to apologize, but all I could say was one word: Mom......」
My mother didn't respond, she didn't give me a single look.
My mother asked me with a serious face on her way to the ambulance, red eyes.
Why can't you be a little more obedient? 」
My heart tightened, but I didn't dare to refute, Yun Ling sat next to her mother and couldn't stop crying, but she didn't explain anything for me.
The mother, who is gentle and kind on weekdays, has a face that is stained with mud at some point, and she is embarrassed with strangeness.
My father still died, I lost a lot of blood, and I cried and apologized at my father's funeral.
My mother's face was hideous, crying and asking me, "Why don't you die?" 」
Why don't I die?
For nearly two decades, these words stayed with me at all times.
At the same time, my mother's dislike for me did not decrease, but increased day by day.
I hope my father will come back to accompany me, and I hope my mother will not hate me so much.
I'm also trying.
On a night that was too dull for me to be dull anymore, my mother was in a good mood that day, and her face was much better for me.
I want to have a good talk with my mother.
Mom, it was my sister's ...... that dayMy father stumbled ......」
When I talked about it, my body couldn't stop shaking, and I couldn't say anything.
My relationship with my mother was like crossing a single-plank bridge, and I had to be careful, otherwise I would be crushed if I didn't pay attention.
The mother, who was originally smiling, collapsed in an instant.
It seemed like I was in a cave that was about to collapse, and my heart couldn't stop fluttering.
Didn't you go hiking that day? What does it have to do with your sister? 」
Didn't your dad save you? 」
How can a white-eyed wolf like you dare to mention your father? 」
My mother's eyes were cold and terrifying, and the successive questions made me extremely afraid.
But that day was my birthday and Yun Ling's birthday, and it was also Yun Ling who proposed to climb the mountain, why did it all become my responsibility?
I opened my mouth to explain, but was interrupted by Yun Ling.
Yun Ling rubbed her eyes and came out of the room, her voice was soft and glutinous, with puzzlement, Mom, what's wrong? Did your sister make you angry again? 」
Xiaoling is still sensible, Yunqi has never been sensible, and he can't feed the white-eyed wolf. 」
I don't know when my mother's scolding is groundless, and the balance of mother's love is unreasonably biased in favor of my sister's side, whether it is right or wrong.
Mother took Yun Ling in her arms and returned to the room, her eyes never lingering on me for half a moment.
Yun Ling's eyes were full of provocation, as if to say, You are the annoying existence. 」
I was anxious and annoyed, lowered my head and pulled the hem of my clothes, one after another, like pulling the hair of a puppy when I was a child, crying with all my might, That day, it was obviously my sister who pushed me! My father ...... to save meDeceased. 」
I couldn't help but twitch, and my mother shook Yun Ling's hand soothingly, walked up to me with an expressionless face and slapped me hard.
This slap seemed to carry the prejudice and resentment that my mother had always had, and I was slammed to the ground.
My little face quickly became red and swollen, and the stinging pain quickly spread all over my face.
The heart hurts even more. Yun Ling hid behind her mother and looked at me with mocking eyes, like a princess looking at a beggar in disarray, unable to do anything about herself.
I can't help but doubt myself over and over again.
I'm not really wrong.
I saw a strange man in the living room, holding a bouquet of white roses in his hand.
The man was very handsome with tall eyebrows.
Who is this man? Could it be Yun Ling's boyfriend?
I haven't been home for a long time, and it's not unusual that I don't know each other, I'm not an eventful person, but I'm also curious about who can get into Yun Ling's eyes.
A magical power that I couldn't help but get closer to the man.
As soon as I exerted a little force, the whole body floated up, and I slowly floated up to the man and looked at it carefully.
The man's eyes are clear, but the emotions under his eyes are not clear.
Gu Di, you're finally here. 」
Happy birthday! 」
Yun Ling shyly hugged the white rose handed by the man in her arms.
I looked too seriously, and I was a little annoyed by Yun Ling's sudden shout, so I pursed my lips and moved away from the man.
Gu Di? In the silence of the space, I seemed to hear my heart beating violently again and again.
I unconsciously murmured, Sixth Brother. 」
My tiger body was shocked, and I finally came to my senses, is he Gu Di?
I turned my head sharply and looked at Gu Di with heavy eyes, he still had the appearance of a teenager.
It turned out that it was him, and he was back.
Yun Ling skillfully grabbed Gu Di's arm, her eyes were full of admiration, and it could be seen that Yun Ling was very satisfied with Gu Di.
In fact, Gu Di and I are not too innocent.
Gu Di was the eldest brother of my neighbor's family when I was a child, he was born very well, and he was very popular with little girls, and I am naturally no exception.
Gu Di's father was a good friend of my father, who had suffered from heart disease for many years, and my father was also his attending physician.
The relationship between our two families is also closer.
When I was a child, I talked a lot, and I liked to follow Gu Di like a follower.
I happened to hear Gu Di's parents call Gu Di Xiaoliu.
I was taken aback, could it be that Gu Di has six children at home?
Later, I learned that Gu Di ranked sixth in the big family.
I had a bad taste, so I also learned to be like an adult, and shouted behind Gu Di, Xiaoliu. 」
Gu Di was helpless, but he was an extremely gentle person, so he also went by my temperament.
Later, I was bumped into by my father and scolded me, I compromised with my mouth open, but shouted on my lips, sixth brother. 」
Our relationship is not bad, Yun Ling once again met Gu Di on the basketball court by chance, and was also amazed by him.
In the past, Yun Ling never disdained me to play around, she just wanted to be a little princess who was high, and it was reasonable to look down on me and the people around her.
Yun Ling's eyes were bright that day, and I could see through the careful thoughts that tried to blend in with us.
At that time, my father had not yet died, and Yun Ling's thoughts towards me were not as deep as they are now, I only regarded her as a playmate.
Since then, the two-person walk has become a threesome.
Gu Di's preference is well known, Yun Ling has warned me openly and secretly, and has also expressed her heart to Gu Di.
It's just that they were all prevaricated by Gu Di, but after his father died, Gu Di's family disappeared.
I heard from the gossipy mother-in-law in the community that Gu's mother had an accident on the operating table, and I was worried about Gu Di, but I couldn't find him.
If the father went to Gu's mother for this operation, the result would be diametrically opposite.
At that time, Gu Di must have hidden, licking his wounds, waiting for the wounds to heal.
It wasn't until after I died that I knew that Gu Di was instigated by Yun Ling, and he just wanted to stay away from me, a "murderer".
It turns out that time can heal the wound, but only if there is no grit in the wound.
Gu Di walked to the sofa and sat down with his back straight.
Yun Ling sat down closely, naturally grabbed Gu Di's arm, and shook it coquettishly, Gu Di also smiled gently at Yun Ling.
The two of them are like a match made in heaven.
Gu Di picked up the oranges placed in the fruit bowl with his hand, peeled the skin with a serious expression, and his movements were careful and light, as if he was playing with his favorite treasure.
Gu Di's smile paused for a moment, and he looked at my position in a daze, his eyes were focused, and I met his dark eyes and became flustered.
Could it be that Gu Di can see me?
Article ** Since the elder Ford, the article "Died at the age of twenty-five".