Approaching the end of the year, the idea of going home always comes to me at some point, whether it is at a moment in the hustle and bustle of a dinner, or when I see the gray hair on my sideburns in the mirror.
In the evening, the colorful neon lights hanging on both sides of the road emitted a colorful psychedelic light, driving the night to the farthest point of sight, full of prosperity, but it made me feel more anxious to go home.
Nostalgia. 
It was already 10 o'clock in the evening when I returned home after a drinking party, and when I opened the door, I found that the living room was already full of packed packages, and I instantly felt that my parents, lovers, and children were as eager to come home as I was. When I put down the handbag and told my mother, who heard me open the door and walked out of her bedroom, that she could go home tomorrow, an irrepressible smile appeared on her face, and even the wrinkles on her face seemed to have disappeared a lot, and she said, "Don't worry, you are busy with work, work tightly", but when she turned around and returned to the bedroom, I heard the surprise of my parents through the door, and they had already begun to think about what work they needed to arrange after returning home, and what things they needed to buy for the Spring Festival.
When the youngest daughter heard me about coming home tomorrow, she jumped up in bed with joy, and ran to her sister's room before she even had time to put on her shoes, to share the good news with her. My wife asked me, "Are you on leave?" I said, "It's not that I couldn't invite me before, it's just that I can't get over the hurdle in my heart, and I'm afraid that I will delay my work by taking so many days off, but now I understand it." ”
At night, lying in bed, unable to sleep for a long time, thinking about the excitement of my family when they heard the news of coming home, I knew how right this decision was. Coming to this city, it has been 16 years, from the initial strangeness and curiosity, to the current repetition and numbness, I have witnessed too much prosperity and hustle and bustle in the middle, and I have experienced too much bittersweet and bittersweet, but I always feel that I am a duckweed floating on the water. In this familiar and unfamiliar city, there is a career, a place to live, and friends, but there is no inch of space to place the tired soul.
Perhaps, it's because I'm old, don't I often say that people only have too much emotion when they are old? Maybe it's because life is too comfortable, resting the body, but indulging the soul, that's why there are so many sorrows.
Chinese people have a kind of mulberry plot since ancient times, homesickness is a literary and artistic topic that has been handed down through the ages, there are homesickness and defeat of the country, there are homesickness and success, there are homesickness and rebuild the hometown in a different place, there are homesickness and do the famous sentences of the ages, homesickness and can not return, it becomes homesickness, there is a glass of turbid wine home thousands of miles of desolation, there is the loneliness of the remote brother ascending the heights, there is the busy bright moon that is frequently pinned on the feelings, and there is also the wild goose that shuttles between the north and the south for a long time.
In my ears, I heard the slight snoring of my wife and daughter, but in my head, I thought that the small courtyard of the hometown was the end of the year, and the hometown must have sounded the sound of firecrackers one after another. Whether there will still be the smell of fragrant stew and hearty laughter in the neighborhood ......
Through the gaps in the curtains, you can also see the colorful decorative lights on the trees on both sides of the road outside the community emitting colorful light, shining on the vehicles and pedestrians passing by from time to time, making this already noisy night more enchanting, even here, there are more convenient living conditions, even here, there are more higher-paying job opportunities, even here, there are the best universities and hospitals in the country, but, although this place is good, it is not my hometown!
February 4, 2024 night.