Today, I will give you an in-depth interpretation of the essay collection "Micro Dust" by the "miner poet" Chen Nianxi - this is a unique work that integrates the philosophy of life and death and the various states of life.
"Dust" is not only a book on the boundaries of life, but also a vivid portrayal of life in the world. Each of us, like tiny specks of dust in the vast universe, is still tenacious in interpreting the chapter of life despite its small strength.
Chen Nianxi confided in "Dust": "I have witnessed endless suffering, but I have never let depression take over my heart. This short and deep sentence is like a sharp arrow that reaches the depths of the reader's heart.
Based on his 16-year career as a miner, he experienced poverty and hardship, and suffered the pain of life and death. In his writings, the trivial details of everyday life reveal the impermanence of fate; And behind that thrilling work scene is the silent narration of a miserable life.
Chen Nianxi's indifferent and calm writing style, from the perspective of "me", tells 21 ups and downs of life stories in the book, including the warm comfort of family and love, as well as the cold reality of death and survival.
However, in this work woven with heavy words, there is the "belief in survival" that countless ordinary people adhere to: even if they are as humble as dust, they can bloom with unyielding life force.
In the midst of the difficulties, looking forward to a distant place
Life is not only about what is in front of you, but also about poetry and distance", which was once popular on the Internet, inspired countless netizens to pursue the "poetry and distance" in their hearts.
But for her mother, who grew up in a small town, the picture of life seems to be only full of the trivialities and hardships in front of her, and the poetic distance is a dream that she deeply yearns for but has never been able to reach.
When she was young, her mother was keen to go to the market, but the remote location of the Xiahe River made her trek to the distant town of Guanpo.
The life after marriage was drowned by the daily life of firewood, rice, oil and salt, and since then it has gradually drifted away from the beauty of the market. The only time she traveled far away was to go to Guanpo Town to ask for a fateful answer for me.
My mother has been imprisoned in the middle of the Gorge River for almost her entire life, but her curiosity about the distant world has never diminished, but through my narration and sharing, she has explored the unknown world in the depths of her soul again and again.
Whenever I came back, my mother was like a child who had seen the world for the first time, asking over and over again about the customs of distant places, food and clothing, and other details, and regarded every ** I sent to her as a treasure and carefully kept it in her mobile phone.
As the years passed, I realized that it was through my eyes that my mother had achieved spiritual journeys again and again.
In her spare time, the mother would write down the ** numbers of her four sons on the wall one by one, and once the number was invalid, she would update it in time.
These seemingly ordinary numbers built her mother's spiritual world, leading her to swim across thousands of rivers and mountains in a world she had never experienced.
In her later years, my mother's body was extremely weak, even if she just went to the county seat to see a doctor, she would be out of breath after walking a few steps.
However, when she faced the unfamiliar city scene, the fatigue seemed to disappear in an instant, and her eyes flashed with joy and surprise that could not be concealed.
The distant world seems to have magical power, enough to put the mother's illness aside for a while, and bring her a moment of precious joy and comfort.
As Mr. Chen Nianxi wrote affectionately in his book: "The world beyond the mountains is magnificent and prosperous beyond the words of the world can be described in detail, and my mother has never had the opportunity to experience such a vast world in her life." ”
However, even though she is bound by the boundaries of the town, her mother still tries to touch those unreachable places through inquiry and imagination in her simple and tenacious way, planting an expectation for herself and looking for a beacon of life.
In the world, no one can easily escape the trivialities and hardships of reality, but life is not limited to the immediate hardship.
Reserving a distant place of reverie for the soul can make life less bitter and sweeter.
When the longing for the distance is ignited in the heart, the days will be colorful in an instant; When the spirit rests on that vast world, the soul finds a home.
In the continuous choice, seek a way out
My cousin-in-law is on the front line of the passenger transport industry, and he follows a strict routine, starting at 5 o'clock in the morning until 10 o'clock in the evening, and never enjoying a good night's sleep. Faced with this ascetic-like rhythm of life, he couldn't help but feel a little complaining and confusion in his heart, and then bred the idea of quitting his current job and devoting himself to the torrent of entrepreneurship.
Giving up that secure but restrictive job means exchanging years of hard-earned savings for a future full of unknowns.
To resign or not to resign is like taking a big gamble in life: the former is tantamount to giving it a go on the wheel of fate, while the latter is like setting one's own limits, wandering in a predetermined cage.
After careful consideration and repeated weighing of the pros and cons, my cousin-in-law resolutely chose to challenge the unknown, poured out 200,000 yuan, and started a difficult journey to establish a factory. As the old saying goes: "People move to live, trees move to die", this sentence has been vividly interpreted in him.
Behind every new path full of risks and confusion, there are hidden vitality and opportunities surging in the dark tide.
When he first entered the new industry, his cousin-in-law was weak, but he was not afraid of difficulties, and often took on small orders that others disdained, and engaged in trivial businesses such as processing small toys.
As time passed, my cousin-in-law's efforts began to pay off, orders poured in like snowflakes, and the number of workers expanded from a few to ten.
At the end of the year, it was surprising to see that the factory's annual revenue was approaching the seven-digit mark.
With perseverance and conscientious efforts, my cousin-in-law finally managed to break free from the shackles of being a wage earner, turned around gorgeously, and became an entrepreneur in his own right.
At this moment, the narrow factory space is like a boulder that restricts development, and my cousin-in-law deeply feels the pain of its shackles and is determined to relocate the factory site in order to seek greater development space and stronger competitiveness.
In order to raise a huge relocation fund of 2 million, he resolutely chose the original plant, emptied all the equipment, and tried his best to apply for various loans.
In the process, any tiny funding gap could push him to the brink of bankruptcy; However, if you stick to the same place, the factory will be drowned in the fierce industry torrent.
In the face of such a serious challenge, my cousin-in-law showed determination to break the ground and vowed to do everything in his power to realize the relocation plan.
However, at this critical juncture, the financial chain was unexpectedly broken, forcing him to devote himself to a difficult life of debt collection. In just half a year, he traveled through every street in the city, just to recover the key funds that kept the factory alive.
Although this decision almost put him in a desperate situation, he did not have the slightest regret or complaint, and only had a firm belief in his heart: no matter what, he would do his best to keep this factory that carried dreams and hopes.
From the initial start of freight transportation, to the arduous process of starting a business in the south, to the peak moment after his fame, to the turning point of falling to the trough, my cousin-in-law has forged ahead in major choices again and again, always unsatisfied with the status quo, and has never bowed to difficulties.
In real life, I don't know how many people are like their cousins-in-law, facing a dilemma: looking forward, there is a bumpy road full of unknowns; Looking back, it is a devastated past; Staying where it is, it seems that there is no way out.
Behind every major decision, there are unpredictable blessings and misfortunes, and there are joys and sorrows between gains and losses. However, now that the choice has been made, there is no other way but to grit your teeth and move forward with a heavy load.
Because, complaining can't turn things around, and regret can't change the status quo. The only thing we can do is to move forward, strive to break through, and meet every challenge with perseverance.
In the midst of pain, seek a little solace
In the harsh winter of 2015, Chen Nianxi's cervical spine condition suddenly worsened, and its severity was almost on the verge of paralysis.
Faced with this dire situation, the doctors who consulted were all shocked, and they exclaimed: "Your spinal nerves have been compressed by up to four-fifths, and I am afraid that someone else would have been bedridden, and you can still keep walking." ”
Back in 2011, the shadow of illness loomed over us. On that day, Chen Nianxi was toiling in the dim and deep cave, when suddenly, his hands trembled violently like chaff, and he could no longer hold the machine in his hand. Just a few days later, the legs also began to show uncontrolled symptoms.
When Chen Nianxi walked into the door of the hospital, he learned that he was suffering from severe cervical spondylosis, and he could not wait.
However, due to the tight deadline, he had no time to take care of his own health as he took care of one task after another, and if he stopped working to treat his illness, he could lose the job opportunity he needed to survive. In desperation, he could only rely on oral medication to endure the pain and struggle to support.
Over the next four years, the pain came like a tidal wave, and it became more and more intense. Chen Nianxi was often tormented by severe pain and trembled all over, and after long nights, insomnia became the norm, and pain and suffering followed.
During these days of devastation from illness, writing became Chen Nianxi's only solace and spiritual support. He poured all the experiences in his life, the people and things he met into the paper, and recorded those tenacities and struggles in words.
Every time I look back on this past, it seems to be a reborn tempering for Chen Nianxi, and every memory is as painful as peeling off a layer of flesh.
However, even so, he continued to write, and in the deafening explosions, people can often see his resolute figure, bowing his head and immersed in the world of creation.
The words born from the abyss of suffering are like an emotional imprint engraved in the depths of the soul, and their deep power has moved countless readers to tears.
Suddenly, Chen Nianxi's name was like thunder, and his words touched the heartstrings of editors in the publishing industry, so that he was highly appreciated, and he published a number of books in a row, and was even invited to participate in the recording of cultural programs, which entered the public eye and won wide attention and recognition.
Now, with his unique charm of words and profound life background, Chen Nianxi has successfully withdrawn from the roaring world of blasting operations and turned into a copywriter.
Looking back on his 16 years of torturous blasting career, Chen Nianxi's body has endured unspeakable damage: cervical spine damage, deafness in both ears, and severe symptoms such as fibrosis in the lungs.
However, when the flame of life was fading, he held the light of hope of writing, and opened a new chapter of life with his indomitable spirit and affectionate words.
The turn of fate does not come quietly by empty dreams alone; Nor can ideals be easily reached by verbal eloquence alone. All good expectations need to be based on practical actions.
There is an inevitable causal chain between giving and reaping, and it is impossible to expect a bumper harvest without hard work; Accumulation and explosion complement each other, and only deep sedimentation can usher in a brilliant blooming moment.
If you want to engrave some remarkable achievements on the stage of life, you must first go through the baptism of wind and rain and tenaciously go through that lonely journey that no one cares about.
However, in this silent accumulation day after day, year after year, the accumulated strength is like spring planting and autumn harvest, which will bear abundant fruits, bloom bursts of intoxicating fragrance, and turn hard work into fruitful results, showing the value and significance of struggle.
In the treasure house of wisdom of "Zengguang Xianwen", there is a famous saying that is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people: "Life is as short as a spring of grass and trees, when it comes like a storm, it is as swift as a storm, but when it goes, it is as quiet as a fine dust." ”
Chen Nianxi's characters are like ethereal dust, silently descending into the world and leaving silently. However, they have an incomparably resilient vitality that grows like weeds, and they can still greet them with a smile in the face of life's misfortunes.
Their stories are undoubtedly a true portrayal of the life process of thousands of ordinary people. Who is not driven by fate to stumble, while bearing the pressure of moving forward, while silently crying in the dark night?
However, after experiencing the sweetness and bitterness of life, ups and downs, no matter how thin the body is, it can be as tough as an iron wall, and no matter how soft the heart is, it can be sharpened to be invincible.
At this moment, please gently click Follow, may we forge ahead in the precipitous world, temper a strong self, fearless of wind and waves, move forward bravely, and bloom with a brilliant life!