On November 11, when the whole network was immersed in the "Double Eleven" shopping carnival, Lei Haifeng posted a notice on social ** to find relatives, which aroused the attention of the majority of netizens.
This mother, who is about to turn 40 years old, although she already has two children, she has always been worried about her mother who left her 29 years ago.
Lei Haifeng has suffered from polio since she was a child, and her right foot is disabled, and her grandparents (or grandparents) have always taken care of her to grow up.
As for her mother, her memory is like a vague image in literature, and her father's shadow has almost completely disappeared. However, this strong mother has never given up her desire for maternal love, and even if she is in the middle of a storm, she must look for that lost family affection.
Lei Haifeng's hometown is located in a rural village deep in the mountains, and the houses are made of mud and bricks, and contain self-sufficient agricultural products such as rice, sweet potatoes, peanuts and tobacco leaves.
When Lei Haifeng was in the first grade of primary school, he could not live a normal life like other children due to physical reasons, and his studies were also affected, and his grades were not outstanding.
As a teenager, she couldn't recall the names of her playmates, but the time she spent playing with them was precious. At that time, although there was no cinema in the village, there would be filmmakers who would come to the school to screen it, and the whole village would gather**.
Lei Haifeng remembers that when she was a child, she lived in the countryside with her grandparents. In addition to planting crops, the two old men also had to cut a lot of pigweed to go home. For the sake of food and clothing for the family, grandparents can be described as well-intentioned.
In the countryside, a good harvest depends on the weather, and in a good year, the harvest is impressive, but in a bad year, there is little harvest after a year of hard work. Lei Haifeng still remembers that the village often suffers from disasters and food shortages.
Fortunately, there are well-wishers who give some assistance from time to time, and grandma will use the money to buy the cheapest sweet potatoes and a little rice, and the family will go through difficult times together.
Because of his polio, Lei Haifeng only learned to walk at the age of four, and he was always held by his grandparents.
The grandparents who grew up with her now have their own children, and now Lei Haifeng has also experienced the hardships of raising a baby. Whenever she held her child, she always couldn't imagine how her grandparents held her until she was four years old.
Lei Haifeng still remembers that once, she and her companions climbed the mountain to pick sour leaves, but accidentally fell into a deep hole, and there were sweet potatoes hidden in the hole. Knowing that Lei Haifeng had fallen into the hole, her grandmother immediately rushed over and rescued her with a ladder.
At that time, the medical conditions in the countryside were not yet perfect, and Lei Haifeng was frightened in the cave and could not return to normal for a long time. However, Grandma is very experienced, she mixed clay with herbs, applied it to Lei Haifeng's chest, and used the most simple soil method to help her recover slowly.
At that time, Lei Haifeng, like many children of the same age, was inevitably a little playful, and due to physical reasons, he often encountered some small conditions, such as falling into a hole, falling into the water, etc.
But under the careful care of his grandparents, Lei Haifeng still grew up healthy and happy.
Thinking of his grandparents who raised him when he was young, Lei Haifeng can always remember many warm moments. But Lei Haifeng has no special impression of her mother, except that she remembers that she is a kind person.
Although her memory of her mother is a little vague, she clearly remembers that her mother's name is Lei Xiaolan. My mother came home suddenly in mid to late August 1992, as if she had been discussing something with my grandmother.
In the end, grandma agreed to let her mother take Lei Haifeng out to play. Hearing the news, Lei Haifeng was very happy, she never imagined that this trip would be the beginning of her being abandoned by her mother.
On the day of August 31, 05, before dawn broke outside the window, his mother woke up Lei Haifeng. For a small child, waking up early is undoubtedly a challenge, but the thought of going out with his mother immediately cheered up.
After a brief freshening, his mother carried Lei Haifeng on her back from the village to the train station. Lying on his mother's back, Lei Haifeng felt that his mother's back was soaked with sweat.
But his heart was full of warmth. At about 8 o'clock in the morning, my mother took Lei Haifeng on the train. He remembered that his mother had been chatting with a woman at that time, and it seemed as if she wanted to give him to her.
But because Lei Haifeng has a disability, the woman did not accept it in the end. Despite this, the young Lei Haifeng did not realize that his life was about to change because of this.
At the train station in the 90s, Lei Haifeng didn't know that her mother was going to take her to ** to play, for her, the long-lost maternal love and the upcoming outing were enough to dispel all doubts.
After a day and a night of travel, the mother and daughter finally arrived in Xinyu City, Jiangxi Province. At this time, the morning light of the city has not yet sprinkled the earth, but in the early morning, there are still a few stars left in the sky.
Although Lei Haifeng often sees stars in the countryside, the scene of the city is new and mysterious to her. Later, her mother asked her to stand in front of a store and wait, telling Lei Haifeng that she was going to run something and that it would take a while for her to stop running around.
Lei Haifeng obediently stood in place, watching his mother leave until her back disappeared from sight. Although she didn't see her mother's sadness, Lei Haifeng clearly remembered that her mother said that she would come back, so she waited stupidly, waiting from morning to afternoon, although she didn't see her mother coming back, but her heart was full of anticipation.
At Xinyu Railway Station in the 80s of the last century, a little girl stood alone on the street, and passers-by saw her helplessness and took out some food for her.
Soon after, a good Samaritan found Lei Haifeng and took her to her home, but the good Samaritan was worried that her mother would come back to look for her, so he waited until dawn and sent her back to where she was.
However, Lei Haifeng stood alone on the street for a long time, and although people came and went, her mother's figure never appeared. That night, she had to spend the night on the road.
Although the weather in early September was not too cold, the fear of abandonment and loneliness had always gripped her. We can't imagine what it's like for an 8-year-old girl with a disability to spend time alone on an unfamiliar street.
In Xinyu in the 90s of the last century, a girl named Lei Haifeng was found by the police in a state of confusion. After understanding, the police sent her to the Xinyu City Welfare Institute, where she has been living ever since.
Although she had suspected that her mother was observing her in the dark and confirming her safety and left silently, Lei Haifeng still chose to think on the bright side, so that she could be less sad and sad.
In the welfare home, Lei Haifeng needs *** procedures like other children. If the child is able to be favored by the adoptive family, they can leave the home and go to a new home.
However, Lei Haifeng did not have such good luck because of his disability.
Lei Haifeng lives in the Xinyu Children's Welfare Institute, and although she always tries her best to be positive and lively, she is always inevitably chosen whenever someone comes to adopt a child.
Because she understands that she has been abandoned by her mother and no longer expects to be found. However, whenever people see her somewhat disabled legs, they turn around and look for healthier children.
Lei Haifeng's physical condition has become a major obstacle to adoption, and in the welfare home, most of the adopted children are about three or four years old, or some babies.
It's hard for someone like her to be eight years old. She knew that even her biological mother couldn't accept her physical handicapped, so how could anyone else accept her?
Advocate caring for children, let us take action to help those children in welfare homes. Lei Haifeng is one of them, under the protection of the welfare home, she began to receive education, but life did not go well.
Due to her physical and intellectual differences, she is often bullied and insulted by other children. Despite this, she still chooses to be strong and bear all the pain and grievances alone, because she cannot find help and support from her parents when she is bullied, like other children.
Let's reach out so that these children can also receive the love and respect they deserve.
In the lonely years, the little girl silently bears the weight of life and learns to comfort and encourage herself. Sometimes tears welled up, other times I fell asleep in tears, and I woke up to a new day.
As time passed, she drifted away from her past life and loved ones. After graduating, she chose to stay in the welfare home and contribute to the society with practical actions.
Like ordinary people, she found the love she longed for, happily entered the palace of marriage, had a happy family of her own, and gave birth to two lovely daughters.
However, only she understands that the pain and sadness of being abandoned by her mother is unspeakable.
Twelve-year-old Lei Haifeng, when asked if he had ever imagined reuniting with his mother, he honestly replied: "I have imagined it countless times." ”
Although he was in a foreign land, his hometown was never forgotten by him when he was growing up, and the abandonment of his mother and the love of his grandparents were deeply imprinted in his heart.
He longed to be able to express his gratitude with the most sincere greetings and hugs, and if possible, he also hoped to take them to his current home to see.
Although the days of knowing that he was abandoned and then accepting this fact were extremely difficult, perhaps it was the life experience of the welfare home that made Lei Haifeng have a grateful heart.
Although Lei Haifeng was abandoned by her mother, she never had the idea of revenge or asking for compensation. Instead, she said she would do what she could whenever her family needed help.
However, after giving birth, she often wondered why her mother had cruelly abandoned her at the age of 8 on the side of the road. No matter what kind of child she is, she can't cruelly abandon her child.
As her child was born, she became more and more eager to find her mother and grandparents. So, she once asked the staff at the welfare home what she was like when she was taken there.
However, years have passed, and the staff can no longer accurately describe what it was like to see Lei Haifeng for the first time. However, they clearly remembered that Lei Haifeng had a noticeable head spin on his head, but as he got older, this head spin was no longer so obvious.
When Lei Haifeng was a child, he had straight hair and cute double eyelids. Later, it was discovered that she had scars on her right armpit and instep, which were left after she was burned from playing with fire with her friends as a child.
Although the orphanage can provide very little information, only a ** from when she first arrived, which can make her recall what it was like to disappear when she was 8 years old. For Lei Haifeng, her mother and grandparents have become her past, but even though she has established her own family, she still can't forget everything in the past.
Over the years, the vague past has become a burden on her heart, and she can't move forward with peace of mind. Lei Haifeng believes that "only by finding the answer can I really look forward".
She admitted that she had never mentioned the matter of finding her mother to the old dean who had been with her for many years, because the old dean did not support her decision, and the old dean loved her very much, and she did not want to hurt the old dean's feelings.
At the age of 15, Lei Haifeng was sent to a welfare home, and this experience made her decide to find her long-lost biological parents. She mustered up the courage and sent out a family search post on November 11, hoping to use the power of netizens.
Her husband and two daughters are fully supportive of this. Although Lei Haifeng now has a warm family, she always feels different from her mother and grandparents.
She needed to find the missing things. In the process of searching for relatives, Lei Haifeng's attitude towards his mother and grandparents is completely different. Facing her mother, she said that she may only call her aunt at first, not her mother.
She would ask her mother a lot of questions, not only why she had been abandoned, but also why her mother and father had not been at home much over the years, and whether they had sent money back to their grandparents when they were away from work.
Lei Haifeng believes that if she recognizes her mother, it will take a long time for her to be relieved, after all, when she was growing up, her mother did not give her enough company.
Lei Haifeng's family search post posted in today's headlines As time goes by, she begins to gradually understand her mother's original intention, and thinks from her mother's perspective about why her mother made such a choice.
She began to realize that perhaps in her mother's eyes, she stayed in a city like Xinyu in the hope that she could be better cared for and lived. Facts have proved that although Lei Haifeng, who stayed in Xinyu, lives in a welfare home, her material life and future are much better than in the countryside.
However, this does not justify the mother's abandonment of her. In addition to seeking his mother's explanation so that she can find support after losing her husband and children, Lei Haifeng's greatest hope is to let his daughter have a grandmother, like other ordinary children.
Every time she has a holiday, she sees that her daughter's classmates go to her grandmother's house to play, but her own daughter can't, and her heart is full of pain. She hopes to find her family as soon as possible so that her daughters will have a grandmother and she herself will be able to find her mother again.
Lei Haifeng's daughters talked about their mother and grandparents, and Lei Haifeng began to think. She had thought that her mother might have started a new life, and that if she went to find her mother, it might disturb her life.
After all, it was her grandparents, not her mother, who took care of her when she was a child. Lei Haifeng remembered that she was always sick when she was a child, and she was a naughty child at that time.
At that time, the family did not have much money, and every time she was sick, her grandparents had to pull down her hair and borrow money from relatives and friends. Although she didn't quite understand the importance of money at that time, the scene of her grandparents borrowing money from others again and again for her was deeply imprinted in her memory.
When she grew up, she could better understand the difficulties of her grandparents, and her thoughts and love for her grandparents became deeper. If her grandparents are still alive, she will definitely do her best to filial piety and let them live comfortably in their old age.
Eighteen-year-old Lei Haifeng said that if her mother gave up on her grandparents because they couldn't take care of her, she would have no complaints and would not hate them. For Lei Haifeng, she misses her grandparents far more than she misses her biological mother.
As much as she misses her grandparents, she understands that time can't resist it. It's been 29 years since she was abandoned by her mother, which is a long time period and a lot can happen.
Maybe she has grown up in this welfare home, but her hometown, grandparents may have left this world because of age. "If they're gone, I'll go burn incense and kowtow to them. ”
Many thoughts and loves in this world are not related to life and death, just like Lei Haifeng's feelings for her grandparents.
Lei Haifeng, a 19-year-old girl, fate was unfair to her, and her mother abandoned her, but she was still able to remain kind and forgive her mother's mistakes. 29 years have passed, and she still misses her grandparents, this is filial piety.
When she grew up, she chose to stay in the welfare home and express her gratitude to the society with her actions. This tough girl, not afraid of the difficulties of life, is like a small grass that grows alone, full of life and vitality.
Lei Haifeng's post has attracted widespread attention on social **, receiving more than 30,000 likes and nearly 20,000 replies, most of which are words of encouragement and support.
While we may not be able to truly understand her experience, her resilience and optimism have touched many people.
On his way to find his mother, Lei Haifeng received the help of countless volunteers and encouragement from all directions. Even though her life was not rich enough to devote herself to the search, she persevered.
China's vast territory makes it difficult to find his mother, who has been missing for nearly 30 years, and Lei Haifeng has not given up his current life. She saw the search for her mother as an adventure to find a needle in a haystack, and if she could find it, it would be her luck, and if she couldn't, she took it for granted.
Although until now, she has not found her mother, it does not mean that the matter is over. In the age of the Internet, the speed and scope of information dissemination has increased, which is a positive sign that perhaps in the near future, she will be able to reunite with her mother and even her grandparents.
I just hope that by then, things will turn around and go in the best direction.