This is the 41st step of the 100-step staking plan).
When the Lunar New Year is approaching, I have completed 4,100 hours of standing stump life, lifting the pen, my head is empty, there is no concentrated thinking, and there is no theme idea.
The most important thing that affects my mood is that due to the recent renovation and moving, a lot of things are always lingering in my mind, and the atmosphere of calming down and thinking (thinking about problems requires such an "aura") is relatively small, and there are more things.
It is true that cannibalism is the nature of human beings, and in recent months, those disturbing, complicated and messy mundane things have no energy to clean up their minds, and their bodies cannot return to their original state.
In fact, quiet inaction is the first choice for standing on the pile, and it is also the ideal, and we can achieve this state, which is very rare in a person's life.
Due to trivial matters and complicated thoughts, I can't calm down, and my body and spirit feel that something is not good. Everything in the human body comes from the word "qi". Traditional Chinese medicine also talks about this, that is, "all diseases are born from qi", this kind of qi is also divided into internal qi and external qi, external qi is often said "wind, cold, summer, dampness, dryness, fire", internal qi is actually emotionally controlled, that is, "joy, anger, sorrow, sadness, fear" and so on. Recently, due to the restlessness of the internal qi, the external qi is very dry, the mouth is dry, and sometimes the sleep at night is not very good.
This is a real night scene taken with my phone outside the window of my new home).
Cold and summer, birth, old age, sickness and death, sophistication, gossip, family trivialities, etc., the ordinary things of living in this world are enough for you to drink a pot, not to mention that I want to move, such a relatively big thing, it is even more complicated, and it will end up in a thousand ways.
I've been living in this old and dilapidated house for 21 years, and next spring, I won't be in the old house, I'm moving to a new place, a new home. It was the last time I moved in my life, and of course it was something like this. It's always haunting in my head, and I refuse to have the slightest quiet.
Our generation of people born in the 60s are really from the countryside to watch the hard work of the previous generation with their faces facing the loess and their backs to the sky, and they are lucky to enter the city. The ultimate goal pursued by people is "play", in order to be able to play, they have to work for more than 40 years and earn all the money they can earn.
And when it's really time to play, we may be bored and worried, how to play? So always jumping from one helplessness to another deeper helplessness cycle.
In my headlines, I wrote a short article "When you are old, do you want to choose a city and end your life?" With more than 1 million views, a large part of the people who read my article have the same feelings, and many people need to work hard to get a quiet and peaceful space for their thoughts. This is what I think, and I think it's the direction of my efforts. I always feel that a person's life, especially a person with traditional thinking, needs to be able to find a space of their own. This space doesn't have to be very large, nor does it have to be very luxurious, but it must be your own exclusive space, drinking tea, reading, writing, standing on the pile, and ...... in a daze. This small space does not have to be exquisite, but to be able to isolate the hustle and bustle outside, be an outsider watching the excitement, and let your soul have a quiet place.
There are no former acquaintances, and when Jiazi starts anew, he will re-establish new relationships and acquaintances who belong to his new reincarnation, such a person is pure without interference, without interests. This kind of life is alive.
In such a space, our greatest luxury and most need to do is to "waste time". Reading quietly, drinking tea, silently looking at the scenery outside the window, and even looking at the noisy and bustling crowd outside the window, but the sound can not infiltrate your ears, stand quietly in front of the window, and let your thoughts stay in the quiet world. The longer this is done, the more time is wasted, and the more the vitality will flourish and lush in the heart.
Don't make yourself like a eunuch, always follow other people's thoughts in circles, always serve others, and be truly "willful", do whatever you want. Anyway, no one knows if it will rain tomorrow, but time will tell, give time a little time, slowly stand on the pile, and slowly grow ......oldIsn't it good?