After graduating from university, my roommate Dani and I stayed in Changsha.
Finding a job together, renting a house together, and experiencing the most difficult transition from campus to society together.
In this unaccompanied city, we are each other's family and support each other.
It seems that in a blink of an eye, everyone has reached the age of almost 30+.
It seems that we finally have some time and energy to think about feelings.
At the alumni reunion every three months, I met Liu Jun.
I really didn't expect that fate would come full circle and we would still be able to meet.
Liu Jun is one year older than me, I am a liberal arts major, he is a science major, and there is no intersection.
Before the winter break of my sophomore year, I went to the queue in advance to buy a train ticket home.
At that time, there were no online ticket sales.
Before the holidays, the railway station opened a temporary ticket window in the school to facilitate students to buy tickets.
At that time, it was difficult to get a ticket, so everyone would wait in line the night before, wearing the thickest cotton clothes.
That day, Liu Jun was ahead of me.
At half past eleven o'clock in the night, when he saw me stamping my feet from the cold, he said: "Classmate, if you believe me, give me your ID card and student ID, and I will buy it for you, you go back to the dormitory, it will be even colder in the second half of the night." ”
As he spoke, he showed me his ID card and student ID.
Sure enough, he is worthy of being a science and engineering man in the mechanical department, and he is very rigorous.
I couldn't help it, but I honestly handed over my ID card and student ID, and told Liu Jun the address of the dormitory.
The next day, he bought the ticket and sent it to me as soon as possible.
I wanted to invite him to dinner, but he said that he was not welcome, and said that he had to go back to the dormitory to catch up on sleep, and he felt like he was going to fall asleep standing now.
We'll leave it at that.
The campus was so big that we met three times in the playground and cafeteria.
Nodding and smiling at each other, it's kind of a greeting.
I remember one time, I happened to come out of the cafeteria with Dani, and I happened to meet Liu Jun walking into the cafeteria with a few of his classmates.
He saw me first and said, "Hello, Li Mijin." ”
I hurriedly responded: "Hello, senior brother, you also came to eat in person?" ”
He and his classmates laughed.
Then, we passed by.
At this time, Dani asked me, "Who is he?" How did you meet? Do you like him? ”
I laughed at the time and described to her the process of my acquaintance with Liu Jun.
Dani asked me, "Aren't you impressed by how handsome he looks?" ”
I said, "There are more handsome guys in our school, can I be moved?" ”
Then you didn't have the heart to introduce him to me, I fell in love with him at first sight, ah, how about it? Say yes or no? "Dani's and coquettish mode opens in place.
But I can't promise her, I know Liu Jun at most, except for a glance at the student ID that day, knowing that he is from the mechanical department, I don't know anything about the rest of his situation, ** people, whether he has a girlfriend and so on.
And so it passed.
On the eve of Liu Jun's graduation from university, we met again on campus.
It happened that day that their college was taking graduation photos on the playground.
As I passed by, I stopped to watch.
Liu Jun saw me, walked over, greeted me with a smile, and asked the photographer to take a photo for us.
Then, we said goodbye to each other.
But in fact, they both know very well that there will be no time in the future.
I just didn't expect that ten years later, we would see each other again.
Liu Jun's work was transferred to Changsha and he entered the alumni group for the first time.
His first meeting with the alumni, I didn't attend, but Dani went.
When she came back, she was so excited that she couldn't sleep, and kept telling me that Liu Jun is more mature and handsome than back then, and she said that she chased him.
And coquettishly asked for help: "You are also familiar with him, you must help me." ”
At that moment, I felt a little wave in my heart, but it was just a small wave.
Over the weekend, Dani invited Liu Jun and another alumnus to dinner, and called me to assist her.
Seeing me, Liu Jun made no secret of his surprise.
The first time I asked to add my WeChat, saying that he wanted to send me the group photo taken that year.
The moment I saw **, my heart moved: I was not photogenic at all, and when I stood beside him, I actually took the most satisfactory picture of my life.
However, thinking of his mission here, he hurriedly explained to Dani: "At that time, my senior brother was taking graduation photos, so I rubbed one of them. ”
Dani was obviously very sensitive, and she asked Liu Jun: "This group photo brother has always been in the mobile phone?" ”
Liu Jun said: "I heard you say that Mitsu is coming today, so I remade a photo." ”
Then, everyone sat down, and Dani naturally sat next to Liu Jun, and the alumni and I sat across from them.
Throughout the dinner, Dani had been taking care of Liu Jun.
The alumni and I tacitly cooperated and helped her make some ambiguous jokes.
Halfway through dinner, Dani asked me to go to the bathroom with me.
In the bathroom, she told me: "After dinner, you will take the initiative to ask the alumni for a walk and ask Liu Jun to send me back." "I agreed.
After a full meal and a full reminiscence, we got up and left.
I took the initiative to ask another alumnus: "I've eaten a little too much, let's go for a walk?" ”
The alumni who had also been greeted by Dani in advance certainly understood.
So, we handed over anything that sent Dani back to Liu Jun.
Liu Jun didn't refuse, called a car, and left with Dani.
Half an hour later, I received a WeChat message from Liu Jun: "Dani has been safely delivered to your residence, where are you?" I want to meet you. ”
My heart skipped a few beats.
To be honest, when we meet again after many years, Liu Jun does make me excited, but I am a step late, and Dani is moved before me.
No matter how reasonable it is, I can't show any more traces.
Thinking of this, I replied with a little coldness: "I just met today, and there will be more opportunities to meet in the future, but I am tired and want to go back to sleep." Goodbye! ”
What I never expected was that when I got home, what awaited me was Dani's interrogation.
What did you say to Liu Jun? ”
I was completely confused: "We have been together tonight, and you heard what I said to him." ”
So what's going on? With that, Dani held up her phone and asked me to see Liu Jun's chat history with her.
Hello Dani, I haven't seen you for many years, goodbye Mitsu, I'm still happy and excited, the future is uncertain back then, and I don't qualify. Now that the dust has settled, I'm ready to chase her, and I ask you to help me a lot, thank you, thank you. It is followed by three fist-hugging memes.
To be honest, seeing Liu Jun's straightforward expression, I was happy and excited in my heart.
But Dani's sad and angry expression didn't allow me to make such an expression.
Reason asked me to take out my mobile phone and show her the chat history between me and Liu Jun, which only contained what he had just sent to see him, and my refusal, and nothing else.
Dani looked at it seriously and said, "Why did you say goodbye?" Isn't that just giving him hope? Why don't you refuse, you know I like him. ”
I was so angry with her that I couldn't cry or laugh: "People didn't say anything to me, I refused when I came up, is it neurotic?" ”
Seeing me say this, Dani didn't dwell on it anymore, but her tone softened: "As soon as I saw him, I felt that he was the one in this life." You're my best friend, you have to help me. ”
Are you sure I can help? I asked Dani.
She replied quickly, "If you don't give him any hope, you will be the greatest help to me." ”
Then, Dani asked me to delete all of Liu Jun's *** on my phone in front of her
Although I thought it was a bit excessive, I did it anyway when I thought of my friendship with Dani for so many years.
I also think in my bones that it is not a glorious thing for two women to compete for a man.
However, I deleted Liu Jun on my side, but it didn't affect him to start pursuing me.
Two days later, he came directly to the door of the unit to wait for me and asked me to have dinner together.
I reasoned that there was something.
He asked me very directly, "Is it because of Dani?" Then I can tell you clearly that it is impossible for me to communicate with her, and I have made it clear to her. ”
But, it's a fact that Dani likes you. I'm embarrassed to be caught between you. After saying this, I ruthlessly left Liu Jun where I was and quickly got into the taxi.
After returning to the rental house, Dani seemed to know that Liu Jun had gone to find me, and asked me in an interrogative tone, "Is Liu Jun looking for you?" ”
I said like I did something wrong, "Hmm. ”
Dani didn't say anything more, but the atmosphere between us was close to freezing throughout the night.
At that moment, I realized that the appearance of Liu Jun made the unbreakable sisterhood between me and Dani more fragile than glass.
That night, Liu Jun called the name of another alumnus and added me to WeChat.
After I passed, he called me with a voice **.
As soon as I heard his voice, my instinctive reaction was to hang up**.
Then, Liu Jun sent me more than two dozen 60-second voices.
He talked about his experiences over the years, about his family, and even uploaded his personal savings and monthly income.
He said that ten years ago, the future was uncertain, and even if he liked you, he didn't have the courage to say it. Ten years later, fate has sent you to me again, and this time, I won't give up easily. So, I'll tell you what I've been through over the years, what kind of person I've become, and even how many relationships I've been in. I beg you, give me, and give yourself a chance, to live up to such a long-lost reunion.
Liu Jun also has a very heart-wrenching sentence: Don't give up on me because of Dani. In fact, from the moment she knew I liked you, your friendship couldn't go back. Even if you let me go, it doesn't mean she has a chance. Don't do it if you hurt two birds with one stone, you'll regret it.
If you say, ten years ago, I just had a good impression of Liu Jun.
Then ten years later, his maturity and firmness gave him a deep sense of security.
That night, I blocked Liu Jun for the sake of friendship without "righteousness".
What's the point of blocking him if I have his place in my heart?
After a sleepless night, the next morning, I did the most courageous thing I ever did.
I showed Dani all the chat logs that Liu Jun had sent me.
And directly expressed my attitude: "I don't want to quit, this kind of fulfillment of hypocrisy and hypocrisy is cowardly and hypocritical, and the result may not be good." ”
And just like that, the boat of friendship between me and Dani was completely overturned.
She moved out of our rental house on the same day and sent WeChat messages to everyone we knew about her.
I became the third child in her mouth, snatching people's love.
In the face of those WeChat and ** who are either persuading peace, or seeking solutions, or gossiping, I didn't make half a sentence of explanation.
Those who believe in me don't need to explain.
For those who don't believe me, explanations are more like quibbles in their eyes. Never mind.
Dani and I haven't seen each other since.
We once vowed to watch each other get married and have children together, so that the baby will become small, we will bask in the sun in the nursing home together in the future, take a taxi to eat KFC together, and flatter the handsome old man together.
Often when I eat new and beautiful restaurants, I think of Dani and want to share it with her as soon as possible.
However, I am already the one who lives on her blacklist.
And my relationship with Liu Jun is going very well.
A year later, we got married.
I didn't have a bridesmaid, and no one else was suitable except for Dani.
And she won't come.
I often talk to Liu Jun about the time I spent with Dani, and I didn't do anything wrong, but I still feel sorry.
But Liu Jun is very open-minded, he said: "Even if you don't get along with each other in old age, your feelings are still deeper than ordinary people." When each other needs it most, they will still go to the soup. But, hopefully, you will never face such a need. ”
At ten o'clock in the night on February 13, 2024, I suddenly received Dani's WeChat: In?
I happened to be looking at my phone and my first reaction was, "Dani, what's wrong?" Where are you? ”
She called me one by one and said to me in a cold voice: "Can you hope that I will be better?" ”
I ......Actually speechless.
I'm getting married tomorrow, but I'm missing a bridesmaid. Dani's tone was still stiff.
However, I heard some kind of reconciliation in this tone.
The groom is unknown, but the bride has been decided, which is the promise of our girlhood.
You're not going to ask me to be your bridesmaid, are you? I'm married, and I'm still a bridesmaid, isn't that appropriate? ”
Back then, you said yes to be each other's bridesmaids, you broke your promise, but I won't. Tomorrow at a certain hotel, at 11:38, do you love to come! ”
Of course I went.
It's just that I didn't bring Liu Jun.
I don't think Dani wants to see me with him.
I thought that when she saw me, Dani would still keep a straight face.
However, in the changing room, when I appeared, she pounced directly and gave me a hug with tears in her eyes.
While putting on makeup, she acted as a makeup artist, and told me without hesitation how she met the groom today and what kind of tacit understanding the two were.
She said: "It wasn't until I met him that I realized how ridiculous and selfish I was back then. Back then, my feelings for Liu Jun were not so much love as good feelings and pathological jealousy, thinking that I was the first to strike, and that I could have friendship kidnapping. However, love is not a piece of clothing, a fruit, it cannot be humble.
She said, "Mitsu, thank you for your honesty, frankness, directness, and bravery, for not letting me gain an inch, for not making me a shameful and pathetic person. ”
Dani's words made us both cry after putting on makeup.
That night, after the guests dispersed, Dani asked me to call Liu Jun.
Then, she went with the groom, me, and Liu Jun to the Qing Bar, where we used to date.
Dani and the groom took the lead in raising a glass to Liu Jun's dislove and my kindness.
Liu Jun and I drank it all.
A glass of wine releases the suspicions, saying that it is non-toxic, the wine is still that kind of wine, and the friends are still the friends of the past.
There are no old friends who resolve misunderstandings with maturity and stitch old feelings in a way of growth, which is more worthy of a drunken break.
That night, we carefully planned the time for each other to raise children, discussed which kindergarten to let them go to, what kind of names to give them, and if they were of the same sex, they would like the same person in the future, and how to give them the story ...... of their mothers
That night, we toasted several times.
I said, "Time is the testimony, the years are the name, long live the friendship." ”
Dani added: "Long live love. ”