I'm Xiaoqing, a 24-year-old young woman who has just graduated from university and is busy preparing for the civil service exam.
However, my life is not as peaceful as it seems. The shadow of my family looms over me and I often feel suffocated.
Every day, I watched my mother in a wheelchair, unable to take care of herself, and my heart was full of helplessness and helplessness.
Dad was silent, going out early and returning late every day, as if escaping the family's predicament.
The burden fell on my grandmother, who worked tirelessly to take care of her mother despite her old age.
The atmosphere at home is always oppressive and heavy. I don't understand why Mom was so indifferent to Grandma and why Dad chose to be silent.
I often asked my dad why he didn't care about his mother and why he tolerated her attitude.
However, my dad always answered me in an indifferent tone, which made me feel even more confused and helpless.
One day, I decided to talk to my grandmother. In my grandmother's room, I saw her dark wrinkles and kind eyes, and a warmth welled up in my heart.
Grandma, I want to ask you something. I whispered.
Grandma smiled and looked at me gently, "Say it, kid." ”
I sat on the edge of her bed and began to talk about the doubts in my heart. Grandma listened quietly, a hint of sadness flashing in her eyes.
Xiaoqing, maybe you should know something. Grandma said slowly, "Your mother hasn't always been like this. ”
I looked at my grandmother puzzled, and a wave of doubt welled up in my heart.
Mom used to be a healthy and happy person. "However, an accident changed everything. ”
I was stunned, unable to believe my ears. Grandma went on to tell about her mother's youth and the terrible event that caused her to become disabled.
It turned out that when my mother first married my father, she was a normal person, but my mother's family was relatively poor, and my grandmother always looked down on my mother and targeted her everywhere.
Later, when my mother was pregnant, my mother-in-law also asked my mother to work in the fields, saying that women work more and have the strength to give birth to children.
My mother also listened to my grandmother, but an accidental fall also caused my mother to be paralyzed in the lower half of her body, and my mother went to work in the fields at that time.
When I passed by a roadside, I accidentally slipped and fell, and the road was 3 meters away from the ground below.
At that time, my mother was bleeding profusely, and then the fetus was held, but she lost sensation in the lower half of her body forever. My mother planted the seeds of hatred because of this.
I felt a surge of anger and sadness welling up in my heart, as if I had been stabbed in the heart by a sharp knife.
Grandma, is all this true? I asked, trembling.
Grandma patted my hand gently, her eyes full of understanding and love, "Yes, child. It's a secret in our family and a burden we've been carrying. ”
I was silent, filled with contradictions and confusion. It's all too hard to accept.
The secrets of my family made me feel helpless and hopeless, and I didn't know how to face and deal with it all.
There was a hint of helplessness in Grandma's eyes, and she took a deep breath, as if trying to keep herself calm.
Child, it's all grandma's fault, don't blame your mother. Grandma said softly, "She's been in too much pain." ”
I nodded, tears blurring my vision. I didn't know what to do, how to deal with the family's past.
Everything in front of me made me feel helpless and lost, and I needed time to understand and accept it all.
Mother's disability turned out to be a tragedy within the family. After listening to my grandmother's story, my heart was immersed in a deep sadness.
I can't imagine what a beautiful and hopeful life my mother had when she was young, and all of this came to an abrupt end because of an accident.
I tried to digest it all, trying to find the answer.
However, my grandmother passed away within a few months, and at my grandmother's funeral, I saw my mother's indifferent expression, and I felt the pain and struggle in her heart.
I wanted to walk over, hold her, and tell her everything was going to be okay. However, I was bound by an invisible force that prevented me from taking a single step.
At night, I lay in bed and listened to the wind outside the window, and I had a lot of thoughts. I heard my mom crying in her room, and I felt the loneliness and helplessness in her heart.
Then I heard my mother say to herself: I don't blame my grandmother for a long time, but after so many years, I don't know how to get along with my grandmother.
After hearing this, I immediately walked into my mother's room, and I hugged my mother tightly.
Mom, I love you. I whispered, "I know you've been in so much pain, and I know it's not your fault. ”
My voice echoed in the silent night sky, and I didn't know if I could reach the depths of my mother's heart.
All I know is that no matter what happens, I will always be there for her, and no matter how difficult the road ahead is, we will face it together until the last moment.