Finally, I'm going to be someone else's wife.
I lost you, but I didn't lose the person who loved you.
When she was sixteen years old, she fell in love with a boy, he was not tall, he was white and clean with a pair of black-framed glasses, he liked to play basketball, played the guitar, and sang with excellent grades, and he was the darling of the stars. She is just an ordinary girl, fun-loving, laughing, and cheerful.
In fact, it was normal to fall in love at that time, and it was not a big deal for a woman to chase a man, and she was not the kind of introverted girl. But in the matter of seeing him alone, she was like a shy little girl. Hiding this feeling deep in her heart, no one told her, she felt that sometimes she was very happy when she looked at it from afar.
Usually after school, she would take a few more laps around the playground on the pretext of jogging to exercise her body, just to be able to watch him play basketball. Like all little girls, she secretly wrote down what she wanted to say to him on paper, folded it into a lucky star and put it in a large glass bottle, and every day she looked at the glass bottle and colorful stars shining in the sun, she already felt very happy and satisfied. She felt that the girl who could walk side by side with him should be a girl with long hair and a shawl, gentle and considerate, eyes like water, and a smile that could melt everyone with a smile from time to time. But she wasn't, she only had short ear-length hair, she smiled big, and her eyes immediately narrowed so that there was only one slit left. When she was nineteen years old, she was admitted to an ordinary university, and he was admitted to a major university in another city. She takes the train to a new city, getting farther and farther away from the town she grew up in, and the bits and pieces with him come to mind.
College life is not hard, of course, except for the military training period, the rest of the time she and her roommates laugh and play, full of fun. In the evening, someone was making ** porridge with her boyfriend, and she pressed the familiar number many times, but in the end she didn't dial it out, so she could only silently reminisce about her memories in her heart. At that time, she understood what it meant to miss, what it meant to be concerned, and what it meant to be unable to let go. Inexplicably, tears fell. Because between them, it is only about her, not about him. College life is not long, it is not short, and she has no shortage of suitors who are cheerful and lively, but she politely refuses. She wanted to be a better version of herself and appear in front of him. Someone gossiped and asked her why she rejected everyone, and she could only answer vaguely: "Studying, of course, studies are more important!" Indeed, during the four years of college, she spent almost all of her time in the library, except for essential activities. She has already set goals for herself, one is to become what she wants, with long hair and waist, gentle and graceful; The second is to be admitted to the graduate school of his university and reappear in front of him. When she returned to her hometown and went to the class reunion, her hair was black and bright, her skin was white and beautiful, and she spoke softly. Soon, he also appeared in front of everyone, holding a gentle and charming woman in his hand, and someone jokingly coaxed: "Yo, who is this?" He smiled and said, "Didn't you say that you can bring your family?" She lowered her eyes, carefully hiding the loss in her eyes. It turned out that she was a step late, and he already had a girlfriend. She could only walk over to greet him like an ordinary classmate, and said lightly, "Long time no see!" When she was twenty-two years old, she was admitted to the graduate school of the university where she was studying as she wished, however, he did not continue his graduate studies and entered a large enterprise in the top 500 companies in the country. And what about her, she continued to be a *** and started a monotonous graduate life. Of course, she is still single. When I returned home during the winter vacation that year, the seven aunts and eight aunts sat together for Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, and they all gossiped and asked her: "Do you have a boyfriend?" When to take it home and see it?
She could only lower her head and drink the soup, and said with a smile: "Graduate school is heavy, I can't just read books, how can I have time to have a boyfriend!" ”
That night, her mother pulled her and said earnestly: "Child, you like to read, your mother is proud of you, and she won't stop you, but it's not good to just read, you still have to get married and have children!" Don't be so arrogant, and try to ...... everywhere if you have a good guy”
It turned out that her mother thought she had a high vision.
In fact, she just pretended to be someone else in her heart, and she didn't want to remove him from her heart until the last moment.
She crouched on her desk, looking at the seven glass bottles on the table, full of the love she had hidden in her heart, flickering through the light.
At the age of 25, with a master's degree from a major university and rich internship experience, she successfully entered a multinational company and got a good position.
At that time, he had already set up his own business, became the boss, and his business was booming, and in just three years, he became a promising young man in the city, and was engaged to the daughter of the deputy mayor.
She was invited to his wedding, listening to the praise of the two of them for their talent and beauty, and she applauded while laughing. She slapped so hard that even her palms hurt.
The two people on the stage looked at each other and smiled from time to time, all the affection and sweetness jumped into their eyebrows, seeing him happy, she was also happy for him, and felt that she had also embraced happiness. At the same time, she also has a pain in her heart, as if the slim thought that she has insisted on since she was a child is about to be extinguished.
It's also time to pluck him out of my heart.
When she was twenty-six years old, she married a colleague in the company, and the two fell in love in less than half a year from marriage, because the family was tight, in her opinion, if that person was not him, it would be the same for anyone, so she didn't resist much, and naturally handed herself over to a person whose parents were satisfied.
Their wedding was simple, inviting only close friends and family. She drank a lot of alcohol that night, but her mind was clear, and she vomited so much in the bathroom that she wanted to vomit her stomach. She looked at herself in the mirror, her makeup was spent, her eyes were full of tears, since she was a child, she felt that it was a very bitter thing to have a crush on him for the first time, and it was unspeakably miserable.
Then, she wiped away her tears, touched up her makeup, straightened her back, and walked out with a smile raised, and with each step she felt like a mermaid walking on land, with a piercing pain.
That morning, in tears, she folded a lucky star that read, "Finally, I'm going to be someone else's wife." I lost you, but I didn't lose the person who loved you. But, no matter what, I still love you. ”
When she was thirty-six years old, she met an old classmate, and when she chatted, she learned that his company was bankrupt and his wife was separated, which was like a bombshell, destroying her peaceful and stable life. Classmates said that he often hung out in bars and relied on alcohol to numb himself.
It took her a lot of effort to find him, and looking at the drunken man under the laser light, she didn't ask much, but took out the passbook from her bag, on which were all her belongings. She handed it over calmly and looked at him motionlessly: "I don't know business, only this little money." You can use it, and there is still a chance. ”
His eyes were drunk, he took the passbook, and when he saw the row of numbers on it, he was stunned. During this time, he saw all the warmth and coldness of people. After all, there are too many people in this world who are icing on the cake, and too few people who are in the snow. He looked at her in disbelief and couldn't say a word.
She just smiled indifferently: "Friend, you can help." ”
When her husband knew that she had given more than one million of her family to a stranger for no reason, he scolded her with a slap in the face, and yelled: "Is it a cuckold for me?" Isn't it? ”
But she endured the burning pain on her face, did not deny it, and responded to her husband's monstrous anger with silence.
He is the person she has loved all her life, although she has never admitted it to anyone, but when others question her, she will never deny it, even if this person is her husband.
When she was forty years old, his company re-developed and became one of the top 10 companies in the city. One night, he drove to the downstairs of her house in a luxury car, entered her house with a lawyer and a contract, pushed a share transfer contract in front of her, and said, "You deserve this 10 percent of the shares." ”
Her husband smiled and moved the contract to him, picked up the pen to sign, and said: "It is said that you are in trouble for your friend, and we should lend a helping hand!" ”
It was only after the greetings that he got up to leave that she said, "Stay for dinner!" ”
He looked at her, paused, and nodded.
When she brought the food out of the kitchen, one by one was his favorite food, he looked at her in surprise, only to see her eyes down, and her expression naturally sandwiched the vegetables into the child's bowl. Over the years, she has become someone else's wife first, and then the mother of her children, and at this moment in front of him, she has been able to hide the turmoil in her heart very well, and her face is calm and light. He was relieved, feeling that he was thinking too much. When he was ready to leave with dinner, he took out an invitation from his briefcase and handed it over, saying, "When the time comes, I hope you can come together." She just thought he had some ordinary banquet, and didn't care, and put it on the sofa casually. After sending him away, when she was cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks at home, her husband said teasingly in the living room: "This man, as long as you have money, you can't do without the word 'merry', your old classmate is now doing a good business, and the beauty is in her arms, you see, no, the invitation to the wedding banquet has been sent again." Suddenly, her hand trembled, and a pain came from her fingertips, and she was accidentally scratched while cleaning the kitchen knife. Blood kept flowing from her fingertips, and she hurriedly put it under the faucet to wash it, and the blood overflowed the sink, and the crimson color filled her eyes. She suddenly remembered the woman who held his hand fifteen years ago with a happy face, and her Chinese-style wedding robe was this color, red and full of joy. When she was fifty-five years old, she suddenly fell into a coma while doing housework, and her husband hurriedly took her to the hospital. After all, she was a smart person, and she understood at a glance, so she hurriedly called the doctor and asked calmly: "What disease do I have, and how long can I live?" ”
Liver cancer is advanced, three or four months. The doctor looked at her and said with a look of regret. ** It's all written like this, she didn't expect such a bridge to fall on herself, it's really life like a play, and a play like life. She didn't want to bury the last period of her life in the cold hospital on all sides, and her family couldn't help her, so she had to take her home. After she returned, she began to handle the funeral for herself, telling her husband that she wanted a warm funeral without too much grief. Many relatives and friends rushed to see her for the last time. The last person to come to see her was him. She was full of joy and contentment to be sent off by him at the end of her life. Probably when you love someone, it's so unproductive.,As long as you can be satisfied with a little thing.。 As soon as he came, she, who had already begun to become delirious, suddenly came to her senses, as if she had returned to the light. When she saw that he was holding a lucky star in his hand, she pointed at it in surprise and asked, "Is this for me?" He was stunned, nodded hurriedly, and said, "Yes, yes, do you like it?" "This is actually someone at the gate of the hospital just now, and he gave some money to someone else, but who knew that he accidentally hit it, which was in line with her heart. She took the lucky star in his hand and clutched it to her chest, only to feel a warm current in her chest, gushing out all over her limbs. He sat aside to talk to her, saw that there were still a bunch of lucky stars on the table, and asked with a smile, "Do you like stars?" "yes......She smiled shallowly. Actually, she prefers the person sitting in front of her. She paused before she said to him: "There are thirty-nine bottles of Lucky Stars in my old room, and when I die, can you make them become the same as me?" ”
He nodded again and again, and before she could open her mouth, she had already closed her eyes with a faint smile on her face.
On the day of her cremation, he sprinkled the thirty-nine bottles of lucky stars on her in accordance with her deathbed entrustment, and pushed the cremator together. Two lucky stars had accidentally fallen to the ground, and when he was about to leave, he saw them, picked them up and put them in his pocket, so that he would keep them as memento.
By the time he was seventy years old, he had become a less conscious old man, sitting in a rocking chair in the yard all day. For some reason, he would think of her from time to time, and whenever it did, a different emotion would well-spring up in his heart.
Maybe in his opinion, he didn't have such a deep friendship with her, but when everyone abandoned him, she stood up and became his lifeline; Maybe it's because she remembers his favorite dishes; Maybe it was because she looked at him ...... eyes
In short, she has also become a special existence in his heart.
One evening, the four-year-old grandson came to play in the yard and suddenly ran to him with a small note: "Grandpa, grandpa, there are words on this, what is written?" ”
He leaned on his reading glasses resting on the bridge of his nose, and what jumped into his eyes was a passage:
Nan, I haven't seen you for a long time, you're still so handsome, the girl holding your hand is very beautiful, I'm still not as good as the people around you. ”
He frowned and asked his grandson, "Where did this come from?" "
The lucky star on your table, I took it open and saw that there were words on it! Grandpa, what did you write? The little grandson asked innocently.
What about the other one? He asked, his lips trembling, trembling.
Here. The little grandson handed over a white star, and he could faintly see that it used to be blue. He trembled and unwrapped it, and it read: "Nan, I know, I love you and it has nothing to do with you. However, it is not a kind of happiness to have someone who allows him to love without hesitation. So, thank you for being in my life. ""Nan, I know, I love you and it has nothing to do with you. However, it is not a kind of happiness to have someone who allows him to love without hesitation. He read word by word, repeating it many times, and tears blurred his eyes.