Mu Xin, a man who endures the snow in the dark. He is famous for his beautiful verses, such as: "Once upon a time, the sun became slow, and the carriages, horses, and mail were slow, and there was only enough to love one person in one life."
No one knows his suffering, he has experienced the pain of "my family is ruined, and my children and grandchildren are cut off", but in love, he is "bright and bright", but he can't find his own village.
He was a man of letters and a painter, and in general he was an artist. So, what kind of life did this artist Mu Xin experience?
Sun Pu, also known as Mu Xin, was born in 1927 in Wuzhen, Zhejiang Province, to a wealthy family. He has lived a life of fine clothes and food since he was a child, and has never had the experience of going to the street to buy things on his own.
However, books made him understand that the world is so big that there are no surprises, and rich experiences are what he yearns for the most. He realizes that his life will be uneventful if he doesn't get out of the house, so he decides to go for a ride.
Mu Xin left home to study when he was young, and although he emerged in the Hangzhou Art Exhibition, he failed to become a painter due to the factors of the times. He turned into a secondary school teacher, and although he had a small achievement, his heart was full of loss and confusion.
He likened himself to a bird trapped in a cage, without freedom and pursuit.
Mu Xin was a talented young man who resolutely quit his job at the age of 24, hired someone to pick up books, a record player and painting tools, and came to live in his father's villa halfway up the Mogan Mountains.
He decided to shut down all the muffleness of life and devote himself to the world of reading, writing, and drawing. On his desk is a quote from Flaubert: "Art is vast enough to possess a man." ”
He used this sentence as a motivation to devote himself to art. He believed that a warm, stable, and abundant life was harmful to his artistic creation, so he decided to live a bleak, lonely, and monotonous life.
For a vulgar life, he doesn't want to die. His determination and dedication show his love and pursuit of art.
In 02, Mu Xin left Moganshan, but life began to bring him one blow after another. His family business was scattered, and even his mother's "Sun Family Garden" had no choice but to hand it over, hoping to become an ordinary person.
In the next 22 years, Mu Xin suffered 3 times of loss of freedom - he was wrongfully imprisoned, spent the darkest 29 years of his life, and was imprisoned for half a year; Because he offended the student Minte, he was framed for plotting smuggling, and half a year later, although there was no evidence, Mu Xin was released.
However, just as he was about to regain his freedom, the jailer suddenly told him: "Your mother has died. Mu Xin was so grief-stricken that he couldn't even wake up from crying.
He questioned the jailer: "Why can't you wait until I'm out to tell me the news?" ”
was unjustly imprisoned twice, and Mu Xin endured great hardships. He spent his 40th birthday in prison and was punished for telling the truth. At that time, a high-ranking Chen Boda ridiculed the German poet Heine at the meeting, and Mu Xin couldn't help but stand up and accuse: "You also scream at Heine!" ”
After that, Mu Xin spent one and a half years of lonely time in prison, he memorized and sang in his heart every day, drew the keys of the piano with white paper, and played Mozart and ** silently
However, even in a difficult situation, Mu Xin never gave up hope in life. One day, he was allowed to go to the patio to let out the wind, and when he heard the sound of trams and people outside, he felt very calm and satisfied: "I am full of hope for life. ”
One night, Mu Xin was surprised to find that he could get out of the crack in the cage! So, he bravely got out, but he thought that his home was ruined and there was nowhere to go, so he returned to the cage.
This story is full of sadness and bizarreness, and Mu Xin is so thin in prison that he is only skinny and bones. However, even in the face of such a predicament, Mu Xin did not give up his artistic dream.
He swept the toilet during the day, used blankets as curtains late at night, and used his own unique way and the cheapest pigments to create 33 shocking and shocking masterpieces of ink painting.
Early morning, I sat quietly by the window, the sun shining through the curtains and on the floor, the air was fresh and vibrant. At this moment, I deeply felt the beauty of life, simple and pure.
This is the charm of the early morning, peaceful and serene.
The heart is as simple as Jane, the clouds are light and the wind is clear".
The spring breeze is proud, and the mountain is still there.
In "Half a Thousand Weak Waters", Mu Xin suffered a grievance for the third time and was imprisoned for four months, when he was 44 years old. Despite his difficult situation, he was given the opportunity to write.
Someone asked him to write an examination, but Mu Xin cleverly took advantage of the opportunity and began his creation with pen and paper. "
Prison Notes: He spoke to historical figures in the form of stream-of-consciousness prose, writing 66 pages sewn into the padded jacket. "I went to hell with Shakespeare, Lermontov and others," he said. ”
The words are the size of millet grains, and the front and back are fully loaded, totaling 650,000 words. These words are like "millet grains" that redeemed him and helped him get through the difficult years.
Word by word, save yourself. ”
Mu Xin's life in the late 0370s and early 80s was in full swing, he was a professor at Shanghai Jiao Tong University, the chief designer of the Shanghai Arts and Crafts Center, the secretary general of the Shanghai Arts and Crafts Association and the editor-in-chief of the magazine "Beautify Life".
However, he made a bold decision: to give up his existing honor and status, to study in the United States, hoping to achieve greater things there, and then put it down.
In 1982, at the age of 56, Mu Xin arrived in New York, where he lived in a slum and made a living from painting. During this difficult time, his days were filled with poverty and hardship, but his heart was full of hope and yearning for the future.
He believes that as long as he does not give up, he will be able to get out of the predicament and realize his dream.
Despite the hardships of life, Mu Xin still maintains a polite and polite demeanor, even if he just goes to work, he must dress neatly. However, Chen Danqing said that he regretted to see that even Chinese artists in their fifties, not many people are willing or dare to go out alone and start over.
Their journey abroad was full of hardships.
Mu Xin not only loves painting, but also has a strong interest in literature. His day is always immersed in writing, whether it's in the subway, waiting at the bus stop, or in the kitchen.
He writes without a teacher, without friends, without a lover to accompany him, and is completely independent. He often writes late into the night in the café, and he doesn't stop his pen even when the clerk has a straight face.
Through constantly drawing and writing, Mu Xin gradually matured in art and literature. In 1984, he held a solo exhibition in New York, which was widely acclaimed. In 1986, he officially published his first book, A Collection of Essays, and thus ushered in the beginning of his life"Fame period"。
1.Mu Xin and Chen Danqing became friends in the 80s of the last century, Chen Danqing is a painter, writer, and literary critic, 26 years younger than Mu Xin. The two have frequent interactions, and they talk about it.
Chen Danqing didn't want to enjoy this strange fate alone, so he took the artist he knew to find Mu Xin to open a literature and art class. Mu Xin began to teach "History of World Literature" for five years.
2.In the 80s of the last century, Chen Danqing came to visit Mu Xin and became friends with him. Chen Danqing is a painter, writer, and literary critic, 26 years younger than Mu Xin.
The two have a close relationship, and they talk about it. Chen Danqing didn't want to enjoy this strange fate alone, so he took the artist he knew to find Mu Xin to open a literary class. So, Mu Xin began to teach "History of World Literature", which lasted for 5 years.
3.Chen Danqing visited Mu Xin in the early 80s of the last century, and the two became friends. Chen Danqing is a painter, writer, and literary critic, 26 years younger than Mu Xin.
The two have frequent interactions, and they talk about it. Chen Danqing didn't want to enjoy this strange fate alone, so he took the artist he knew to find Mu Xin to open a literature and art class. Mu Xin began to teach "History of World Literature" for five years.
4.In the early 80s of last century, Chen Danqing came to visit Mu Xin, and the two became friends. Chen Danqing is a painter, writer, and literary critic, 26 years younger than Mu Xin.
The two have a close relationship, and they talk about it. Chen Danqing didn't want to enjoy this strange fate alone, so he took the artist he knew to find Mu Xin to open a literary class. So, Mu Xin began to teach "History of World Literature", which lasted for 5 years.
1.Mu Xin's literature class, from January 15, 1989 to January 9, 1994, lasted five years, crossing the boundaries of time and space.
Each participant volunteered to provide their own living room, providing an ample environment for Mu Xin. His classes are picturesque, from Greece to the pre-Qin period, from India to Persia, to Japan to South America, as if flying around the earth, through medieval time and space, and even in the universe, showing the spirit of literary Hegel.
2.Mu Xin's literature class lasted for five years, from January 15, 1989 to the last class on January 9, 1994, and each participant took turns to provide their own living room.
From Greece to the pre-Qin period, from India to Persia, and from Japan to South America, he crossed the boundaries of time and space, and finally stopped in the universe for a while, showing the momentum of literary Hegel.
Mu Xin's lecture style is relaxed, as if chatting and talking about home, and his every sentence is full of wisdom and inspiration. 3.From the beginning of the class on January 15, 1989 to the last class on January 9, 1994, Mu Xin's literature class lasted for five years, and each class was held in a different living room.
From Greece to the pre-Qin period, from India to Persia, and from Japan to South America, he transcended the limitations of time and space, and finally stopped in the universe for a while, showing the spirit of literary Hegel.
Chen Danqing memorized 5 thick lecture notes, a total of 85 lectures, more than 400,000 words, and recorded Mu Xin's wonderful narration.
May was coming to an end, a continuous bright light illuminated every road, every shade was stagnant in the evening with the red-breasted birds chirping on the wires, the sky stretched and darkened, it was slowly, very slowly, the white houses among the green leaves were illuminated by the setting sun, the lawns were soaked, and blue and purple irises were still sprinkled, everything was fantastic, all agreed to be clear, kind, and graceful in the dark.
I don't know what to forgive, but I feel that everything in the world can be forgiven. "I don't know what to forgive, but I sincerely feel that everything in the world can be forgiven", this is the detachment that only those who have experienced hardships and hardships can have.
At the beginning of 1994, Mu Xin finished his last class, and the students held a "graduation" party for him. That day, although the 67-year-old Mu Xin was already an old relative from afar, he sat quietly with a gentle smile.
At the party, everyone gave speeches one after another, and Mu Xin took the stage in the finale, quoting Valéry's poem at the beginning, saying: "Are you finally shining? The end of my journey. ”
In 052001, Mu Xin's works began to be published in Chinese mainland, including "The Past of Plain Shoes", "My **", "Yuli's Banquet" and so on.
His poems have been acclaimed and the most prolific. For example, his song "My **" was created in 1990, which makes people feel very amazing: "Especially in the quiet night, my ** is like heavy snow, decorated with branches, window lattices, lip vortices, chest ports, ravines, plains and distant mountains, and the road and road are covered by my **, because the next day there will be more snow falling one after another, quieter and grander."
It's mine**. Someone interpreted the poem and said: "'I' is an endless impulse of life, tumbling and surging in the whole world, so it is a beautiful poem to have adjectives or verbs that are numerous, large, full, and overcompense, and to place 'movement' in 'stillness'." ”
Another of his poems, "Sent Back to Bordeaux", written in 1988, ends with a striking conclusion: "I think it is a matter of conscience not to eat meat on a fish-eating day. ”
Overnight, Mu Xin's books filled the shelves of major bookstores across the country. However, after the work was published, criticism also came. Some admired him, such as Gao Xiaosong and Liang Wendao, but others criticized him, such as Yu Hua, who bluntly stated: "Mu Xin's works seem to be too petty, pretentious, and lacking in human touch. ”
There is also Zhu Wei, who believes that Mu Xin's works have no value to the current Chinese literary scene, but only represent a certain culture of the past. However, these criticisms are not important to Mu Xin.
He once wrote a poem: "Why bother, why make the cabbage happy." ”
In 062006, 79-year-old Mu Xin responded to the warm invitation of his hometown and returned to Wuzhen, where he longed for him. In a mansion of nearly 1,000 square meters, he spent five years of good old age with two housekeepers, a cleaning aunt, a cook, a security guard, and his two dogs, Maria and Sasha.
Chen Danqing once said of Mu Xin: "No one respects him for most of his life, and all his balance is based on self-esteem." However, this warm day came to an end on December 21, 2011, when Mu Xin left us at the age of 84.
When Mu Xin was dying, Chen Danqing was always by his side. Mu Xin said nonsense: "What about pirates! Are they gone? Chen Danqing thought to himself, Mr. may be a little confused.
He leaned down gently to Mu Xin, as if comforting a child, and said gently, "Okay, it's all gone." Mu Xin listened, his expression was still a little puzzled: "Then, you help me tell them, don't arrest me, it will be very painful to be imprisoned alone." ”
Soon after, Mu Xin left this world. The last sentence he left behind was a couplet: "This heart is fame-like, and my private wish has been fulfilled." The other side is unparalleled, and the hasty pen sighs that the ambition is not rewarded. ”
His writings were published, fulfilling his private wishes; But he still has unfinished ambitions, and he can only sigh.
A year later, Mu Xin passed away, and Chen Danqing sorted out his five lecture notes and successfully published "Literary Memoirs". The efforts of Chen Danqing and others have made Mu Xin's influence not disappear because of his departure.
However, some people question it, thinking that Mu Xin is just a packaged literary master. Although the "Literary Memoirs" is a little rough in some places, Mu Xin's spirituality and genius, as well as his works that are known for his life experience, make people fascinated.
As for why he read Mu Xin, Chen Danqing's answer was concise: "If you want, give it a try." Reading Mu Xin is like lighting a lamp for an hour, although it will dim again after that, but the moment you read him, you will feel better than usual. ”
In the shadows and adversities of life, Mu Xin insisted on painting and writing, and became a believer in art and a Robinson in literature. He never married, he was alone, he endured hardships, he was lonely and adrift, but his passion was always dedicated to art.
Mu Xin's lesson is that actions are more important than words. He persevered in writing and painting whenever and wherever he was, and thus became a true artist. He whispered, "Are you finally shining?"
At the end of my journey. "This is Mu Xin's story, which teaches us a lesson about life, freedom and art. "