176, the joy of winning awards.
In the afternoon, I received the courier and opened it to see that it was two award certificates. My essay "Thoughts on the Canal" won two awards at the same time: one was the second prize of the "Canal Love, Hometown Dream" essay on the theme of the Grand Canal, and the other was the "Internet Popularity Award". Previously, he had received two awards, 1,000 yuan and 500 yuan respectively. The award certificate only arrived today, which is long overdue.
The two prizes are not big, and the prize money is also very small, so there is nothing to worry about;But for me, the meaning is not trivial. It is a reaction of Black 2021, and it is also a good omen and a confirmation of hope for 2022. 2021 has been terrible for me, like a black nightmare that haunts me all the time;And this award is a strong light that pierces the black iron curtain and makes me see the light of hope. On the occasion of saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new, the arrival of the award certificate has inlaid this light with a brilliant gold edge. This is just from a metaphysical point of view;From a metaphysical point of view, the award certificate satisfies the vanity of the world;The bonus of 1500 yuan is not much, although there is little flea meat, after all, it is also meat, and it should not be a problem to gather a few fox friends and dog friends to rub it (of course, you can't eat and drink).
In fact, I still have a goal in mind for winning the award, that is, the safety and health of me and my family. Having these two points is the greatest reward in my life. My daughter astrologs for me and says I'm a Taurus, and the year 2022 starts transiting. Let's hope she's right. Amen!
177, my "leader".
The thirteenth day of the lunar month is the birthday of the girl.
In the hearts of parents, children are children who will never grow up;And in my heart, my daughter has always been a little girl who is holding two chubby little feet in the palm of my hand. It should only be a recent year to find out that she has become an adult girl.
In the past few years, my daughter has to take her parents to travel at home and abroad every year. She arranged everything, and my wife and I were like fools, just follow along. For many years, it was I who was traveling with them, and suddenly it became a trip with my daughter, and this change of role made me really a little lost, but I got used to it after a long time. Especially since I got sick this year, I have become a puppet through and through, being held by the hands of my children, and I can turn around as I want. During the operation, the son and daughter worked together; After the operation, my son was far away in Shanghai, and in addition to work, he also had a small family waiting for him to support, and his "management" was a bit overwhelming. And my daughter is in Beijing, which is closer to home, and she is "operating" all my various chemotherapy treatments, re-examinations, etc. Consultation, negotiation, runway, decision-making, everything is operating in an orderly manner, and this little man is like a confident general, commanding thousands of troops and horses to rush left and right on the battlefield. At this time, I really realized that the little girl who was holding two little feet in circles by my palm had grown a mature big girl; And I am gradually shrinking and degrading, becoming an "old child", powerless, incompetent, helpless, and it is difficult to move forward without the help of others. At this time, my daughter became the "backbone", and I was willing to be a brick for my daughter, and let her move it. No way, the laws of nature. My son was far away, and with the epidemic restrictions, it was very inconvenient to go back and forth, and I stopped me several times when I wanted to come back. Even once I took the high-speed train and arrived in Suzhou, I was ordered to get off the train and return; Only she is close at hand, and everything must be done by her. Now, she is my crutch, and I can't move an inch without her.
It is said that the daughter is the intimate little padded jacket of her parents, which is true. The little padded jacket is buttoned, the collar and sleeves are locked, and the wind and cold can withstand it. Note that the key is to lock the collar and sleeves. Why? Leader leader, the little padded jacket is now my "spiritual leader". The leader waved his hand, and I came!
Happy birthday to my leader!
178, Preface to "The Genealogy of the Sun Family".
Xiao Tai's note: Since the illness, he has been physically and mentally exhausted, his energy has failed, and his inspiration has faded. A few days ago, Sun Huidi edited the family tree, held it to me, and asked for a preface. Although he couldn't catch it, Nai Sun Hui's brother was affectionate and didn't dare to resign, but he tried his best to do it, and graffiti was scribbled into the following text).
The country has a history, the city has aspirations, and the family has a genealogy. Learning from the past and knowing the present, chasing the far and the end is the foundation of human ethics. Therefore, the family tree is repaired, the lineage is examined, and the clan branch is recognized to advocate civilization.
The Sun family is a prominent family in history. Wei Wu Gongzi Hui Sun served as the secretary of the country, and his grandson was named Sun Yi by his grandfather, and he was the ancestor of Ji's surname Sun. Sun Wu's "The Art of War" is called the "Saint of War"; Sun Bin is good at military affairs and has repeatedly created legends; Sun Simiao wrote "A Thousand Golden Prescriptions", famous as the king of medicine; Sun Yang Xiangma, Bole is said to know people; Sun Guoting's "Book Pedigree" has been passed down from generation to generation; Sun Yat-sen's Xinhai Revolution is ...... in the annals of historySun's celebrities are as bright as a galaxy.
The Sun family is prosperous and has a long melon. To the Botou branch, the ancestor Zhuying Gong moved from Shandong to Zhili Jiaoheyi (now Botou City) Wang Xiaoying Village, reclamation and development, multiplication, and the clan industry gradually prospered. The stars have changed, history has been spreading, after wars and wars, cultural catastrophes, genealogies have been lost, lineages are unknown, tribes are chaotic, and some people are separated from each other.
In order to promote righteousness and revive the family, the Sun clan advocated rebuilding the family tree. Sun Huijun was publicly recommended to lead the renewal.
Sun Huijun, smart and easy to read, has achieved academic success, works in the Botou Youth Activity Center, ranks as branch secretary and executive deputy director, and has outstanding political achievements. However, Tengda did not forget Sangzi, his family and country were in one chest, and he was in charge of the renewal of the family tree in addition to his business trip. Search for information, visit clues, trace the source, remove the false and retain the true. After a long night, Zen exhausted, lasted three years, and finally became a volume of "Sun's Family Tree".
Throughout the "Sun Family Tree", the rules are clear, the tribes are clear, the relatives are accurate, and the text is concise. The face of a family is clear in the eyes, and the good construction of the honest spectrum book is also. Such an achievement is the result of the efforts of Sun Jun and others, and its merits are immeasurable, and everyone is impressed.
Yu and Sun Huijun have a friendship of colleagues. On the occasion of the publication of the "Family Tree", it is held to show me, and the preface is made. Yu Bucai, panicked for a long time; Only for friendship, dare not die? So it is not shallow, the text is as above, and the talk is in the preface.
Written by Li Hongmian, a native of Yi.
January 15, 2022.
179, don't make people greasy.
In the morning, Brother Zhenru and Brother Lijing came to see me, and at noon, they asked me to go out to eat together, but I resolutely refused. There is no other reason: not to make people tired.
Not to be greasy and crooked is my principle of being a man and a lifelong insistence. It's one of the ways to maintain your self-esteem and earn the respect of others. Brother Zhenru and Brother Lijing are both close friends, and according to my current situation, there should be no problem going out for a meal; They won't dislike it. However, people do not dislike it, which is not a reason for them to give up their own principles of life. Eating with a patient who carries a stoma bag (in fact, the so-called "dung pocket") will not give people a good feeling, after all, no matter how strong a friend is.
To be a human being is to put yourself in the shoes of others. My niece Jingjing said one thing. There was a teacher at their school who also had ostomy surgery. This teacher loves to rub mahjong and often goes to play mahjong with the ostomy bag he wears. If you don't feel the smell of Bao City for a long time, you can't feel it, it doesn't mean that others can't feel it. No matter how much you care, others will also feel a bad smell. Getting along with people with a peculiar smell, others will be uncomfortable and embarrassed to explain, and over time they will not be able to persevere. So, once I was picked out by a straightforward friend of Ma. The teacher was ashamed and landless, and never again made a crowd of people.
Actually, I've had a similar experience myself. Years ago, a friend had liver ascites. According to doctors, the disease is not contagious. In addition, this friend is very arrogant, and he doesn't pay much attention to other people's feelings, and he usually likes to get together, and he participates as usual at every party. A friend who has a heart is not happy, and says that he will not participate in any occasion he will participate in in the future. This made everyone very embarrassed, for fear of embarrassing everyone, and when there were similar occasions in the future, they would no longer invite sick friends to participate. At present, my situation is similar to that friend with liver ascites, and if I were someone else, I would also care about mixing with a seriously ill patient. Therefore, if it can not be mixed, it will not be mixed. A true friend will not abandon you because you are not involved; If you really abandon it, you are not a true friend. Therefore, since the illness, many friends have invited me, but I have politely declined, and my friends are also very understanding of my feelings, no longer reluctant, and naturally it has not affected the friendship between each other.
Brother Zhenru and Brother Lijing are both confidants, so of course there is no problem. So, in the end, my wife and I joyfully sent our two brothers out of the house.
180, astrologer of my family.
I don't know when my daughter became obsessed with astrology. She has been interested in astrology since her school days. Over the years, I have been paying attention to the development trend of astrology and the distribution in China, and have begun to conduct research. It started out as a hobby, but then slowly got into it and became a career. After a long period of study and professional training, he is no longer limited to the perspective of "Tao", but also has accumulated his own unique experience in the aspect of "art", and began to astrology and watch for friends, and his influence has gradually expanded, and he has a certain influence in the industry. I teased, "You've become a little witch." ”
I know a little bit about Chinese Feng Shui and divination, but I don't know much about Western astrology, just scratching the surface. The explanation to her daughter still sounds like falling into a fog.
This thing is particular about believing in it, and if you don't believe it, you don't have it. I neither deny nor superstitious things such as divination and feng shui, and even if I don't use them as a "guide to action", at least they can be used as a spiritual comfort, just as religion is a spiritual refuge for human beings when they are confused and tired.
According to her own words, in all the plates she has seen, the accuracy rate has reached more than 90%, and she is called "great god" and "goddess". I was a little skeptical about this, so I said, "Then you can show us for yourself!" ”
In the process of unraveling her near tedious process, I still seem to understand whether I understand it or not; However, it is still possible to sort out a few conclusions:
1. I'm a Taurus and I'm transshipment from 2022. Especially after May 10, the effect began to be obvious. I was a little surprised by the date of May 10th because it was my birthday on the Gregorian calendar. My daughter didn't know about my Gregorian birthday, because my family has always had a lunar birthday, and I have never had a Gregorian birthday. Whether she's right or not, I'd rather believe it, because 2021 has been too bad for me. She said that the transfer will start in 2022, and of course I would like to believe it, even if it is a good wish. The joy of life is not entirely about how much it is realized, most of the time it is lived in good wishes. So do I.
2. My son will encounter a bottleneck in his career in a few years, but don't worry, he will have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of his life; It's a bit of a physical problem, but it's fine.
3, the grandson's life is very good, but his luck is not as good as his life. I asked what it meant, and she said there would be some problems, but they were all dangerous. His intelligence score is the highest, a bit surprisingly high, and he will develop in technology, art, the Internet, and real estate in the future, and even have high achievements.
There are also some downsides, such as the risk of surgery before the end of next year (not me). It made me feel a little anxious. My daughter comforted me and said that there was no danger, just a little "small disaster", and I would get through it smoothly. That's when I was relieved.
I wrote down what she said in order to verify it in the future. Of course, for some reason, I didn't write it all here, because I didn't want to advertise everything in my house to the world.
181, chemotherapy, or the New Year.
My daughter came to ** and asked me when I would have my next chemotherapy treatment?
Actually, I've been struggling with this for a long time. According to your doctor's instructions, there should be a three-week gap between chemotherapy treatments. The last chemotherapy treatment started on January 5 and ended on the 8th, and the next one should be on the 29th to 31st. However, the 31st is already Chinese New Year's Eve. Chinese New Year's Eve is still in the hospital, at least this hurdle in the heart is not good, because the ancients have a saying, the year is not good, indicating a bad year. Besides, according to past experience, after each chemotherapy infusion, there will be four or five days of very severe reactions, dizziness, retching, weakness of limbs, unable to eat, unable to sleep, this year will definitely not be good. A few days ago, Brother Zhenru, who had been the director of the hospital, came to visit, and when he talked about it, he strongly advocated that he should simply do it a few days later and wait until after the Spring Festival. I think it's doable. If you go to chemotherapy after the sixth day of the first month, that is, about a week late, it should have little impact on **.
Unexpectedly, her daughter didn't support this idea very much, she still had concerns, afraid that it would be bad for **. So, I contacted the attending doctor, Dr. Geng, directly. Dr. Geng also doesn't seem to approve of delaying the first time, and he says it's better to try to get it earlier. My daughter has a tendency to let me make up my own mind.
So, tangled.
It seems that chemotherapy and the New Year have formed an opposite: chemotherapy will have a bad year, and a bad year will indicate a bad year; In a good year, chemotherapy will be delayed, which may have the consequences of adjugating**. I came across the ultimate Shakespearean question: chemotherapy or Chinese New Year, and it was a question worth pondering.
After many years of mixing in officialdom, he has formed the habit and experience of bypassing traffic lights. Can you find a way between the two? Of course. As the saying goes: frown, take care of it. I frowned slightly, and a clever plan came to mind: first pass the New Year, eat the New Year's dumplings, feel better, and then it doesn't matter what you do. February 1 is the first day of the Lunar New Year, even if it is the second day of the first lunar month, what if you go to the hospital?February 1 is a few days away from January 28. Although the cancer cells are hateful, they are not so ruthless, just because they delay for three or four days, they will drive people to a dead end, right?
It's decided, that's the idea!As soon as I talked to my daughter in **, she didn't seem to have any reason to refuse, so she quickly contacted Dr. Geng. Dr. Geng was also reasonable, saying, "Then February 3rd." ”
So, it was set, it was February 3rd.
182, beef stuffed buns.
My wife knew that I loved beef, so I bought it and asked me if I steamed buns or dumplingsI replied without hesitation: steamed buns!
The reason I am so firm is because I have a beef stuffed bun complex.
At the end of the 70s, I was selected by Zhu Zhenyue and Sun Bochang, two teachers from the creative group of the Cultural Center, to Jiaohe to engage in creation. A crop boy with a head full of sorghum flowers and a gray face came to the county seat, as if Grandma Liu had entered the Rongguo Mansion, and she looked out of place everywhere. Let's talk about eating. At that time, the largest number of people in the cultural center was the group art group, and there were more than a dozen people in a quyi team, so a special room was set up for this purpose. I was in the creative group and Shi Xueping partnered in it. Sometimes the room "improves life", there are many people, and it is impossible to make dumplings, at most it is steamed buns. The black-faced buns are very small, five cents each. It is said that it is a meat bun, and you can't eat the difference between meat and vegetables after eating. I just came from the countryside, and it is the age of "half the size of the child to eat the dead old man", such a bun, eating ten at a time is not enough. However, I only buy three at a time. One is afraid of spending money, and the other is afraid of jokes. Shi Xueping ate five or six meals a meal, and Cao Liansheng of the Quyi team joked: "Looking at your amount of food, you don't look like a literati at all." Look at Li Hongmian, who eats half less than you. "I don't think it's funny at all: I eat less because I'm a literati?Isn't it poor yet?At the same time, I was a little proud, saying that I was like a literati, after all, I was one step closer to the literati and one step away from the croppers. You know, at that time, I was desperately trying to escape from the crops. It's just that he has won the reputation of a literati, but he doesn't call the shots with a gurgling stomach in the middle of the night, fortunately no one can hear it, otherwise, he would slap the "literati" in the face?
During the Lantern Festival in 1979, I didn't go home for the festival because I helped the county's folk art performance. However, the cook went home, the fire ceased in the house, and there was no food at once. Not far to the west of the cultural center, there is a restaurant next to Xinhua Bookstore, called the Second Hotel. The store is not big, there are not many customers, and most of the time it is deserted. Even so, I was so afraid to enter. I really can't do it today, so I have to go in and fill my stomach first.
When I entered the door, there was no one eating, and several waitresses were chatting in sweaters. I stepped forward timidly and asked, "What do you have to eat?"”
Beef stuffed buns!The waitress in her forties replied angrily without flirting her eyelids.
I don't know if I offended her somewhere, but I became more and more cowardly and afraid, but I still had the courage to ask, "How much is it?"”
The waitress finally rolled her eyes and glanced at me: "Eight points." ”
I secretly pressed the deflated pocket: "Why don't you have three?"”
The waitress seemed to be amused by my rustic appearance: "Who do you ask?".”
I smiled embarrassedly, hesitated for a moment, and seemed to have finally made up my mind, and said in an open tone, "Then five!".”
Four cents!Under the urging gaze of the waitress, I lined up three "Mao (Horn) Tickets" and a "steel hammer" with a five-point, two two-point, and one-point "steel hammer" in front of her.
She put away the money, picked up five buns from the dustpan covered with the quilt, and held them in front of me.
The buns are steamed in advance and have a slight residual temperature. said that it was two by two, and it was estimated that the stuffing was also included. The dough is the kind of wheat flour that does not remove the bran, and it is black;There is a lot of meat in the filling, and it has already been held with balls. At that time, beef was not worth much, it was much cheaper than pork. It's just that the skin of the bun is very thick, and taking a bite is like "this place is forty miles away from the stuffing". The skin is not thin, the filling is naturally not big, and the small lump is like a homeless man shivering in the corner. But the taste is not bad, because in the eyes of a crop boy who has never seen meat all year round, eating this is already a fairy-like luxury. The feeling at that time was just one word: fragrant!Two words: it smells so good!
You may not believe it, but in the decades since, I have eaten buns with various fillings, such as pork filling, mutton filling, three-fresh filling, etc., but I have never eaten beef filling, not once. It's definitely not that you can't afford to eat, it's not that you can't eat, just go to that small restaurant, as long as you order, he will make it for you. But I just haven't ordered it once, so naturally I haven't eaten it. Why? I don't know, but it's definitely not hypocritical.
After more than 40 years, I finally ate beef stuffed buns again. My wife's steamed buns, beef with celery, thin skin filling, bite into it, the gravy bursts, and the lips and teeth are fragrant. At this time, it would be a disappointment to use superfluous words to describe it. It's a feeling: the warmth of the year, although there is still a little bit of sourness.