Written on 2024-02-29
Reading the information last night generated some confusion and negative thoughts.
I read the unfinished book on the shelf this afternoon, and there was a passage on the page that solved my doubts: "You can feel their virtue through the dignity and majesty they display." Just as the reflection of the light, you don't see the light itself, but the golden shining light. "The clouds dispersed, and the moon hung high. Again, I make it clear: the world is complex, and what you believe is chosen by what you see. Rather than hearsay, those that have not been verified by me personally do not count. At night, I went downstairs to the river and walked six kilometers briskly, and I felt like I could run. If the weather is warmer and I'm still in China, I'll go for a run every morning and evening. I went to Decathlon with Zhao and saw that there were cheap knee pads, so in order to save money, let him buy one for experience first, and then buy three more if he felt good. Decathlon's knee pads have proven to be very useful. At the same time, it was found that their shoes were also very cost-effective, and the commuter loafers of 199 or 299 yuan were comfortable and easy to wear. We've been successful in our consumption downgrade, and I'm happy about that. At the same time that my material desires have become lower, I also realize that life is a process of constantly convincing myself, not bullying or intimidation, but really reaching a consensus with myself, as if the two of me discussed it and made a decision in peace - "try to make life as simple as possible".
Walking briskly at night, my mind is not idle to think about problems. Sometimes you are overtaken by people while walking. Today, in order to maintain the speed, it was decided to give yourself a small goal to surpass those in front of you. In this way, the speed is not dropped. After exercising, I really wanted to drink a cup of hot coffee, so I brewed a cup of instant powder. In the days when consumption was downgraded, instant coffee powder was a great choice, and together with Lipton tea bags, it supported my daily routine. There are many ways in which the diversity of life can be documented. I like ordinary people who record their days in **, or words. Recently, I was reading a book written by a vegetable market vendor, setting up a stall in the morning, and starting to write in the afternoon after my son went to kindergarten. In her state, she is a bit like Liaojing. These female writers are very tenacious, in addition to their motherhood, they use their spare time to earn food and clothing, and realize their new self-worth little by little, as Yishu said: "These hands are small but they belong to me."
In many moments, you will realize a truth, that is, when you are in it, you often don't know what it's like. Just like the moment I walked a long way, the moment I sat down, I realized that my legs were so tired and sore, and after staying outdoors for a long time in winter and entering the warm room, I felt so cold. If a person in pain does not feel bitter himself, then he is not bitter, and the feeling of outsiders is not important. "I never thought about the use of writing, nor did I have any dreams and feelings to become a writer, I regarded writing as an interesting thing in daily life, and I was interested in playing mahjong, traveling, and drinking." "There is no purpose to live and write, like a stream, and its original flow is not intended to be collected into the ocean. It just flows by instinct and potential. And the clear stream is fast, regardless of the green mountains, it is the poet's world as he sees it.
The people and things in the outside world are a mirror of how we see ourselves, and pieces of fragments flash to reveal an incomplete self. Writing characters is actually writing about yourself, as Sanmao said: "Your various annotations and readings of me do not constitute one ten-thousandth of me, but you are yourself at a glance." It's really a world of sand.