My name is Lin Wan and I am 32 years old. In the eyes of most people, I may be a woman with a little mystery - a second marriage, and a lovely daughter Xiaojie. But in my own eyes, I am just an ordinary woman who longs to love and be loved.
Today is the second time in my life that I wear a wedding dress. I stood in front of the mirror, nervously arranging the hem of my wedding dress. This wedding dress was specially chosen by me, simple yet elegant, with a bow at the waist that was just right to cover my hands that were a little shaky from nervousness. I look at myself in the mirror, and my appearance may really be super high, but at this moment, I hope that people can see my inner firmness and expectation.
Mom, you are so beautiful! Xiaojie ran up to me at some point, and she looked up, her eyes shining like stars.
I squatted down and gently stroked her head: "Xiaojie is also beautiful today." ”
Xiaojie is the daughter of my ex-husband and me, and she just turned six years old this year. She is smart and sensible, but she is also sensitive at some times. I know that she has a lot of curiosity and worry about her new father in her little heart.
Mom, are you really going to marry that uncle? Xiaojie suddenly asked in a whisper.
I was slightly stunned, then nodded: "Yes, Xiaojie." Mom felt that Uncle was a very nice person and that he would be our new family. ”
Xiaojie bit her lip and nodded as if she didn't understand. I know it's going to take time for her to get used to it all.
The wedding scene was warmly and romantically decorated, with flowers, balloons, and the wedding table we were about to take vows, everything seemed so beautiful. However, when I took Xiaojie's hand and walked to the wedding stage, I couldn't help but feel an inexplicable nervousness in my heart.
I remembered my first marriage. At that time, I was still a young girl full of longing for love, and I met my ex-husband, thinking that he was my destiny. We quickly fell in love and entered the palace of marriage in desperation. However, life after marriage was not as good as I imagined. My ex-husband gradually revealed his true nature - alcoholic, irritable, and even sometimes even did something to me. I endured all this silently for the sake of Xiaojie, until I finally mustered up the courage to file for divorce.
That failed marriage left me with deep scars and made me fear of love and marriage. I thought I would never believe in love again, until I met him now, my fiancé Li Hao.
Li Hao is a mature and steady man with a warm smile and broad shoulders. He doesn't mind my past, and he doesn't mind me taking Xiaojie with him. He used his sincerity and patience to melt the ice in my heart little by little, and made me believe in the power of love again.
However, even so, when I stood at the beginning of my marriage again, I still couldn't completely shake off the tension and anxiety in my heart. I'm afraid that I'll choose the wrong person again, I'm afraid that Xiaojie will be hurt, and I'm afraid that I'll fall into the abyss of pain again.
Wan'er, are you nervous? Li Hao's voice suddenly sounded in my ears, and he gently held my hand.
I looked up and saw the firmness and tenderness in his eyes: "Sort of. I answered honestly.
Li Hao smiled slightly, and wrapped my little hand tightly with his big hand: "Don't be afraid, I'm here." ”
At that moment, I felt as if I felt the strength and warmth coming from his palm. I took a deep breath and tried to calm the tension and uneasiness inside.
The wedding ceremony began. We stood on the wedding stage, facing the blessings and testimonies of our family and friends. I held Xiaojie's hand and felt the warmth and strength coming from her small palm. I know that this time, I'm not alone anymore. I have Li Hao, Xiaojie, and our love and support.
Ms. Lin Wan, are you willing to marry Mr. Li Hao as your wife? Rich or poor, healthy or sick, would you like to spend your life with him? The master of ceremonies asked solemnly.
I raised my head and looked at Li Hao's affectionate gaze, and an inexplicable courage surged in my heart. I took a deep breath and replied loudly, "I do!" ”
These three words seem to have exhausted all my strength, and it is also like my farewell to my past and my commitment to the future. I know, this time, I really married the right person.
In the days that followed, Li Hao and I worked hard to run our new family. He used his love and patience to ** my inner wound a little bit, and also made me believe in the beauty of marriage again. Xiaojie also gradually accepted Li Hao as her new father, and she began to take the initiative to get close to and communicate with him.
Whenever I see the happy smiling faces of Xiaojie and Li Hao playing together, I will feel an inexplicable feeling of emotion and happiness in my heart. I know that this time, I really chose a right destination for myself and Xiaojie.
Looking back now, the twists and turns of the emotional journey and the tense and warm wedding are still vivid. I know that there are still many unknowns and challenges waiting for us in life, but I believe that as long as we have love and faith in our hearts, we can overcome all difficulties and move towards a better future.
Life after marriage was not as calm as I imagined. After all, starting a new family, especially a second marriage with one child, has far more challenges and difficulties than I expected.
Xiaojie's adaptation problem was one of my initial biggest worries. Although she was friendly to Li Hao on the surface, I knew that she still had reservations deep down. She was afraid of losing me, afraid that the new dad would leave her like her biological father. In order to make her feel the warmth of home, Li Hao and I decided to work together.
Li Hao took the initiative to take on the task of picking up Xiaojie to and from school, and spent time playing games and telling stories with her every day. He also deliberately studied Xiaojie's favorite picture book and would accompany her to read it every night. Gradually, Xiaojie began to take the initiative to share her interesting stories at school with Li Hao, and her laughter became more and more frequent.
However, life is not always smooth sailing. Between me and Li Hao, there will also be disagreements over some trivial matters. Especially when it comes to educating children, our ideas sometimes conflict. I tend to discipline strictly, while Li Hao prefers gentle guidance.
I remember one time, Xiaojie forgot to do her homework because she was playful. I was so angry that I called her in front of me and severely criticized her. Xiaojie trembled with fright, tears rolling in her eyes. Li Hao was distressed when he saw it, he pulled me aside and said softly, "Wan'er, I know you are for Xiaojie's good." But the child is still young and needs more patience and guidance. We can work with her to make a study plan so that she can slowly develop good study habits. ”
Listening to Li Hao's words, I gradually calmed down. I realized that my approach to education might have been too harsh and needed to be adjusted. So, we made a study plan with Xiaojie and agreed on the study time and rest time every day. Since then, Xiaojie's attitude towards learning has improved significantly, and she has begun to take the initiative to share her learning results at school with us.
In addition to the problems of homeschooling, we also need to face external pressures and prejudices. After all, second-married families are still more or less subject to some strange eyes in today's society. Especially when I take Xiaojie to participate in some social activities, there will always be people who look at me with sympathetic eyes, as if to say: "This woman is really not easy, with a child and still married." ”
Whenever this happens, I walk over with my head held high and tell them with my actions that I don't need sympathy, that I am just pursuing my own happiness. I have the right to choose my own lifestyle and partner, and I also have the ability to give Xiaojie a warm home.
Over time, our family gradually got back on track. Xiaojie's academic performance is getting better and better, and she is becoming more and more cheerful and confident. The relationship between Li Hao and I has also become deeper and deeper, and we have learned to understand and tolerate each other. Whenever we encounter difficulties, we will work together to overcome them and work together for the happiness of our families.
In the process, I also gradually understood what true love and marriage are. Love is not a momentary passion and romance, but a long-term companionship and protection; Marriage is not simply two people living together, but the deep integration of two families and two lives. On the road of second marriage, I may have walked a little more tortuous than others, but in the end I still found my own happiness.
Looking back now, the twists and turns of the emotional journey and the tense and warm wedding are still vivid. I know that there are still many unknowns and challenges waiting for us in life, but I believe that as long as we have love and faith in our hearts, we can overcome all difficulties and move towards a better future.
In this world of change, the only constant is change itself. But I know that no matter what changes happen in the future, I will hold on to my own happiness and never let go. Because I believe that everyone deserves to be loved and cherished; Every family should be full of warmth and happiness; Every marriage should be managed and guarded with care.