Late at night, I sat alone on the sofa in the living room, holding my mobile phone in my hand, and there were strings of cold words on the screen, sending and receiving, taking away a trace of loneliness and leaving a piece of emptiness. I, a 26-year-old young woman named Xiaoyu, lives in this bustling city.
I have a husband, a husband who is on the go all year round. He is a businessman with a busy job, and every business trip is a long wait and endless thoughts. I am an ordinary white-collar worker in the workplace, running around in this steel forest every day, looking for my own value and belonging.
My life is very ordinary, I go to and from work every day, get together with friends on weekends, and occasionally talk to my husband and say goodbye. But just when I thought I was used to this kind of life, fate hit me hard.
It was a spring afternoon, the sun was shining through the office window, and I was busy and full of work. Suddenly, a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts, and I looked up and saw that it was a male leader of the company, Mr. Zhang.
He is the assistant manager of our department, not too old, but he has a mature and steady temperament, always smiling and amiable. His presence always brings life and vitality to the office.
Xiaoyu, are you free? Mr. Zhang asked with a smile.
I nodded, put down the documents in my hand, and said with a smile, "What's the matter, Mr. Zhang?" ”
He walked into the office and sat across from me with a serious expression: "I see that your work is doing very well, and you have a lot of ideas for the development of the company, I think we can communicate more." ”
I was moved when I heard this, and I couldn't hide my excitement: "Thank you Mr. Zhang for your affirmation, I have been working hard and hope to make more contributions to the company." ”
We communicate more and more frequently, and every day we discuss some details of our work, and he always listens to my opinions patiently and gives me a lot of encouragement and support. I gradually found that I was excited about Mr. Zhang, and that kind of heartbeat was a long-lost feeling between me and my husband.
In him, I found a sense of being understood and cared for. He is not only my leader, but also like a friend who knows how to listen and care, and his every word is like a warm wind, blowing away the loneliness in my heart.
But I am well aware that this kind of heartbeat is dangerous. I have a husband, a husband who loves me dearly, he may be far away, but his love is always in my heart. I should not have any wavering and betrayal of others.
I tried to fight my emotions and told myself to stick to my bottom line, but every time he appeared in my sight, my heart fluttered involuntarily and I couldn't control it. I began to run away from him, refusing to be alone with him, but there was a hidden expectation in my heart, expecting his care and greetings.
Time passed slowly, and I tried to tell myself to be calm and reasonable, but that emotion was like a thin rope that tied me firmly to his side, unable to break free.
Until one day, he suddenly found me with a heavy expression: "Xiaoyu, I have to tell you something." ”
My heart tightened, I didn't know what he was going to say, but I couldn't wait to know the answer.
I know you have a special affection for me, and I appreciate your passion and dedication to your work. But I have to tell you, I already have a family, I have a wife and children, and I can't give you any promises. ”
His words were like a basin of cold water that woke me up from my dream. I froze in place, my heart was like a knife, it turned out that I had always been the protagonist of a joke, he had never had any special feelings for me, I was just an ordinary subordinate, and it was not important in his eyes.
I tried to control my emotions and forced a smile: "I understand, Mr. Zhang, thank you for telling me." ”
He sighed softly, a hint of apology in his eyes, "I hope you can understand, I don't want to hurt you." ”
I forced a smile and turned away, but tears welled up and my heart was like a knife. I understood that all this was just my own wishful thinking, and that it was my own care and concern that took it as the germ of love.