I'm 57 years old, I've been a temporary couple with someone else for eight years, and now I'm old, but I'm in a dilemma
I'm fifty-seven years old now, which is not a small age. I've been living with Lao Liu for eight years, and we are next-door neighbors.
When I was younger, I was a small clerk, and although I didn't achieve much, I had a fairly stable job. However, I encountered some difficulties, my ex-husband was an alcoholic and often indulged in alcohol and could not take care of the family.
My son grew up, I also retired, I thought I could enjoy my old age, but a serious illness took my wife's life, and I was alone ever since.
Life alone is lonely, in addition to eating and sleeping, I just watch TV and take a walk. Although I have a son and daughter-in-law, they both have their own lives and jobs.
When I felt that life was hopeless, Lao Liu moved next door. Lao Liu is a few years older than me, and he is also alone. We used to shop, chat, and sometimes cook and watch TV together.
Although we knew that it was just living together and there was no legal marital relationship, we felt good. We are happy when we are together and take care of each other; When they are not together, they each live their own lives without interfering with each other.
We have experienced quarrels and misunderstandings, but more often than not, understanding and caring. I once asked Lao Liu if he would like to marry me, and he smiled and said, "We are both so old, it is not important to get married, it is important to have a companion by your side." ”
We know that others may not approve of our relationship, but for us, supporting each other is tangible. We know how to cherish and be grateful better than young people.
However, life is always full of surprises. Just when I thought I could live peacefully with Lao Liu, he was diagnosed with terminal cancer and was no longer able to **.
This news was a huge blow to me. I can't imagine my life after losing Lao Liu. Although we are not married, we have become dependent on each other as husband and wife.
Lao Liu is very strong, but his condition is constantly deteriorating. Watching him in pain, my heart was like a knife. I want to do my best to take care of him and accompany him for the rest of his life.
But I also have health problems, high blood pressure, arthritis, etc. Sometimes I want to give up, but when I think of Lao Liu's pain, I can't leave him.
I'm in a dilemma right now. I couldn't bear to watch Lao Liu suffer, but I was also worried about my health. I don't want to affect my care for Lao Liu because of my own problems.
I've been thinking: what should I do? Continue to accompany Lao Liu for the rest of his life? Or let him find a better home? I really can't choose.
This is my dilemma: I have lived as husband and wife with Lao Liu for eight years, and now I am facing a lonely future. Although we are not legally married, we have come to treat each other as relatives.