In the dead of night, I always think of that familiar and unfamiliar face, my younger brother Xiaojie. He was five years younger than me, but he used his short life to give me endless guilt and remorse. I don't know how to repay him, or I can't repay him for all he has done for me.
Xiaojie has been a sensible child since he was a child. I remember that at that time, our family was not well-off, and my parents were always busy running around to make a living. Although Xiaojie is young, he learned early to share the housework and take care of me. When my parents were not at home, he would step on a small bench and try to reach the stove to prepare simple meals for me. Those immature little hands were often burned red, but he never complained.
Brother, are you tired of studying? I cooked you a bowl of egg soup. "Xiaojie is always like this, in his insignificant way, silently supporting me. At that time, I was often immersed in my own world, blind to his efforts.
I went to college and left home, but Xiaojie chose to stay in the town and help his parents take care of the business because of his family's financial situation. He always smiled and said, "Brother, you are the hope of the family, you go and pursue your dreams, I am at home." "Every time I hear something like that, I always have mixed feelings in my heart, but I don't know what to say.
After graduating from university, I stayed in the big city to work, and I gradually lost contact with my family. I always use my busy work as an excuse to ignore my younger brother who is working silently in his hometown. Until one day, I received a ** from my mother, saying that Xiao Huang had been in a car accident and was being rescued in the hospital.
When I rushed home, Xiaojie was already lying in the intensive care unit. His face was pale and his body was full of tubes. I held his cold hand, and tears flowed uncontrollably.
Brother, don't cry. Xiaojie tried to open his eyes, smiled and said to me, "I'm just a little tired and want to sleep for a while." ”
At that moment, I realized that I owed Xiaojie so much. He was always there when I needed it, but left me when I was able to repay him.
In the end, Xiaojie didn't survive that long night. He walked quietly, as if he had fallen asleep. I stood by his bedside and looked at his young face, filled with remorse and self-blame.
I began to sort through Jay's belongings, trying to find some memories of him among these trivial items. I found a worn-out diary that recorded Xiaojie's mood and daily trivialities.
Today, my brother is back from the **, he is very busy with work, but I can hear that he is very homesick. I miss him too and hope he comes back soon. ”
My brother said he was doing well in the big city, and I believed him. I also want to work hard to make life better for my family. ”
It's my birthday, and my brother sent me a gift. I'm so happy and feel like it's been worth it. ”
Page by page, my tears fell on those words. It turned out that Xiaojie had been silently watching me and supporting me, but I didn't know anything about it.
I held the journal in my arms, just like I was holding Xiaojie. I know that I will not be able to make up for the debt I owe him in this life, but I will remember him and love him in my own way.
Since then, I have started to pay attention to the development of my hometown and sponsored some poor students. Through these actions, I want to tell Xiaojie: Look, your brother is trying to become a better person.
I also often go home to visit my parents and spend time with them for chats and walks. I know this is one of the things that Jay would like to see the most.
However, even after doing so much, I still feel endless guilt and remorse whenever I think of that familiar and unfamiliar face in the dead of night. Xiaojie, Xiaojie, what do you want me to repay you? You have given me the most precious things in my life—love and affection—and I have failed to give you the attention and reciprocation you deserve.
Now I can only meet you through memories. In dreams, we often get together, laughing and playing happily; In reality, I will turn my thoughts about you into actions, help those in need, cherish my relatives and friends around me, and strive to become a useful person to society.
Xiaojie: Although you have left this world, you will always live in my heart; Although we have been separated by yin and yang, the deep and sincere relationship between us will never change; Although I will never be able to see you, hug you, or say "thank you" or "sorry" to you, please believe that I will use all my strength to continue your unfinished dreams and missions to make this world a better place because you and I once existed.
Allow me, dear brother, to honor your memory in such a way! May you rest in peace in heaven, and may we be brothers for the rest of our lives!
Xiaojie's departure seems to have taken away the most important support in my life. During that time, I was like a ship that had lost its direction, drifting in the vast sea of people. Work and life became boring, and I even began to doubt the meaning of my existence.
Until one day, I received a letter from my hometown. The letter was written by a student I had sponsored, her name was Xiaoya, a smart and sensible girl. In the letter, she told me that she was able to continue her education because of my help, and that her dream was to become a doctor in the future to treat people who were injured in accidents like Xiaojie.
It dawned on me that maybe this was what Jay wanted to give me in return. He used his life to awaken the kindness and sense of responsibility in my heart. He made me understand that life is not just for myself, but for those who need our help.
So, I decided to turn this guilt and remorse into action. I began to participate more actively in public welfare activities and sponsor more poor students. I even started a student sponsorship program in the company to help children who excel in character and academics but have difficult family backgrounds to complete their studies.
Whenever I see the smiling faces of the children because they are helped, I feel as if I see Xiaojie smiling at me. I know that he is accompanying me and supporting me in another way.
Time passed quietly in this way, busy and fulfilling. I gradually came out of the shadow of losing Xiaojie and started a new life. But in the dead of night, I still think of that familiar face, those warm memories.
Xiaojie, my younger brother, you have given me endless guilt and remorse with your short life. But you also made me understand the meaning and value of life. I will continue to work hard and repay you for all that you have given me with my actions.
At the same time, I have also begun to cherish my family and friends around me more. I know that life is fragile and short. We should not wait until we lose to know how to cherish it, but we should grasp the present and love and care for the people around us with our hearts.
I often go home to visit my parents and spend time with them through every important moment. I also started reaching out to my friends and sharing each other's lives and joys. I find that when I treat the people around me with my heart, I become happier and more content.
I have also become more active and engaged in my work. I know that every job is a responsibility, and every effort can change a person's destiny. I hope to create more value for the company and make more contributions to society through my own efforts.
Xiaojie, although you have left this world, you will always live in my heart. I will use all my strength to continue your dream and mission, to make this world a better place because you and I once existed. I'm sure that's what you want to see the most.
Now I am no longer the selfish, indifferent brother. I have learned to cherish, to give, and to be grateful. I know it's all because of you, my little brother Jay.
Allow me, dear brother, to honor your memory in such a way! I will use all my love and strength to live, to fight, to help those in need. I'm sure you'll see all that I've done in heaven and be proud and relieved of me.
May you rest in peace in heaven! May we still be brothers in the next life! May all love and kindness be treated gently!
Whenever night falls and the stars twinkle, I always look up at the vast sky, looking for the star that belongs to you. I know you're watching over me and watching over me. And I will always miss you and be grateful to you, my dear brother Xiaojie. You made me feel guilty all my life, but you also made me understand the true meaning of love and responsibility. I will spend the rest of my life making up for this guilt and spreading this love and responsibility for ...... forever
As the years go by, many people and things have drifted apart, but only the memories of you have become clearer and deeper. Xiaojie, Xiaojie, if there is an afterlife, replace me with the one who pays silently without asking for anything in return! I only hope that you can have a happy and healthy life ......