On that festive Lantern Festival night, the atmosphere in the kitchen was extremely tense. My remarried wife Zhang Long and I were standing in the kitchen, and the air between the two seemed to freeze. His face was full of dissatisfaction and anger, and I, too, were furious, and my heart was full of grievances and grievances.
What is your attitude? I invited my family to dinner, do you have such a big opinion? Zhang Long's voice was high and high, as if he wanted to overpower me.
What do I have to say? I just don't think it's fair! I'm busy by myself, buying groceries and cooking, and spending all my money! Not to be outdone, my voice was equally unyielding, and every word revealed my dissatisfaction and exhaustion.
Your money? Isn't it our money? I'll give you 3,000 yuan a month, isn't that enough? He retorted with a sneer, completely unaware of the essence of the problem.
Three thousand dollars? Do you think this will buy me for my hard work and dedication? Is it fair that I will bear the cost of a dinner party? "I was almost yelling, my eyes were full of tears, but I refused to let them out.
The atmosphere in the kitchen is getting sharper and sharper, and the sound of two people arguing fills the entire space. This sudden dispute is not only because of the reunion banquet of the Lantern Festival, but also because the long-term imbalance and injustice have accumulated to a critical point. In what was supposed to be a joyous reunion, our hearts were far apart.
At the reunion banquet of that Lantern Festival, Zhang Long's actions made me deeply disappointed and dissatisfied. The house was bustling with relatives and friends, and Zhang Long laughed loudly in the living room, happily showing everyone the dishes and drinks he had prepared. I'm busy in the kitchen, but I'm counting the cost of it all.
Wife, we have to entertain you well this time, I have specially selected a few bottles of good wine, as well as a few dishes that you are best at. Zhang Long said as he picked up a bottle of wine and showed it to his relatives.
I replied, "yes, I know." However, these things add up to a lot of money, and you must know that there are a total of thirteen people, and the food money also costs a lot. ”
Zhang Long smiled and didn't seem to care: "It's okay, today is a good day, it's good for everyone to be happy." We'll talk about the money later. ”
As the banquet progressed, whenever someone praised the delicious dishes or the excellent wine, Zhang Long always happily accepted all the compliments, as if it were all his credit. And I, silently paying for all this, my heart is getting heavier and heavier.
After the banquet, Zhang Long and I finally had a chance to talk alone.
Zhang Long, are you happy with today's banquet? I asked straight to the point.
Of course happy, everybody's happy, you see, isn't that what we want? He was still basking in the joyous atmosphere he had just had.
I took a deep breath: "But, have you ever thought that all the expenses today are settled with my card. You've always said you'd treat everyone well, but why should I bear all the expenses? ”
Zhang Long was stunned for a moment, and then replied: "Wife, what is this?" Aren't we family? Besides, I give you 3,000 yuan every month, isn't it just for the family's expenses? ”
I felt powerless: "But 3,000 yuan is far from enough for a banquet like today." Do you know that today I'm busy by myself and you're just enjoying yourself, is that fair? ”
Zhang Long looked a little impatient: "Oh, why are you so careful? Isn't it just a meal? Why, you have to deprive me of the pleasure of being a master? ”
I was completely disappointed: "No, Zhang Long. It's not a matter of one meal, it's that you never really think about my feelings and burdens. You always take it for granted that I will support you in everything, but you never think to share it. ”
Do you really think it's reasonable to let me pay for it every time you go out to eat or buy something? I couldn't help but express all the dissatisfaction in my heart.
Zhang Long looked a little impatient, "Didn't I give you money to let you take care of this?" I don't understand what you're crazy about. ”
The little money you give is not enough for our expenses, let alone your so-called 'guests'! The more I talked, the more excited I became, "Last time you invited your friend to dinner, it cost me nearly a thousand yuan, what about yourself?" Without even a single reminder, I will default to the payment of the bill? ”
Zhang Long sneered, "That's my friend, what's wrong with me having a treat?" Do I still have to report to you? ”
It's not a matter of treats! I almost broke down, "The problem is that you never think about my feelings, and every time you make me bear the costs that I shouldn't have!" ”
As the argument escalated, I began to dig through old accounts, and every time he made me feel wronged and unfair, I brought up them one by one. Zhang Long had an indifferent attitude, and even began to fight back, accusing me of being stingy and not knowing how to understand him.
In the end, I couldn't bear it anymore, and all the grievances and anger converged into one sentence: "Break up!" I'm not waiting! ”
Zhang Long was stunned, obviously he didn't expect me to say the word breakup at this juncture. "What do you say? He couldn't seem to believe his ears.
I said, let's break up! I'm tired, Long Zhang. I don't want to live like this anymore, I'm not your servant, nor is it an ATM you use at will. "My voice trembled, but my resolve was stronger than ever.
At that moment, the atmosphere in the kitchen was extremely solemn. Zhang Long seemed to want to say something, but I had already turned away from the kitchen, leaving him alone. Although my heart was as heavy as a thousand pounds, the moment I said those words, I felt a sense of relief and freedom that I had not felt in a long time. I know I made the right choice.
As time went on, I began to re-examine my relationship with Zhang Long. I realized that as much as his actions hurt me, the emotions that had accumulated over time were not so easy to erase. I began to try to understand what was happening from his point of view, and while that didn't mean I would forgive him for all his actions, at least I learned to let go of my resentment and face the past with a more peaceful mind.
I have also received several ** from Zhang Long, and he seems to regret everything that happened and hopes to have the opportunity to meet me and express his apologies. Although I wasn't ready to face him, I told myself that one day, when I'm fully healed, we might be able to sit down like friends and talk in peace.
This experience, although full of twists and turns and challenges, taught me the true meaning of life. Happiness does not depend on the given by others, but comes from one's own inner peace and self-love. I learned to find strength in the face of adversity, to find myself in loneliness, and to find new hope in loss.
Now I am stronger and more independent than ever. I know that no matter how bumpy the road ahead is, as long as I stick to myself and walk bravely, there is nothing that cannot be overcome. Life will always inadvertently give us the most precious gift - growth.